Sacrifices (Part 6)

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How had it come to this? This girl had an uncomplicated, simple life. She had a loving family and supporting friends. She had the charm and exuberance that could lighten up even his dark, gloomy life. What complication could have crept into her life to have made her so dispirted and depressed. Unless it was him?

Had he made a mistake by not talking to her? He had to find out and he did so by asking directly, “Nidhi. Kya tumhari pareshaani main hoon?”

She was caught unguarded. It took her few moments to collect her thoughts, “Pareshaani aap nahin hain. Pareshaani main hoon. Lekin aap please aur kuchh mat poochhiye. Main aur sab kuchh bardasht kar sakti hoon. Lekin ye nahin ki meri wajah se aapko koi pareshaani ho. Ya kissi bhi wajah se aap mujhse nafrat karein.”

“Tumse nafrat? Main? Nidhi, tum mujhe thoda bhi samajhti ho ya nahin?” he was irritated. He went forward and held her again, “Ab bahut tedhi-medhi baatein ho gayin. Aur bahut pareshaan rah li tum. Batao mujhe kya baat hai? Aur main bina jaane tumhein yahan se jaane nahin doonga. Batao mujhe.”

Nidhi shook her head. She won’t talk!

“Nidhi,” Ashutosh persuaded, “Tum mere reaction se kyon dar rahi ho? Main… main tumhari baaton ka bura nahin maan sakta. Tumse nafrat… I don’t think I need to explain that it is impossible. Aur… chalo theek hai. Agar maan bhi lete hain ki mujhe bura lag jayega. To kya hoga? Itna to bharosa mujh par kar sakti ho tum ki tumhari professional life par isse koi asar nahin padega. Ab to tumhari internship bhi khatam hone waali hai. Phir tumhein kya problem ho sakti hai mujhse? Batao Nidhi. Mere liye ye janna bahut zaroori hai ki kya baat tumhein khaye ja rahi hai? Aur… Kaise tumhari khushiyan wapas aa sakti hain? Main kya karoon, Nidhi? Batao mujhe.”

“Let me go. Mujhe jaane dijiye, Dr. Ashutosh.” Her voice trailed away and then, in complete incongruence with what she said, she leaned on him. The next moment Ashutsoh realized that she had fainted.

For the time first time in so many years of his career, he felt a chill run down his spine at a medical situation. He had to consciously remind himself that it was probably just weakness and fatigue; nothing more serious. He made her sit on the chair and called for help to take her into a room where she could be given glucose.

Ashutosh stayed by her bedside the entire night. Towards the dawn, he checked her pulse. He was satisfied with the improvement. But as he made to pull his hand away, he was interrupted. She clutched his hand. He looked at her curiously. She had still not woken up.

“I am sorry. I can’t live without you,” she murmured in her sleep. Pain and guilt washed over Ashutosh. So, that’s what it was. He had tried to do it gently, but him pushing her away had been too hard on her. So hard that…

She opened her eyes and looked around confused. It took her a moment to recall what had happened. She let his hand go as soon as she realized that she was holding it.

“Are you okay?” Ashutosh asked gently.

“Ji,” her voice was weak, “I’m sorry.”

“Sorry?” Ashutosh smiled, but sadly, “Kis liye? Kin-kin cheezon ke liye khud ko blame kar rahi ho Nidhi? Kin-kin baaton ke liye khud ko guilty maan kar sazaa de rahi ho.”

“Meri kuchh samajh mein nahin aa raha hai.”

Ashutosh looked at her sickly face. She was still unwell. It wouldn’t do to have an intense heart-to-heart just then.

“Tumhein fresh ho kar, kuchh khane ki aur dawaiyan lene ki zaroorat hai. Main nurse ko bhejta hoon. She will help you. I will be back later.”

“Nidhi. Tumhare Baba aa rahe hain hospital. Tumhein ghar le kar jayenge. Kam se kam ek hafte tumhein ghar par aaraam karna hai,” Ashutosh told her when he came back.

“Main ek hafte ghar par nahin baith sakti. Mujhe yahan aana hai.”

“Kyon?”

Nidhi stayed quiet.

