The Unsuitable Boy (Part 7)

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The phone buzzed. Another message! Siddhartha sighed. He settled his mother back in her bed. They had just come back from another one of her chemotherapy sessions. After making sure that she had everything she would need, he came back to his room and took out his phone.

“I need your help. Please!” the message read. She had been sending messages since morning at exact intervals of two hours. This was the fifth one.

“I am sorry. I really am.”

“Talk to me, please.”

“I made a bigger fool of myself yesterday than I had done before. Will you never forgive?”

“There was no withdrawal from my account today. Isn’t a chemo session scheduled?”

Those were the first four messages.

She must have known what will finally get to him when she wrote the fifth one. He called back and sprang out of his bed on hearing her voice.

“What the hell happened to you?” he asked.

“Nothing. Caught cold, I think.”

“You have been crying.”

Silence.

“Karishma, I…”

“Please meet me.”

“Yes. Yes, I will. But Ma has just come back from chemo. I can’t leave her right now.”

“Can I come there?”

“Are you sure you want to?”

“Yes,” her voice was barely a whisper.

“I will text you the address. And call me from the cab if there is a problem in locating.”

“Nobody called,” Karishma told him when he asked if anyone from her husband’s family had asked after her. He had called Mr. Jain and informed him about Karishma’s decision to go to a hotel. But he had expected that someone would call Karishma and perhaps ask her to go back home.

“And your Uncle?”

“You have not been going there recently?”

“With Ma’s health I really don’t have time or inclination to teach school kids anymore. They understand, of course. But shouldn’t you have informed them?”

“May be I will. After I have made my arrangements.”

“And what are your plans?”

“I have to find some place to live. Then I will look for a job.”

He nodded.

“Why didn’t you withdraw money today? I have enough to last me a year. You don’t have to worry about it.”

“I didn’t need it, Karishma. The doctor says that this will be the last chemo for a while. He thinks cancer will be in remission for now. We, of course, have to keep checking.”

“You aren’t lying to me, are you? I am not running out of money.”

He buried his head in his hands, “No. I’m not trying to… I don’t try to manipulate you as if you were a child. I don’t think you would make stupid plans to make your marriage fail and I take what you say seriously. I don’t know what have you convinced yourself of and why.”

She looked down and mumbled another apology.

“You should let your uncle’s family know, at least.”

“I had told Mamiji. She knew exactly what the problem was. And she knew that I was being unnecessarily humiliated and shuttled between all kinds of doctors – homeopathy, ayurvedic, yunani, and what not. Even pundits and ojhas and all sorts of charlatans. But she never spoke a word for me. I don’t think I owe them anything.”

“Fine,” he said, though he made a mental note that he had to inform them, “What do you need help with?”

She looked away, embarrassed, then spoke in a low voice, “I have never lived on my own. I need to find a house, a job and everything else, I don’t know what all. And divorce.”

“You are sure you don’t want to go back to your uncle’s family? Even if they ask you to?”

“They won’t ask. They were done with me after getting me married.”

“They will, most likely. Whether they care for you or not, it will be an embarrassment to the family.”

“Even if they ask, I don’t want to go.”

“Both your families are business partners now. And you are the connecting link…”

“Why should I care?”

“I’m not saying that you can’t or shouldn’t do it. But staying on your own is a big decision, Karishma–”

“This is what my father would have wanted. He wasn’t bringing me up to be a show piece in a rich family. He wanted me to stand on my own two feet. He just didn’t survive to see it happening.”

“Fair enough. Let’s get started from tomorrow. House-hunting first.”

“Sid?”

“Kanishk? What a surprise? Come in,” Siddhartha got up to welcome his friend, “How are things?”

“You have become conspicuous by your absence, Professor, so I thought I would drop by.”

“Good you came. I am sorry. I am unable to visit your house these days. Ma’s cancer is in remission, but she is too weak and needs constant help with even regular activities.”

“And then there is Karishma, right?”

“What about Karishma?” Siddhartha laughed nervously, “She is not a child in my care. She is doing fine by herself.”

“That’s that, then,” Kanishk smiled.

“How are the two families getting along?”

“Women are not talking to each other. Men are trying to look graceful. Vikram refuses to talk and the gossips are about that he is gay.”

“You always think these things happen to other people…” Siddhartha murmured.

Kanishk understood that he wasn’t talking only about Karishma’s doomed marriage, but also about his mother’s illness.

“Listen Sid. Papa is worried about Karishma and she refuses to return home.”

“Let her be. She is doing fine.”

Karishma had found a small, but comfortable one-bedroom house for living and had also taken up a job as a teacher in a nearby school.

“She’d still be lonely.”

“He is thinking of getting her married again?”

Kanishk nodded.

Siddhartha shook his head. “I don’t approve of such plans right now and I am definitely not meddling. Once was bad enough.”

“Don’t meddle. Be a part of it.”

He flushed as if he had been caught thieving. “Whatever can you mean?” he growled to hide his embarrassment.

“Oh, come off it, Sid. I have always known how much you care for her. Everyone has, and only because everyone trusted you to behave correctly did they not bother to keep you apart or anything. And you didn’t break anyone’s trust. But are you going to act like you don’t love her? Why has she turned to you for advice and help while she is avoiding her own family? Isn’t it right that you should get married? And what I have come here to tell you is that you can stop behaving correctly for the sake of other people. Papa will be happy if you two got married. You will have his blessings.”

Siddhartha spoke after a long pause, “It isn’t just about me, Kanishk. It is about her too. More about her than me. She is the victim of the chaos.”

“She adores you. Don’t tell me you don’t know. She has been infatuated with you for a long time now.”

“She was!” he sighed, “She was infatuated with me. Now she is afraid that I will propose out of pity and she will have to accept out of gratitude.”

“You are making it more complicated than it is.”

“Life is complicated, isn’t it?”

“Bhaiya? How are you?” Karishma smiled as she slipped into her seat in the coffee shop, “Why didn’t you come home? It’s small, but not bad.”

Kanishsk smiled back, “I wasn’t avoiding your home, sis. It was just more convenient to meet you near your school. How are you?”

“I’m fine. How is everyone at home?”

“You can visit any time and find out for yourself.”

She averted her eyes.

“Karishma!” he reached out and pressed her hand gently, “I am not claiming that you haven’t suffered because of our decisions. But surely you don’t think Sid had anything to do with it.”

She was startled, “What has Siddhartha… Prof. Sen got to do with it?”

“He thinks you don’t like him anymore.”

She shook her head and looked down. She spoke after a while, “What are you trying to say?”

“It is good that you have taken charge of your life and living it your way. Now also take charge of your love life. Talk to Sid. He is utterly confused about you and feels guilty for what happened.”

“Guilty?”

“Why am I going in circles? Here is the thing. He loves you. And you love him. Both of you might think that nobody knew, but that’s not the case. Everybody trusted him and you. Both of you have been the very model of exemplary behavior. But now too much water has passed under the bridge. What happened to you was wrong, but Papa does want you to be happy, Karishma. If you and Sid married, you will have his blessings. The rest is up to you.”

Siddhartha was aware of the tension in the small hall, cozily furnished with mattresses, bolsters and cushions. She had decided against spending money on a sofa. “I don’t have to entertain guests here,” she had said.

“Thank you,” he said as she handed him a cup of tea. Then she too sat down on the mattress and absentmindedly cradled her cup in her hands, not drinking from it.

“Something wrong?” he asked.

She shook her head and flashed a nervous smile at him.

He cleared his throat and said, “You know, Karishma. Life doesn’t end with one bad experience. I know you are enjoying your independence. But having a life partner doesn’t necessarily mean losing it.”

“You think I should marry again?” she said staring down into her cup.

“It doesn’t have to be now. You are young and have all the time in the world. But you should keep yourself open to the idea. You are beautiful and intelligent. You will find a good and suitable boy.”

She looked up, and met his eyes, “Why did you never marry?”

He seemed to have thought of the answer in advance. He replied unhesitatingly, “Because I wasn’t suitable for the woman I loved.”

“Shouldn’t she have decided that? What you should really decide is whether she was suitable for you?”

“How else could I have fallen in love with her? A forbidden kind of love at that?”

“Then you should tell her.”

“She can do much better. I am still unsuitable for her.”

“Trust her to take the right decision for herself. She might not have been given that chance ever.”

Without breaking his eye-contact with her, Siddhartha set his cup aside and crept closer to her on the mattress. He took away her untouched teacup and set that aside too.

“You had asked me once if I would have married you. If I ever thought of you. The answer, which I had evaded back then, is yes. Yes, I have thought of you. Thought of you a lot since the first time I met you, but even more after you started talking to me. And since then, trying to love any other woman has been a futile exercise. So I ask you to take the right decision. I don’t ask you to accept me. I ask you to accept or reject me whichever is right for you.”

She leaned forward a planted a quick peck on his lips. “Yes,” she said, “You are the most suitable boy for me. The man for me. The life-long friend and partner I want and need.”

This time he leaned forward and pressed his lips against hers. His kiss was more demanding than hers had been.

– The End –

 

The Unsuitable Boy (Part 6)

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It was the sight of him that gave her the courage to finally put her plan into action. He had asked her every time they met over last few months if she was unwell. She wasn’t, but she might as well have been. Given the number of times she had been to see the doctors in last few months. She hadn’t told him that. She had always smiled and asked him not to worry.

She had just come back after seeing a gynecologist – yet another one. Her mother-in-law had not been with her and that gave her the perfect opportunity!

Siddhartha had come to meet Mr. Jain and had stopped by to say hello to Mrs. Jain.

“Mummy ji!” Karishma ran to her mother-in-law and hugged her, a gesture that made the older woman awkward. She was definitely not used this show of affection from her daughter-in-law. She eyed her curiously as did Siddhartha. Vikram, who had just wandered into the hall on hearing Siddhartha’s voice, looked puzzled.

Karishma whispered something in Mrs. Jain’s ears and her eyes went wide.

“Really?”

Karishma just nodded and stood up to leave.

“What is it?” Vikram asked taking a few steps towards his wife and mother.

“Well, congratulations, Vikram. The father-to-be, eh? Finally!” Mrs. Jain replied grinning widely.

From the corner of her eyes Karishma saw Siddhartha’s face going taut, but he arranged it back quickly into a smile.

“Congratulations Vikram, Karishma,” he approached Vikram to shake his hand, but Vikram’s violent reaction took him unawares. Vikram grabbed Karishma and pushed her against a wall.

“What drama is this, Karishma? Whose child is this?” he growled.

“Vikram, you are hurting me.”

Mrs. Jain was dumbstruck, but Siddhartha rushed and pulled Vikram away from Karishma. “What are you doing?”

“You stay away from this,” Vikram thundered, “Or may be not! May be its time to confess. You have done this, haven’t you?” He charged at Siddhartha this time, but Siddhartha was able to hold him off.

“Enough, Vikram!” Mrs. Jain cried, and that had some moderating effect on him, but he was still shooting dagger eyes at Siddhartha and Karishma.

Siddhartha was puzzled. But Karishma walked up confidently to her husband.

“Why Vikram? What’s wrong? Hasn’t the entire family been waiting for this day? Haven’t I been made to see a new gynecologist every other day just so we could hear this news? Why are you so upset?”

“Shut up, you whore,” he muttered menacingly, keeping his voice low, perhaps in deference to his mother’s presence.

“Why should I shut up? Why are you so sure that this child cannot be yours? Tell me, Vikram. Tell everyone.”

He glared and made to retreat. But Karishma yanked his hands.

“Why are you running away? After insinuating what you did, how can you bloody run away?” She was too angry now to mind her words, “Tell them. Tell everyone why the child cannot be yours. Or do you want to bring up this child as your own?”

“You go to hell!”

“Why can this child not be yours? Why are you so fucking sure?”

“Because I have never fucked you,” he screamed, “Because I haven’t as much as touched you.”

Karishma stepped back, grimacing, her face contorted with disgust. “That’s right. That’s right, Mummy ji,” she turned to her mother-in-law, “I am not pregnant. I can’t be. Because I haven’t slept with anyone. Not even my husband. Why has that been the case and why has he let me be mentally tortured and led from one doctor to the another all these months, only he can explain.”

With that all the anger and passion suddenly seemed to take leave of her. A cloud of misery enveloped her and tears broke through it like thin showers. She ran out of the house.

Siddhartha looked around at the stunned faces of Vikram and his mother, barely registered Mr. Jain’s presence on the stairs – he must have heard everything too – and ran out.

“Karishma!” He had to run after her and yank her hand to make her stop, “Where are you going?”

“Anywhere, away from this,” she said, sniffling, trying hard to wipe her tears, but failing as fresh tears overpowered her.

“Come with me.”

“Where?”

“My home, where else?”

“I can’t… I can’t face anybody right now. Kaki will be there.”

“She is sleeping most of the time.”

Karishma still shook her head.

“What were you planning? Do you want me to drop you to your uncle’s place?”

She shook her head again, “I will go to a hotel.”

“A hotel?” He was exasperated, but relented, “Fine. But let me drop you.”

She agreed to that.

“Please stop at some mall on the way. I need to buy some stuff. And then…”

She told him which hotel she wanted to go to. She had obviously been preparing for this. He drove her around, to the mall, then to the hotel, mostly in silence, and waited until she had checked in. Then he made to leave. But turned back and asked, “You were going through so much and you didn’t think of telling me even once?”

She looked way for a moment before meeting his eyes, “Would you come to my room and stay a while.”