“Main kuchh poochh raha hoon tumse,” Ashutosh tried to sound stern.

“Bas aise hi.”

“Agar tum mujhe sach bataogi to shayad main tumhein aane doonga. Otherwise sawaal hi nahin paida hota…”

“Aap kyon kar rahe hain aisa?” Nidhi burst out, “Maine to aapke liye koi pareshaani nahin khadi ki hai. Meri wajah se koi aapko kuchh kah to nahin raha hai. Koi badnaami to nahin ho rahi hai aapki? Phir? Main bas thoda samay hi to yahan bitaana chahti hoon na? Jo do mahine yahan bache hain mere, thodee der aapko door se dekhna chahti hoon. Kya ismein bhi logon ko koi problem hai?”

“Logon ko koi problem kyon hogi, Nidhi?”

“To aapko kya problem hai?”

“Mujhe problem ye hai ki…” Ashutosh hesitated. What should he say? What should he not say? It was complicatd, but he proceeded, “Mujhe problem ye hai, Nidhi, ki main bhi yahi chahta hoon. Balki isse bahut zyada chahta hoon. Kya tumhein ye baat kabhi samajh mein nahin aayi? Lekin ye sahi nahin hai.”

His acceptance of his feelings calmed Nidhi down. “I know,” she responded, “I know ki ye sahi nahin hai. Isse aapke oopar ungliyan uthengi. Isliye to…”

“Mere oopar ungliyan uthengi?” Ashutosh was surprised, “Mere oopar kaun ungliyan uthayega, Nidhi? Mere aage peechhe kaun hai jiski main parwaah karoon. Baat woh nahin hai.”

“Phir?” Nidhi was also surprised.

“Pagal ladki. Tum mere baare mein soch rahi ho. Apne baare mein nahin sochti?”

“Ji?”

“Nidhi. Jo tum chahti ho, aur… jo main bhi chahta hoon, uski impossibility ka ehsaas nahin hua kabhi tumhein?”

“Kaisi impossibility. Jab aapko koi problem nahin hai, mujhe koi problem nahin hai aur hum dono ek doosre se pyaar karte hain to kissi aur ko kya problem ho sakti hai?”

How easily and simply did she talk about love? Only an innocent and pure soul could do it. Ashutosh was surprised and enamoured at the same time. But his fond expressions changed to alarmed when he looked up and saw Nidhi’s father standing at the door, shocked and hurt at what he had overheard. Ashutosh closed his eyes and cursed himself silently for being so careless.

Nidhi also flustered on seeing him. But she did not anticipate the storm that Ashutosh did.

“Dr. Ashutosh,” Baba addresed him directly, “Mujhe lagta tha ki aap ek mature aur achchhe insaan hain. Nidhi ne zindagi nahin dekhi hai. Apna bhala bura nahin samajhti hai. Aur maine expect kiya tha ki aap use sahi se guide kar sakte hain. Lekin I am disappointed.”

“Baba!” Nidhi was flabbergasted, “Aap aise kyon bol rahe hain. Dr. Ashutosh ne kya kiya?”

“Sahi kaha tumne, Nidhi. Unhone kuchh nahin kiya. Kiya to maine hai. Apni beti par bharosa kiya. Use itni aazaadi di. Ye soch kar ki who uska misuse nahin karegi. Galti maine ki, Nidhi.”

Nidhi was speechless. She hadn’t expected this reaction from Baba. She looked from Ashutosh to Baba.

“Baba,” Ashutosh said calmly, “I am sorry. Aapne sahi kaha. Aisa kuchh na ho, iska dhyaan rakhna meri zimmedaari thi. Aur ho sake to mera yakeen kijiye, aisa kuchh bhi nahin hua hai jiske liye aapko pareshaan hone ki zaroorat ho. Nidhi aisa kuchh nahin karegi jismein aapki sahmati na ho. Aur agar woh karna bhi chahe to main use karne nahin doonga. Abhi uski tabiyat kharaab hai. Use aaraam ki zaroorat hai. Aap please use ghar le jaiye. Ye mera waada hai aapse ki Nidhi ke saath kuchh galat nahin hoga. Aapko Nidhi se gussa hone ki koi zaroorat nahin hai.”