He nodded and followed her.

“I need you to know,” she blurted as soon as they were behind the closed doors, “That it isn’t my doing. I didn’t plan for my marriage to fail.”

He stood silent in confusion and shock. Why did she feel the need to explain that?

She continued, “Before the wedding I had behaved just so…” she seemed to struggle for the right word, then settled on, “inappropriately.”

“What are you talking about?” he finally found his voice.

“The way I had… Asking you if you would have married me… I think back to it and feel so ashamed at my imposition. I must assure you, today, that you don’t need to take my antics seriously. It isn’t like you have to propose to marry to me or feel responsible in anyway–”

“What the hell, Karishma!” Busy with her guilt-ridden monologue and consumed with her fears, she hadn’t noticed the changes in his expressions. His face was now flushed with anger. “Yeah, right! That’s what I am worried about ever since that scoundrel lunged at you in front on my eyes! That I will have to marry you. How considerate, Karishma. And what wonderful thoughts!”

He stormed out of the room and she was too dumbfounded to follow.

To be continued

 

The Unsuitable Boy (Part 5)

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“Is Kaki fine?” she dropped by his office a couple of days later. Although he had kept his promise of visiting her at home, she still came by once in a while.

She almost knew the answer by the looks of him. His eyes were bloodshot and there were dark circles around them. As if he hadn’t been sleeping well.

“I don’t know,” he said, then added after a pause, “Perhaps not. There is a biopsy scheduled for tomorrow.”

“Biopsy?” she asked, alarmed.

“They suspect… stomach cancer. At her age it won’t be easy.”

She had never seen him so dejected before. She held his hands and took him out on the terrace.

“I feel like such a moron, Karishma,” he spoke with an urgency. He must have been dying to talk to someone, “I should have taken her stomach troubles and heartburns more seriously. But she kept saying it was nothing, just old age, and I kept believing it. Only when it became difficult for her to eat did we go to the doctor. And now…”

“We don’t know yet that it is too late. Let the biopsy results come. They can manage cancer till quite advanced state these days. I’m sure it will be all right.”

He smiled, weakly, and said, “Yeah. Perhaps. I’m sorry. I’m the one boring you with sob stories now…”

“Prof. Sen. These are not sob stories. In fact, I would hate you if you didn’t tell me. Will you call me after the biopsy results are out tomorrow? Please?”

He sighed, “Okay. I will.”

A letter had come from the accountant and Karishma was going to her father-in-law to hand it over to him. But she stopped short at the door when she heard him discussing Siddhartha with his wife.

“Siddhartha called. He needed some money,” Mr. Jain said.

“What for?”

“Don’t you know? Jhilmil has been diagnosed with cancer.”

“Oh! That. Yes. How much?”

“Well. His expenses will be endless. Whatever we could give, he said.”

“How will he ever return it?”

“I don’t know. But I can’t just say no.”

“Why not? Haven’t we already done enough for them? And what is the point in sinking money in the treatment of such an old woman? For how long will she live anyway?”

“Oh, for God’s sake. I hope you don’t expect your own sons to reason like that should something happen to you. Anyway, you leave this to me. I will figure out what to do.”

To ensure that she was not caught eavesdropping, she knocked when she heard her mother-in-law’s footsteps approaching the door. She handed the letter and left without a word.

She came in without knocking and he didn’t notice because he was busy on phone.

“Yes… So can I get a loan against it? Right… yes… A personal loan I guess…”

She waited until his call was over. He jumped in surprise on seeing her in front of him.

“Karishma. When did you come?”

“Just now.”

“I’m sorry, I didn’t realize. Please sit.”

“I’m so disappointed with you.”

“What for?”

“You didn’t think it important to tell me that you needed money for Kaki’s treatment.”

“But… It’s okay, Karishma. My savings will last for a few months. And I am making arrangements for more–”

“Before going ahead and taking loans against whatever you have, how about tapping some friends?” She held out a checkbook for him.

He took it uncertainly and asked, “What is it?”

“My checkbook. All the leaves are signed. I will keep you updated on how much cash the account has.”

“Oh my God!” he sprang out of his chair, “Karishma, I can’t–”

“You don’t remember what I had told you, do you?”

He looked at her blankly.

“That I will never have much for you. But perhaps some money….”

“Karishma–”

“You are ready to borrow from my father-in-law, perhaps even from my Uncle. So why not me?”

“They would know what they are doing. They won’t hand me blank signed checkbooks. And you, Karishma – you may need your money someday. If anything goes wrong–”

“Won’t you give me shelter, if something goes wrong?”

“Karishma!”

“As you yourself predicted, I might need it someday.”

“What are you–”

“Don’t cast me aside, Siddhartha,” she grew tearful and didn’t realize that she had used his first name. He did and gulped hard on hearing that. She continued, “Please promise me that you won’t borrow until I can’t help you any longer. Please!”

How stubborn and difficult could she get! Was she going to throw away everything she had because he had bought her a plastic bracelet all those years ago.

“It was a twenty-rupees plastic bracelet, Karishma. It isn’t worth throwing away your small fortune.”

“My mother-in-law thinks that your mother is an old woman already. It isn’t worth spending money trying to cure her cancer. Do you agree?”

“What the–”

“Exactly. You know better than to put price-tag on everything, don’t you? Please? Prof. Sen?”

He stayed silent for a long time, staring at the checkbook in his hand. Then he dropped it on his table and came around to face her.

“If I try to refuse any longer,” he said, “It will be an insult to you, to us, and to your generosity and capacity to love. I will use it. I will have to. And I will try to use it responsibly. You also promise to tell me accurately what your financial situation is like so that I can decide how far I can go. Will you promise me that?”

She nodded.

“And there is something else. Just a while back you had called me Siddhartha.”

Her eyes widened. “I had?” she flushed, “Sorry – I didn’t–”

“Will you, in future, continue to call me that? If we are friends, isn’t it high time that we got the formality of Prof. Sen out of the way?”

She gulped. “I don’t know. I am so used to it. I will try.”

“Please do,” he smiled. For the first time that day she saw a genuine smile on his face. She reciprocated automatically with a smile of her own.

To be continued

 

The Unsuitable Boy (Part 4)

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“Ah! There is our Professor Sahab!” Vikram exclaimed when Siddhartha walked up the stage with his mother to meet him and Karishma for their reception. Siddhartha’s mother was supposed to be there for their wedding as Vikram was her old employer and benefactor’s son. But she had not been feeling well and hence had to contend with coming for reception.

“Congratulations Vikram, Karishma,” Siddhartha wished them formally and introduced his mother to Karishma.

Karishma, bent down to touch the old woman’s feet despite her protests. “Such a humble child. God bless you,” Mrs. Sen crooned.

“Your son’s find, Jhilmil Kaki,” Vikram grinned and then turned to Karishma, “I hear that all the kids in your household have Siddhartha to thank for passing their school exams. Did you also study under him?”

“Not for the school tuitions,” she replied without flinching, “But the university Maths.”

“Ah, right! How could I forget. You are a Maths student. That’s why my father wanted you in the family. Somebody has to be able to do the accounts right. And Siddhartha Babu here, the son my father always wanted but could not have, wouldn’t agree to be the family accountant.”

“That’s enough, Vikram,” Siddhartha said more harshly than he intended, although because Vikram was much younger to him, he didn’t hesitate in giving him a piece of mind once in a while. He was a carefree fellow who didn’t mind much. “You sound drunk.”

“Drunk on happiness, my friend. Now! When are you getting hitched? Kaki, why don’t you do something?”

“He is stubborn as a mule,” his mother replied, “I can’t throw a girl at him, can I?”

“I and Karishma will launch a joint venture now, Kaki. Don’t worry. What do you say, Karishma?”

“You should get married. I’m sure you will make some woman very happy,” Karishma addressed Siddhartha directly.

Siddhartha searched her face for a moment to see if there was any reproach or complain in her words. He could find none. She was sincere. He sighed and then plastered a smile on his face, “Let’s get through with one wedding first.”

“Karishma! Come in. How are you?”

She walked into his office, smiling, unlike the last time.

“You don’t visit here as often as you used to visit back home.”

“There are no kids to be tutored by me there. What brings you here?”

“You? I came to see you.”

His smile disappeared, “And you are again meeting a friend at the university, I suppose? Not me?”

She grinned, bashfully, but didn’t look contrite.

“You shouldn’t do that, Karishma,” he said gravely, “This isn’t right. You have a–”

“You don’t trust me to behave myself,” she interrupted, growing stiff and frowning.

“Be fair in your assignment of probability. Consider the possibility that I don’t trust myself. But–” he had blurted something he shouldn’t have and needed to change the topic,” It seems you are still angry with me. What is going on? How are things with Vikram? How is he?”

“He think Mathematics is all about doing the sums like in accounting book. Other than that he is fine, I guess,” she smiled, but it looked like a grimace. “I should leave,” she added immediately and made to stand up.

“No, wait! Karishma, please. I am sorry. I can’t seem to do things right by you ever. But the fact is, I am really happy to see you. Thank you for coming. Please stay a while.”

She didn’t look cheered up, but obliged him and kept her seat.

“Would you like to go out and get a coffee or something?” he asked, hoping the break the ice.

“We shouldn’t go out. Someone might see us.”

He nodded, “You stay here. I will get some from the staff room machine.”

She opened her mouth as if to protest, but then closed it without speaking. When he came back with the coffee he found her hunched over the table with her head buried in her hands.

“What is it, Karishma?” He was seriously worried now.

“Nothing,” she looked up, “Good you got coffee. I had a slight headache.” She took the cup from him eagerly.

“I think I am getting bored,” she said after a while.

“Why?”

“There is only so much housekeeping you can do. There isn’t much else to do. Vikram is also often away on business trips.”

“Perhaps you should consider joining the master’s program from the next term.”

“I asked. But they don’t think it’s a good idea.”

“And why not?”

She sighed. “They expect me to have a baby, and hence more responsibility, soon.”

Siddhartha did not know how to respond to that. He held his cup in both hands and came around to his seat.

“Karishma. What is it?”

She grinned now, “Nothing, really. I shouldn’t bore you with my silly sob stories. What about you? What have you been up to?”

So he told her some stories about work and from there they got into some academic and some political discussion. It was like their car rides back home. After about an hour, Karishma got up to leave.

“I really should leave now,” she said, “Thank you, for humoring me.”

“Don’t talk like that, Karishma. Please.”

“Drop by sometime, will you?”

“I will.”

Siddhartha ran into Karishma and her mother-in-law on his way out of the hospital.  He had brought his mother for some tests.

“Karishma, Auntie? What happened? Who is unwell?”

“Just a routine checkup,” Karishma replied hastily, “What about you? Kaki? Are you unwell?”

“She has been feeling weak lately. We have just given the blood samples for some test.”

“Hope it isn’t anything serious.”

“Hope not.”

They took each other’s leave, but after a few steps, Siddhartha looked back and found Karishma looking back at the same time. He thought she looked anxious. She thought the same about him!

To be continued

 

The Unsuitable Boy (Part 3)

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“Come in,” he said automatically, when he heard the knock, expecting it to be student. So looking up and finding her in the doorway startled him. “Karishma?” He stood up and went around his table as she walked in gingerly. “What happened? What brings you here?”

“Are you free for a while? I needed to talk to you.”

“Of course. Please sit,” he motioned to a chair, but she shook her head and looked at back door of his office. His office was in one of the oldest building of the university, and had its downsides with old plumbing and wirings, peeling plasters and water leaks. But one advantage was that it was spacious and had an attached balcony, almost as big as a terrace. It was a favorite spot with her. When she had to wait for him to wrap up his work before dropping her home, she preferred to be out there with a book than wait in his office. “I find the insides stifling,” she would say.

Presently he nodded and led her out on to the terrace. They stood in silence for a while gazing at the overcast monsoon sky.

At last she spoke, “I’m sorry about Saturday–”

“I’m sorry,” he interjected, “I had no idea Uncle hadn’t told you. But…” He hesitated and took a deep breath before continuing, “It’s little late, Karishma. Are you set against the idea of marrying Vikram?”

They were standing side by side, and weren’t looking at each-other. Their eyes were still fixed on the horizon in front of them.

“I’m not aware of anything objectionable against him. So, I guess not. I am not set against it. Anyway what does it matter?”

He turned towards her and in an uncharacteristic gesture held her. “I’m sorry, Karishma. I really am. If there is anything I can do–”

“I didn’t come here to hear you apologize, Prof. Sen. I came to say thank you.”

He stepped back, his brows furrowed, “What for?”

She fished around in her purse and took out two objects that made his eyes go wide.

“Thank you for the kindness you have always shown me. At times I might not even have known, but at others, I have.”

In one hand she was holding the old doll he had rescued from Aaradhya on their first meeting. In the other a blue plastic bracelet.

His stared fixedly at the bracelet, suddenly finding his throat parched. “You knew?” he croaked.

“This doll,” Karishma talked about the other object instead, “Was tattered ever since I got it because it was with my parents on their last fatal ride. They had gone to attend a wedding and I was at home because my exams were going on. To compensate for that, Papa had promised to bring me a gift. This was that gift. They never came back from that ride, this doll did. Just like this. Their last gift for me. Since you helped me get it back from Aru Jiji I always kept it hidden to safeguard it. And this-” She came to the bracelet then, “Is the only real gift I have received after the doll. Right now they are buying loads of gifts for me in preparation for the wedding. Apparently I am rescuing the family and the business with this wedding. Everyone is obliged. But I will never forget that you had remembered a friendless girl when nobody cared for her.”