Baba nodded, though he still looked unhappy. Nidhi looked at Ashutosh with longing and tears in her eyes. Ashutosh blinked and nodded silently pleading with her to not hurt herself.

“Baba. Mujhe to lagta tha ki aap Dr. Ashutosh ko pasand karte hain.”

“Haan. Pasand karta hoon. Lekin tumhare jeevan-saathi ki tarag nahin, Nidhi. Kam se kam dus-pandrah saal to bade hain woh tumse?”

“Kya bas yahi aapki problem hai Baba?”

“Dekho Nidhi. Problem meri nahin hai. Problem tumhari hai,” Baba explained patiently, “Ye umra ka farq almost ek generation ka farq hai. Main samajh sakta hoon ki tum Dr. Ashutosh ko idolize karne lagi ho. Aisa hota hai aur ismein kuchh bura nahin hai. Lekin jeevan-saathi chunna alag baat hoti hai. Jab idolization khatam ho jayega to rozmarra ki zindagi ke sawaal saamne aayenge. Aur ye zindagi bhar ka faisla hota hai. Koi ek do din ke adjustment ki baat nahin hai…”

“Lekin Baba…”

“Nidhi. Is baare mein bahas karna bekaar hai. Mujhe nahin lagta ki Dr. Ashutosh ko chunna sahi faisla hai tumhare liye. Main iske liye kabhi raazi nahin hounga. Agar tum ye faisla logi to tumhein mere khilaaf ja kar hi lena padega.”

“Baba. Main unse pyaar karti hoon…”

“Aur mujhe is baat se kabhi koi problem nahin hogi ki tum apna jeevan-saathi khud chuno. Lekin main jaante-boojhte tumhein ek disasterous faisla nahin lene de sakta.”

Nidhi realized that arguing further was useless at that time.

To be continued

Sacrifices (Part 5)

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His trick worked. She was not hanging around him as much as earlier. But it left him longing for her company even more. When he spent a night at the hospital, he often hoped that she would walk in with tea. But she had taken the hint of him refusing coffee and reminding her of the PG exams a bit too well. At times, he would go to the common room to find her absorbed in her books. He would stay at the door, on such occasions, and not go inside to avoid striking a conversation with her.

What he didn’t realize was that she could see through him. She realized that he would deliberately over-emphasize her PG preparations or something else just to send her away from his office. She was aware of him staring at her when he thought she wasn’t looking. She knew exactly how many times he had come to the common room and gone back without entering or conversing with her. And she could feel even what she couldn’t see. That he missed her as much as she missed him. Why was he trying to maintain the distance then?

Despite not understanding him, she obliged him. She did not want to force herself on him. But the question continuously gnawed at her and affected her in ways she wouldn’t openly admit.

There was another person who had noticed the change in Ashutosh and Nidhi’s relationship. Mallika! She was happy to not see Nidhi around Ashutosh as much.

“Hello Dr. Nidhi,” she walked into the common room and addressed Nidhi. Both were on the night duty and Ashutosh was not in the hospital.

“Good evening, Dr. Mallika,” Nidhi replied courtesouly and then went back to her books.

“Kya baat hai, Dr. Nidhi? Aapki tabiyat to theek hai?”

‘What does Dr. Mallika want now?’ she thought to herself as she said outwardly, “Main bilkul theek hoon. Thanks.”

“Lagta to nahin hai.”

“Kyon?” Nidhi had to ask even though she was in no mood to continue the conversation.

“Kaafii bujhi-bujhi rahti hain aap aaj kal.”

“Mujhe nahin pata tha ki aap mujhe itna observe karti hain,” Nidhi said dryly.

“Ashutosh se judi har cheez ko main observe karti hoon. Aur Ashutosh ki khatir, jo ho raha hai usse main bahut khush hoon.”

“Aap khush hain. Ye bahut achchhi baat hai. Halanki main samjhi nahin ki kyon khush hain aap. But it doesn’t matter.”

“It does matter. It does matter ki tum ye samjho ki Ashutosh ke liye kya sahi hai aur kya nahin.”

“Go on,” Nidhi said disinterestedly.