Siddhartha did not try to stop his eyes from getting moist. “It was nothing, Karishma,” he replied in a heavy, throaty voice, “I never thought… I never found you wearing it. I assumed you didn’t get it or no longer wanted it.”

“It was too precious to risk wearing.”

It hadn’t costed him even twenty rupees. Even with his limited means in those days he hadn’t thought twice before buying that little piece of plastic.

“The Jains are really looking forward to this wedding, Karishma,” he said, “You will be the eldest daughter-in-law. You will have responsibilities and people will look up to you. You will not be friendless again.”

She looked at him as if she didn’t hear him at all and asked, “Did you ever think of me? Would you have married me if your obligation to the two families wasn’t in the way?”

“Karishma!”

“I need to hear. One way or the other,” her voice shook and she averted her eyes, but she still stood her ground.

“You must know this. My debts are not yours to pay. What I can or cannot do about you has nothing to do with my obligations.”

“Then?”

“God! Karishma, don’t you understand? Nothing works in my favor. I am the most unsuitable person you could think of. I am too old for you. I could be your father you know–”

“I don’t think my mother will appreciate the insinuation,” she replied, slightly bitterly.

“Joke about it if you want, but I don’t belong to your community and while what I have today feels luxurious to me, I am still too poor to ask for your hand from your family.”

“Poor,” she snorted, “How much did it cost?” she lifted the bracelet to him.

He stood before her, tongue-tied. His face, contorted with pain and guilt, struck her and she grew contrite.

“I’m sorry,” she said, “I’m firing away at you as if you promised me something and then betrayed me. That wasn’t my intention. It just… I did really just come to say thank you. You have been a good friend to me. And I will never forget that.”

“I hope to be your friend even in future, Karishma. If you can put up with it.”

“Remember to visit me sometimes then. And I will never have much for you. But I will have money, I have been assured. Eldest daughter-in-law and all. If this ‘poverty’ of yours ever really becomes troublesome… Oh what am I saying… But will you kiss me once?”

If he was surprised by that, he didn’t show it. He cupped her face and bent forward. Then planted a kiss on her forehead.

“I am not going to. Because I really want you to start your new life on a hopeful note. I want you to be happy. And if you felt you were dishonest at the beginning of a new relationship, you will not be happy.”

They went back to his office silently.

“How did you come?” he asked.

“Car. The driver is waiting. I should leave now.”

“Wait. There was something I had to bring to you anyway. Perhaps you can take it right away. Vikram’s mother had asked me to pick these up for you from the jewelers. Her gift.” He handed her a velvet jewel box. She opened it to find two heavy gold kangans inside. She turned the open box towards him and said, “I’m afraid you will have to make the trip home. This is for everyone else to see. My gift–” she lifted the plastic bracelet to him once again, “I am taking with me.”

He stood motionless as she walked away. At the door, she turned, “Also, I have come out on the pretext of meeting a friend at the university. Nobody knows I am meeting you.”

And then she was gone.

Siddhartha closed the lid of the jewel box and slipped it back in his drawer. Then he slumped back on his chair. What had just happened? It was madness and he should have known better.

To be continued

 

The Unsuitable Boy (Part 2)

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Siddhartha jerked back to reality when his mobile rang. It was his mother who was waiting for him to take her to the temple. He assured her that he would be back in time and then drove to his home.

Karishma stared at a blue plastic bracelet through her tears. She must have been fifteen or sixteen years old at that time. Kanishk had been given the responsibility of taking the girls to the market for their knick-knack shopping and he had pulled Siddhartha along. “I need some company. I will be bored out of my mind while this giggling bunch shops for the most useless things in the world,” he had said.

The money was with the older girls. Karishma had spotted this bracelet when Aaradhya was getting the billing done.

“Jiji!” she had run up to her just as she was paying for the purchases, “Could I have this–”

But she was interrupted by Aruna, Aaradhya’s younger sister, barging in dragging Aaradhya out to see something exciting she had spotted in another shop. Karishma could have tried calling them back, but she had never stopped feeling like an outsider. So she did not. She had kept the bracelet back on the shelves.

The next day she had seen Siddhartha sneaking out of her room. She had gone in to find that bracelet on her study table. She hadn’t confronted him about it. He, obviously, hadn’t wanted her to know. Else he wouldn’t have entered her room.  Clutching the bracelet to her heart, she had cried for hours.

The bracelet was too small for her wrists now. Even back then she had never worn it. It had felt too precious to be worn and risk damaging. She had kept it like a souvenir.

She had only watched him from afar in those years before university. After refusing to take tuitions from him, she had never gathered the courage to strike a conversation with him. Despite him supporting her, she was worried that he might have taken offence. Besides, she was a shy creature and striking conversations or making friends was not her strong point.

The one good thing about not having spoken to him back then was that she had been spared the necessity of addressing him in any way. Else she might have had to call him ‘Bhaiya’ as her cousins did. Even at that young age she knew that her feelings towards him were not sisterly in any way. Not that she expected any fruition of her real feelings.

Talking to him at the university had made it easier. She could just address him as Prof. Sen or Sir and he didn’t ask her otherwise. She had been elated to discover in him an approachable man of gentle manners and great empathy. He didn’t show her pity, but great care. He didn’t talk down to her, but was happy to mentor her.

Her cousins had opted for Arts. As the only one among them who was studying Science with a major in Maths, her college schedule differed from theirs. So Siddhartha would often drop her home and they would talk about everything under the sun on these drives. Everything, but he never asked about her tattered doll, or the blue bracelet, or her refusal to take tuitions, or her parents. She was partly grateful, and partly disappointed. It kept things comfortable, but it also meant that he was avoiding any intimacy beyond a point.

He was the only person she could call a friend despite not having spoken to him throughout her adolescent years. Because she had felt connected to him on account of those little, subtle moments of kindness he had shown to her.

But she was also convinced that he didn’t see anything more in her than a friendless, orphaned girl who should be treated with kindness. So she didn’t harbor any hopes about him. At least not until she started hearing murmurs about her family planning her wedding and him visiting her uncle to talk about it.

How was it possible to for such huge dreams to be built and shattered in a matter of weeks?

Siddhartha paced in his room. He had earlier dropped his mother to the temple for a day-long program and was now alone in his house. His mind was in a whirlwind. Karishma hadn’t yet been told who they were planning to get her married to? Nobody in her family thought it necessary? Even after the talks had almost been finalized? And she, perhaps, doesn’t want to marry Vikram and blames him for the debacle? How was he to know her family will act so callously?

But perhaps, he paused, he should have known. She hadn’t lacked for the material comforts while staying with her mother’s family. But she had been friendless, ignored and bullied. He knew it. When Mr. Jain put the task to him, of mediating this relationship, he should have asked her first.