“Nidhi. Tum abhi young ho. Thode bahut scandals, affairs to is umra mein hote hi rahte hain. Usse koi farq nahin padta. Lekin Ashutosh ki umra in sabse aage nikal chuki hai. Unki ek reputation hai, society mein ek standing hai. Jo rishta tum unke saath banane ki koshish kar rahi thi, usse unki reputation par daag lag raha tha. Log baatein bana rahe the. I am glad ki Ashutosh samay rahte ye samajh gaye aur tumhein khud se door kar diya hai. I hope ki tum bhi unki reputation ka khayaal rakhogi aur unse door hi rahogi.”

Although Nidhi did not acknowledge it, but Mallika could see that her monologue had hit her at the right spot. Nidhi hadn’t dismissed the idea. She was admitting to herelf that Mallika was right. Was that the reason why Ashutosh had pushed her away? Had someone said something? Were there gossips?

Nidhi threw herself into her work and her studies; and did to the exclusion of all other concerns. Baba and Anji started worrying for her.

“Nidhi. Ye kaisi padhai ho rahi hai teri? Apni halat to dekh. Na kuchh bolti hai, na kahin bahar jaati hai. Aise to pagal ho jayegi tu, Nidhi.”

“Tu exaggerate kar rahi hai Anji. Ab abhi to samay hi aisa hai. Padhai to karni hi padegi na. PG entrance MBBS entrance se bahut zyada tough hota hai. Pata hai kitni kam seats hain. Bas kuchh mahinon ki baat hai. Ek baar exam ho jaye to…”

“Padhai aur kaam – dono hi tu kai mahinon se kar rahi hai, Nidhi. Aisi halat to kabhi nahin hui?”

“Ab exams nazdeek aa rahe hain na, Anji. Chal chhod, jaldi se dinner karte hain. Tu yahin kar rahi hai na dinner? Mujhe aaj ye poora chapter khatam karna hai.”

“Nidhi. Itni der se padhai kar rahi hai beta. Abhi kha kar so ja. Aaj kal to tu bilkul bhi aaraam nahin karti,” Baba also echoed Anji’s worry during the dinner.

“Baba. Main theek hoon.”

“Baba. Bilkul sahi kaha aapne,” Anji chipped in, “Meri baat to ye maanti hi nahin hai. Aap hi samjhaiye.”

“Aap log please mujhe mere faisle lene dein,” Nidhi replied curtly. Baba, Anji and Dadi Bua exchanged perplexed glances, but didn’t know what had come over Nidhi and what to do about it.

Ashutosh was on night duty. He came to common room and saw that Nidhi had fallen asleep in a chair with a book in her lap. He smiled as he saw that her mouth was slightly open. He had seen her sleep like that before. But when he noticed her face, he was shocked at the contrast – between now and then. She had been very tired that day too. But her face had glown and her cheeks had a healthy pink color on them. Today he might as well be looking at a completely different person. She looked undeniably sick, her cheeks were hollow, dark circles around her eyes were unmistakable, her lips were dry and skin broken suggesting lack of nutrition. For a few seconds, he stood rooted to his place staring at the pitiable sight Nidhi made.

“Nidhi,” he called her name softly. She woke up immediately and was flustered.

“Yes Sir… Sorry Sir… Meri aankh lag gayi thi…”

“See me in my office,” Ashutosh said and walked back to his office.

It had been so long since he had said that to her! Her visits to his office had been strictly for work for a while now. Even when he had to talk to her, he didn’t call her to his office these days. What had changed today? She sent up a silent prayer that something hadn’t gone wrong.

Nidhi knocked at his door and waited for him to respond. His heart ached. Why was she waiting for his permission?

“Come in.”

“Sir. Aapne mujhe bulaya?” Ashutosh noticed that she was trying hard to control the quiver in her voice.

“Yes. Aapki tabiyat theek nahin lag rahi hai.”

“Nahin. Main theek hoon,” she replied by habit. Too many people had tried to ask her about her health recently and she had given the same response to everyone.

“Aap hospital mein khade ho kar ek doctor se apni health ke bare mein jhooth to nahin bol sakti.”