And now it was too late. Not only because the wedding was almost finalized. But also because there was more than a wedding involved here. Guptas were going through some financial difficulties and needed a partner to tide over until things turned around. Jains had agreed to step in and this wedding would seal that deal. If she backed out of it now, it will put the family in trouble in more ways than one.

Even as he prepared himself to talk to her and make her understand all this, a corner of his heart burned with guilt. He was doing wrong by her. The guilt was made worse by how she had phrased her question. “With someone else?” she had asked. Could she have seen through his despairing longing and desire for her? And if she had, didn’t she realize the impossibility of it?

To be continued

 

The Unsuitable Boy (Part 1)

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“Prof. Sen!”

Siddhartha had just stepped out of Guptas’ residence and was surprised that Karishma should choose to stop him there on the pavement.

“Karishma? What happened?” Her usually smiling face was contorted with distress. She appeared to be holding back her tears with difficulty.

“You have been arranging for my wedding? With someone else?”

Someone else? “You mean Vikram?”

“You have been arranging this?”

He brows furrowed. Had she realized only now? It had been three weeks since he had been mediating between the Jains and Guptas. Vikram’s father, Aditya Nath Jain, had been in the US with his wife and hence had been unable to carry out the conversations himself. Vikram himself was on Europe tour with his friends. Both were expected back in Kolkata shortly, though.

“You didn’t know?” he asked.

“You thought I did?” He saw a flash of anger in her eyes, but she immediately looked away. “Right. Sorry,” she mumbled and turned on her heels.

He stood frozen to his place his worried eyes following her until she disappeared inside the gate.

Could her ‘someone else’ really mean what he was now thinking? Was she expecting him to…

Siddhartha kept looking back until he reached his car which he had parked on the side street. Even after climbing in the car he didn’t start driving for a long time. He recalled the first time he had come to Guptas’ house with Kanishk and Samrat, his friends at the university. He was doing his masters then. It had taken him some time to get a hang of relationships in the huge, joint family. But on the very first day he had seen the then thirteen year-old Karishma. following and begging Aaradhya, one of the older girls in the family, for her doll. The older girl didn’t seem interested in the doll itself, but only in teasing Karishma.

“Aru Jiji, please. Please give me the doll back.”

“It’s such a tattered doll. Why are you so obsessed with it?”

After watching them for a while, and seeing Karishma close to tears, Siddhartha had been unable to hold back. His friends had gone in to change their clothes and he had been sitting by himself in the hall. “What is a tattered doll to you?” he had told the older girl, “Why don’t you give it back to her if she wants it?”

Aaradhya was surprised to a see a stranger and a guest intervening. More from shock than understanding she had shrugged, tossed the doll at Karishma and left. Karishma had clutched the doll tight and had eyed him curiously, but had left without saying anything.

“Oh, this is a madhouse,” Kanishk had told him later, when he had told him about the incident, feeling that he needed to confess his intervention, “You don’t want to fix quarrels in this house, whether of the children or of the adults. But I think it was good you helped Karishma. Poor child is having a tough time adjusting here.”

“Who is she?”

She was the only child of one of Kanishk’s aunts – his father’s sister. Her parents had died in a car accident a few months back. In the ensuing family politics her lot was thrown with her mother’s family rather than her father’s.

“They didn’t live with my uncle’s family. There was some quarrel going on. Karishma is not used to staying with so many people. She is shy and gets bullied.”

Siddhartha had sighed! He knew something about getting bullied, even if he was not shy. His father had died when his mother was pregnant with him. She didn’t get any support from either her own or her husband’s family. The Jain family, also a huge, joint business family like Guptas, had given her shelter and work. His upbringing and education had been sponsored by them. A maid’s son studying with them and going to their school did not sit well with some of the older kids. They had outgrown it by the time he had first witnessed Karishma’s predicament, but his childhood had been rough on him.

As a college student he had started giving tuitions to school-children to start earning some money and ease his mother’s burden. He had managed to get a scholarship and his tuition fee was waived. But there were still other expenses and he wanted to lessen his dependence on the Jains’ charity as far as possible.

That was why he was visiting Guptas that day. Kanishk had asked him to meet his father as many kids in the household could use a good Maths tutor. It might as well be him who they knew to be a brilliant student of Mathematics.

It was ten years ago. Since then he had taught several children in the house, many who lived there, and many others who were either relatives or neighbors to the Guptas. They all usually gathered in that house so that he didn’t have to visit all of them separately. Over the years he had become such a permanent fixture in that house that he was almost a part of the family.

Karishma had refused to take tuitions though. “I can study on my own,” she had declared.

“But you will be going to class eighth now, Karishma. Things can become difficult,” Kanishk’s father, Mr. Gupta, had tried to reason with her.

“Papa used to say that tuitions are not needed.”

“Let her be, Uncle,” Siddhartha had taken her side, “I myself never took tuitions. If she thinks she doesn’t need it, I don’t think you should force her.”

“’Papa used to say’ is anyway the end of any argument with her,” Mr. Gupta had sighed and left it at that.

She did become his student eventually though. But it was at the university. He had taken up a job there as an assistant professor by the time she had joined the university. And she had chosen to study Maths which was his department. It was in the last three years of university that she had started opening up to him. Siddhartha had immediately realized that she was more intelligent and level-headed than the average child growing in that household. Perhaps an early loss or hardship made you wise and hard-working. He still continued to give tuitions to those kids who wanted it in that house, although he did not need to do so for money now. And tutoring college students was a better bet for getting some extra income outside of his salary. But he was grateful for all the money that came to him from them when he needed it the most.

To be continued

 

Being Anna (Part 18)

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“Daddy!” Smriti clung to him like her life depended on it. It probably did. “I am so, so sorry, Daddy. Please forgive me. I don’t know…”

“No sweetheart. I am sorry. I should have told you the truth. And I will rectify that mistake as soon as we go back. Let me thank her… Who is she?”

“My step mother.”

“Her mother had saved her once, seventeen years ago. You saved her today,” Siddhartha told her, “She is fortunate to have two women like you as mothers.”

“I wish I were as brave as Karishma. I’d have had a daughter only slightly younger to her then.”

“I’m sorry.”

Ruchi turned to Mou, “You are the journalist?”

“Yes.”

“Won’t you do something about it? Not every woman is as brave as…”

“The only reason we didn’t do anything,” Siddhartha replied instead of Mou, “Was because Karishma did not want Smriti to be dragged into this. She wanted her to have an uncomplicated life. But now Vikram has involved her in this. There is no reason for us to avoid facing it head on. But are you ready to let your family members go to jail?”

“I don’t give a damn.”

“A sting operation is in order, then,” Mou assured her.

Smriti told them about how she had come to know about being adopted and why she had been so curious about her past. Then she sat listening in silence, tears flowing unrestrained from her eyes, as Siddhartha and Mou told her the story of Karishma and how she had saved her.

“Enough darling,” Siddhartha held her, “Stop crying. The nightmare is over. We are going back home tomorrow.”

Smriti nodded, but still overcome with guilt, she burst into apologies, “I was so rude to you Daddy. I’m so, so sorry.”

He smiled, “I wouldn’t mind if you called me Prof. Sen once in a while. Your Mamma used to call me that.”

That made her smile.

“Go now and wash your face. Let me see my bright, little girl again. I don’t like this crying baby.”

When Smriti went out of the room, Siddhartha turned to Mou. “I am surprised that they haven’t come after us yet. If they went to such lengths to get that property, will they let her go so easily?”

Mou smiled. “Ruchi had called me. She told them that she was forced by me to help Smriti. That I had done a sting operation in that clinic, when she had gone there with one of the younger women of the family and had captured them on camera. That The family’s secret could be outed on TVif she didn’t help Smriti or if they tried to come after her.”

“Is that true?”

“No. I will do one now, of course. But I haven’t done any. She just made all that up.”

“Thank God!”

“He was so deceitful Daddy,” Smriti talked about Vikram Jain, “So convincingly acting that he was missing his daughter all these years. All this while killing so many others. Even his mother showed her true colors quickly. But not him.”

“I can imagine that,” Mou said.

“You were right, Mou Auntie. Men are hopeless. I will never marry.”

“Arr… But not all are. Your Daddy isn’t.”

“Yes. But he is one of a kind. Even you couldn’t find another, could you?”

Siddhartha and Mou burst out laughing.

“Don’t be so hasty, Darling. You will find one who is good for you. Just make sure he has your Daddy’s approval,” Mou said jocularly.

“I will never do anything without Daddy’s approval,” Smriti was somber.

“Don’t be so harsh on yourself,” Siddhartha stroked her head lovingly, “Men might be hopeless. But if women, instead of being servile, took their decisions and destinies in their hands, nothing can stop them. Didn’t your Mamma save you? And she didn’t even fight head on.”

“Mamma was brave, wasn’t she Papa? And a true feminist.”

“Yes. She not only exercised her choices, she even created them. She was no Anna.”

“Anna?”

He smiled indulgently, “We will discuss when you have read Anna Karenina.”

“That’s a thick book, Daddy. And an ancient one too.”

“Yes. You mother, and even Mou Auntie, had read it for an assignment.”

Mou smiled nostalgically.

“It will take me a lifetime.” Smriti was inclined towards Sciences unlike her mother. The thick classics were daunting for her.

Siddhartha chuckled. “It’s okay. You focus on what you have chosen to study. ”

“I need a new phone. Those wretched, greedy people stole my phone.”

“A small price to pay for having you back safely.”

“And for making me appreciate what I have, Daddy,” she smiled at him. She had become mature all of a sudden.

“I will buy you one,” Mou said, “Let’s go. We can do with a little outing right now. How does an iPhone sound?”

“iPhone?” Smriti’s eyes widened in surprise.

“Don’t buy something so costly Mou,” Siddhartha objected, “She doesn’t need it.”

“She has learned the greatest lesson in life today. She deserves a great reward. Let’s go.”

Siddhartha did not object to that. “Let’s go,” he said cheerfully.

– The End –

Being Anna (Part 17)

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The woman started shooing her away, and scared out of her wits, Smriti fled the garden. In her frenzied state, she ran against a woman as soon as she entered the house.

“Steady child,” she heard a kindly voice and it calmed her down.

“I… I am sorry…”

“What happened?”

“There was an old woman in the garden… Are there ghosts?”

She chuckled, “No. It must be Geeta. An old servant here. But she has grown senile and blabbers nonsense. Don’t mind her.”

“Okay!” Smriti was relieved and could now converse normally. “I don’t know you,” she said.

“My name is Ruchi and I am Vikram’s wife,” she replied.

“Oh!” she looked confused. How should she react to her stepmother? She had still to come to terms with the identities of her mother and father. And here there was a whole clan of relations  – some of them complicated.

“Well… Second wife,” Ruchi clarified with a smile, “Do you want some tea or coffee?”

“I don’t drink tea. Can I… have some milk, Auntie?”

“Sure. That’s a nice habit.”

“I need to get my clothes…” Smriti told her grandmother at the breakfast table, “They are at Mou Auntie’s place.” All the men were there. But the two of them were the only women having breakfast. All others were either in the kitchen or waiting on them.

“There is no need to go there. She was the one who corrupted your mother. We will buy you new ones.”

Smriti was not convinced. If Mou Auntie and Daddy were such bad people, as they were making them to be, how could she be good enough to be acceptable to them? She had been brought up by them, after all. If she was not bad…

Outwardly, though, she said nothing. But she was now anxious to talk to Siddhartha. She decided to call him up. But where was her phone? Where had she kept it? She was almost sure that it was in her pocket when she had gone to her room. But right now she could not find it anywhere.

“Relax,” her grandmother told her, “It must be somewhere here. And anyway. Who do you want to call up this early in the morning?”

A little later, she went to shop for her clothes. Even though the shop was close-by, she wasn’t allowed to go alone or carry any money. One of her cousins accompanied her and made all the payments.

Towards the evening, her newly discovered family paradise was completely shattered. She heard some commotion near the main gate. It turned out that Mou was there trying to get in and meet her. Smriti tried to tell the guards that she should be allowed in, but they paid no attention.

“Dadi. Let her come in. Or let me go out. It’s Mou Auntie,” she finally pleaded with her grandmother. But instead of listening to her, she dragged her back.

“I know very well who she is. You don’t need to meet that disgusting woman.”

“She is not disgusting,” Smriti started crying.

“There my child. I know it is hard on you. But believe me. We know what is best for you. Stop crying and don’t worry. Everything will be all right.”

Smriti had realized by then that nothing was right in this family. She didn’t know what was wrong, but something was. She was almost a prisoner here. She had to get out. But even phone had disappeared. She was sure, now, that it was not an accident.

She also realized that losing her temper would not help her. She would have to appear calm and plan her escape.

In her room, she found Ruchi waiting for her. “Auntie?”

“Were you unhappy in your adoptive family, Smriti?”

“Why are you asking?”

“Don’t be scared of me. I will tell you the truth. You made a mistake by coming here.”

“I did.”

“They did not know about your existence until a few days back. Even now, they don’t care about what happens to you. I don’t know if your mother had a lover or not, but taking you away from here was the best thing she did for you. Right now they have brought you here only because you are the key to your mother’s property. Once they have acquired that, they don’t care a bit for where you go.”

“What do I do now? I can’t find my phone. I can’t go out anywhere. Nobody listens to me.”

“Do you remember anyone’s number?”

“Daddy’s. But who would lend me a phone?”