“Doctors to badnaam hote hi hain aaj-kal, bekaar ki beemariyam point out karne liye taki woh paise bana sakein,” Nidhi said and even laughed slightly. She was herself surprised by her sense-of-humour still being intact. Where did she get it back from? Was it because he was there? And after so long they were talking, not like the boss and the intern, but like two people who cared for each other.

The thought brought tears to her eyes. Her will-power gave way. She could not control herself and started sobbing.

“Nidhi,” Ashutosh was worried, but not surprised. Something had to be bothering her. What else could explain how sick she looked? He let go of his forced sense of proprietary  and rushed to her. He held her by her arms and practically pleaded, “Kya baat hai jo tumhein is tarah khaye ja rahi hai, Nidhi? Tuhein dekh kar aisa lagta hai ki barson se beemaar ho.”

Nidhi shook her head and spoke through her sobs, “Aapke jaanne layak kuchh nahin hai, Dr. Ashutosh. Kissi ke janne layak kuchh nahin hai. Pata nahin main kab kuchh impossible sapne dekhne lagi. Aur kab unse itna affect hone lagi. Unse mujhe khud bahar nikalna hoga.”

Nidhi shivered as she felt Ashutosh cupping her face gently and wiping her tears with his thumb, “Nahin. Ye akelepan ki baatein tumhare munh se achchhi nahin lagti, Nidhi. Tumhare itne dost hain, itni pyaari family hai, sab tumse itna pyaar karte hain. Aur tum hamesha logon ki madad karne ke liye taiyaar rahti ho. Main nahin maanta ki tumhari kissi problem mein tumhein madad nahin milegi. Tumne kissi se baat ki hai? Madad lene ki koshish ki hai?”

“Maine kaha na. Meri madad koi nahin kar sakta,” she had regained some self-control and as not crying any longer.

“Main bhi nahin?”

“Nahin. Aap to bilkul bhi nahin. Meri problem solvable nahin hai, Dr. Ashutosh. Aap khud ko pareshaan mat kijiye.”

She stepped back and he had to let go of her.

“Kuchh dinon ki chhutti le lo Nidhi. Thod aaaraam kar lo. Dhang se khao-piyo.”

Nidhi refused, “Khali baith kar mere liye kuchh achchha nahin hone waala hai. Kaam karti hoon to koi pareshaani nahin hoti hai.”

Nidhi didn’t realize how her words shocked him. Had she become like him? Taking refuge in work? Avoiding people? Letting her pain fester? That too alone?

To be continued

Sacrifices (Part 4)

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“So? How was the midnight hospital date?” Armaan asked Ashutosh when he went home at the breakfast time to change.

“Tujhe kya ho gaya hai, Armaan?”

“Mujhe kyon kuchh hone laga, Dr. Ashutosh? Hua to aapko hai?”

“Achchha! Mujhe kya hua hai?”

“Kambakht ishq.”

“Bakwaas mat kar, Armaan.”

“Come on, Ashu. Ye hamari umra nahin rahi hai in maamlon mein luka-chhipi khelne ka aur blush karne ki?”

“Right Armaan. To tujhe ye bhi samajh mein aata hoga ki ye meri umra nahin hai ek 24 saal ki ladki se pyaar karne ki.”

“Indeevar sahab bahut pyaar se likh gaye the aur Jagjit Singh ji ne badi achchhi aawaaz mein gaaya hai – Na umra ki seema ho… Aur unki saari mehnat par tu paani pher raha hai aisi baatein kar ke. Use bhi ghazalon ka shauk hai na? I think usne bhi suna hoga. Nidhi tujhse pyaar karti hai Ashutosh. Don’t fool yourself.”

“I know.”

“Phir? Problem kya hai?”

“Problem ye hai, Armaan, ki ye sab cheezein ghazalon mein, gaanon mein achchhi lagti hain. Real life ke sawaal different hote hain.”

“Jaise?”

“Jaise compatibility? Uski umra mein use jin cheezon mein interest hoga, unmein main kahan interest le paunga, uske doston mein kahan hil-mil paunga? Hazaron cheezein hoti hain, Armaan.”

“Usse baat to kar.”

“Theek hai. Maan lo ki hamare beech sab theek hai. We are compatible and we can adjust. Lekin Nidhi ki situation mere jaisi nahin hai, Armaan. Ki na koi aage, na koi peechhe. She has a family behind her. And a loving family on that. Armaan – woh kabhi nahin maanenge is rishte ke liye. Mujhe kissi se koi matlab nahin hai. Lekin unke rishtedaar honge, samaaj hoga, jinhein unhein jawaab dena padega. Aur in sabke beech phansega kaun? Nidhi, right? Main kabhi nahin chahunga ki meri wajah se use apne Baba ke khilaaf jaana pade. Woh dono ek doosre se itna pyaar karte hain, main tumhein bata nahin sakta. Main ye bhi nahin chahunga ki meri wajah se Nidhi ya uske parivaar par koi ungliyan uthaye. Main itna selfish nahin ho sakta, Armaan.”

“Par woh kya chahti hai?”

“She is too young. Is umra mein log plan nahin karte, future ki nahin sochte. Unhein lagta hai ki poori duniya unke kadmon ke neeche hai. No, Armaan. It won’t do to hold her to what she wants now. Ye decision lene ka time nahin hai uska. Kitni duniya dekhi hai usne abhi?”

“Tumse reason out kar ke jeetna mushkil hai Ashutosh. Lekin mera dil kahta hai ki tum ye sahi nahin kar rahe ho. Itne dinon baad khushiyan aayi hain tumhari zindagi mein…”

“Aur main unhein le kar selfish nahin ho sakta, Armaan.”

“Dr. Nidhi ne party ki arrangement kaafi achchhi ki thi,” Mallika took Ashutosh by surprise by saying this in a matter-of-fact tone. But he did not react. He just smiled and did not say anything.

“Tumne bataya kyon nahin ki party woh host kar rahi thi?” she prodded again.

“Kyonki woh host nahin kar rahi thi Mallika. Armaan kar raha tha. Usne Armaan ki help zaroor ki.”

“Come on, Ashutosh. Ab tum mujhse jhooth bologe?”

“Main jhooth kyon bolunga, Mallika? Kaisi baatein kar rahi ho?”

“Baatein main karoon ya na karoon, duniya karegi, Ashutosh. Tumhein andaaza to hai na ki Dr. Nidhi shayad tumse aadhi umra ki hain.”

“To?”

“To? To tumhara ye rishta samaaj ki nazron mein wahiyaat, inappropriate aur disgusting hoga.”

“Mallika!” Ashutosh grew angry.

“Mujh par chillane se kuchh nahin hoga, Ashutosh. Main bas apna farz samajhti hoon ki tumhein aagaah kar doon…”

“Mallika,” Ashutosh spoke calmly now, “Waise to meri life mein kya ho raha hai, ye mujhe kissi ko explain karne ki zaroorat nahin hai. Lekin Dr. Nidhi in cheezon mein entangle na ho jayen, is liye tumse bol raha hoon. Nidhi aur mere beech koi rishta nahin hai.”

“Rishta nahin hai, Ashutosh, to Dr. Nidhi Verma se Nidhi ka safar usne itni jaldi kaise tay kar liya? Jis ladki ko tum hospital mein bhi bardasht nahin kar sakte the, who tumhare ghar tak kaise pahunch gayi?”

“Look, Mallika. It’s no secret that she has a friendly disposition. Aur thodee chanchal hai. Sabke saath hansti, khelti hai, shararatein karti hai. She can draw any one out of their shells. I am no exception. Aur isse zyada main kuchh explain nahin kar raha.”

“Barah saalon se jaanti hoon tumhein,” Mallika’s eyes were moist, “Aur aaj tum use defend karne ke liye meri feelings ko hurt kar rahe ho. Lekin tumhare saamne kya shikayat karoon main? Mera dard kab dikhayi diya hai tumhein?” Mallika got up to leave.