“Don’t call now. Listen to me carefully. I am going to temple tomorrow. You behave well for the rest of the day today. I would suggest you go back and pretend to be interested in your grandmother’s talks. Tomorrow morning I will suggest that you come to temple with me. Agree to that. She should allow that. We’d have the driver with us. But you can call from my phone when we are inside the temple.”

“Thank you, Auntie.”

“Not too soon. Let’s get the plan to work. You go back. I will slip out from your room when nobody is watching.”

“Daddy!”

“Smriti. Darling, is that you? Where are you?” Siddhartha started crying on phone.

“Daddy. Can I come back?”

“What kind of question is that? Where are you? At their home? I and Mou Auntie are coming right away.”

“You are in Kolkata?”

“Of course, I had to come.”

“I am not at his home. You give the phone to Mou Auntie. I am giving it to Ruchi Auntie who is helping me. Please come quickly, Daddy.”

Ruchi explained the location of the temple to Mou and gave her the directions. “Remember to come to the back door and call on this number. We must avoid alerting the driver, who is waiting at the front door,” she concluded.

“How did they know who I was?” Smriti asked Ruchi while they waited for Siddhartha and Mou.

“Srinivas was the man. He did everything possible. Sent detectives after you. Even got your DNA test done to ensure that…”

“DNA test?”

“He had obtained a sample of your hair.”

“Ruchi Auntie. I will never be able to repay you for your help.”

“You will. If we are able to save even one girl after this…”

“What do you mean?”

“Nothing. Here. They are calling. Let’s go.”

To be continued

Being Anna (Part 16)

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“Eloped?” Her eyes grew moist.

“I am so sorry, Smriti,” he touched her shoulder and she did not jerk him off, “I understand that all this must have come as a shock to you. But I am sure you want to meet your family, don’t you?”

“I… I don’t know. I must talk to Mou Auntie…”

“Mou? She was the one who had dragged you away when you were telling me who your mother was, wasn’t she? And she was the one who lied to you that your mother’s family does not live there. Can’t you see what is going on? I’d suggest you come with me right away.”

“You are a stranger. How can I trust you? I am not coming anywhere,” despite the emotional upheaval, she was careful. She was having her fair share of doubts.

“I understand your hesitation. And I am glad that you are not careless about your security. But you do want answers, right? See, there is this coffee shop in the market nearby. Hardly two kilometers from here. I am writing down the address for you. You can hail a taxi and come there. I will bring you father there.”

“What’s his name?”

“Vikram Jain.”

She took the address from him and nodded.

“Wait for me. It won’t take more than half an hour,” Srinivas said before parting.

“Smriti!” Vikram hugged her so warmly as soon as he saw her that Srinivas was impressed by his acting skills.

“Your father. Mr. Vikram Jain,” he formally introduced him and smiled.

Smriti was awkward and short of words. It was difficult for her to accept that all this was for real. “Do you have your wedding photographs,” she suddenly asked.

Vikram was puzzled, but reacted quickly. “Of course. Why?”

“Have you brought them?”

“Umm… no… But you will come home, right? We have been looking for you for so many years now. Your grandmother is dying to meet you. You can see the photographs there.”

“No. I want to see the photographs first.”

“All right. Let me call them at home.”

Smriti looked on blankly as he made the call. “I don’t care where they are stuffed Mummy… Yes, get them… Right away… If that’s what my daughter wants, that’s what she must have!” he added the last sentence for Smriti’s advantage, although the phone was already disconnected by then.

“It will take some time,” he smiled at her, “I am sorry. But you will understand that memories of your mother are hurtful.”

“Why?”

“Why? She is the reason you grew up away from your family. She deserted us and eloped with her lover…”

Something sounded extremely wrong with the accusations being made on her mother and Daddy. But Smriti didn’t know what an alternative story could be. So, she stayed silent. While they waited for the album, she received a call from Mou. She assured her that she was in the market, she knew her way around, and she would be back shortly.

When the albums arrived at length, she recognized her mother very well and tears started flowing down her cheeks.

“There, there. Don’t cry my princess. It’s all right. You have found your family back. Everything will be all right now. Come. Let’s meet you grandmother, cousins, aunts and uncles.”

Mou called again. Smriti was already at Vikram’s house by then.

“I’m with my father, Mou Auntie.”

“When did Prof. Sen come to Kolkata?”

“Not him. My real father.”

“Smriti,” Mou was alarmed, “What are you talking about? Who are you with?”

“Mr. Vikram Jain, my father.”

“Oh my God! How did you… Smriti, you must come back. Where are you? I will come and pick you up.”

“No Mou Auntie. I will stay here for now.”

“Smriti. Please…”

Smriti disconnected the call. Not surprisingly, immediately afterwards, she received a call from Siddhartha.

“Darling please. You must listen to me…”

“Is he or is he not my father, Daddy?”

“Go back to Mou Auntie. I will come there and we will talk.”

“Is he or is he not my father?”

Siddhartha’s sigh was audible. “Yes. Now…”

“Thank you, Prof. Sen. I have been deceived for seventeen years. Now let me find out the truth for myself,” she disconnected the call and switched off her phone.

Siddhartha broke into sobs. It was worse than his worst nightmares. Then he collected himself and stepped out to arrange for his journey to Kolkata praying furiously for his daughter’s safety meanwhile.

At Jains’ house, Vikram’s mother fussed over Smriti, making her feel uncomfortable with her overbearing hospitality. What made her particularly uneasy was how she was ordering around the women of the household as if they were indentured servants. There wasn’t a trace of respect or civility in her manners towards them. She didn’t get a chance to speak to anyone else in the family that day. After dinner, she was shown to her room by her grandmother. She also got her a nightie to change into and asked her to make do with it for the night. They would get her new clothes in the morning.

As Smriti lied down on the bed, her heart was in turmoil. She had expected a more positive resolution to the mystery of her parents. She had hoped that the story about her parents being her Daddy’s friends was true and some acceptable twist to it could explain the stories he had told her about Mamma. But this had taken a most unpleasant turn. Mamma had run away, while her husband was alive. To her lover? Daddy? She tried to be liberal. May be they were really in love and this marriage was not working for Mamma. But what could explain keeping the truth from her for all these years. Didn’t she deserve to know about her family, even if Mamma wanted to have nothing to do with them?

How uncomfortable it all was! But it was truth. And she had to accept it, even if it was bitter.

She didn’t sleep well that night. Her life had turned upside down. There was hardly a scope for peaceful sleep. Her room overlooked the garden of the house. It looked like a good refuge form the normal humbug of the big city. She got out of the bed at four in the morning and went to the garden. She walked around aimlessly for almost an hour, when an old woman suddenly came to her.  The way she had appeared out of the blue and her haunted looks scared Smriti. She recoiled from her.

Bahu Rani… What are you doing here? Don’t you know they will kill your daughter? What did you come back for? Go away, go away….”

To be continued