“Mallika. Agar maine tumhara dil dukhaya hai to iski zimmedaari meri hai. Nidhi ka, ya kissi aur ka, isse koi lena-dena nahin hai. Aur Mallika, mera aur Nidhi ka koi bhi rishta ho, meri zindagi mein koi ho ya nahin ho. Lekin usse tumhari jagah meri zindagi mein nahin badalti. At least meri nazaron mein to nahin. Main tumhari dosti ki kadra karta raha hoon, aur hamesha karoonga. Lekin we can’t be anything else to each other. Ek registaan doosre registaan se paani nahin maang sakta. Main tumhari tanhaiyon ko, tumhari taqleefon ko door nahin kar sakta, Mallika. We will be terrible together.”

“Kaash! Kabhi tum meri nazaron se bhi dekh paate Ashutosh. Lekin ye tumhaare wash ki baat nahin hai. Pata nahin Dr. Nidhi ke saath bhi kya karoge? Mujhe barah saalon mein nahin samjhe. Unhein kya barah mahinon mein samajh jaoge?” With this Mallika left his office leaving him behind with his thoughts. He wasn’t affected by most of the things Mallika had said. But he did wonder if more people had noticed him and Nidhi and whether the rumours and gossips were indeed going to start doing their nefarious job.

“Sir, aapko ye to manna hi padega ki aapka ghar party dene ke liye ekdum perfect hai. Itna bada lawn hai – outdoor party ho sakti hai. Aur itna bada aur well-lit hall hai. Indoor party bhi ho sakti hai.”

Nidhi had come to discuss a case file, had brought tea for him and her visits to his office were never over without a little of her pointless, but pleasant chatter.

“To aap kya propose kar rahi hain?”

“Aapko har weekend par party karni chahiye.”

“Dr. Nidhi. Maine ek party de di, usse hi kaafi log shock mein hain. Main har weekend par party karoonga to logon ko heart attack aa jayega aur shahar ke saare hospitals mein jagah kam pad jayegi.”

“Ye to aapne Dr. Armaan ka joke chori kar liya.”

“To? Logon ko heart attack dilwane ka haq sirf aapka hai?”

Nidhi blushed for a moment, but that didn’t stop her from retorting, “Meri kahan mazaal ki main kissi ko heart attack doon. Who kaam to aapka hi hai. Ek baar gusse se dekhenge to achchhe-achchho ko heart attack aa jayega.”

“Ye aap kah rahi hain? Aapko to mere gusse se zaraa bhi dar nahin lagta.”

“Ye kisne kaha?”

“Dikh raha hai. Aaj kal aap PG ki preparation par kam dhyaan deti hain, aur parties par ya gappein maarne par zyaada.”

Nidhi’s face fell at his accusations. “Aisi baat nahin hai. Lekin agar aapko aisa laga to aage se aapko shikayat ka koi mauka nahin milega.” Then she felt the need to clarify, “Lekin haan. Aapke gusse se dar kar main PG ki preparation nahin kar rahi thi. Gussa kar ke mujhse koi kuchh nahin karwa sakta.”

“Hey Nidhi. I know!” Ashutosh said in a soft and earnest voice, “Main mazaak kar raha tha.”

Nidhi smiled, but she was still unhappy about what he had said.

“Lagta hai aap sach mein bura maan gayi. I will have to compensate. Chaliye, aapko coffee pilata hoon.”

“Ye canteen ki coffee se kaam nahin chalega. Kahin bahar chalna padega.”

She was too straight-forward. Direct! Despite himself Ashutosh realized that it made him even more fond of her, and not less.

“That’s too much Dr. Nidhi,” he tried to dissuade.

“Mujhe koi jaldi nahin hai. Jab aapko ye too-much na lage, tab pee lenge. Bye Sir.”

He smiled and shook his head after she left. How difficult it was to not love this girl. But the very next moment, his face stiffened. He couldn’t do that. He, thankfully, had a good alibi in her PG preparations. He would keep her away from himself by asking her to spend more time on it

To be continued

Sacrifices (Part 3)

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“So. Dr. Ashutosh Mathur. Kaisa mahsoos kar rahe hain aap?” Armaan pushed a rolled newspaper before Ashutosh, as if it were a reporter’s mike.

“Bahut thaka hua mahsoos kar raha hoon aur mujhe sone ki zaroorat hai. Parties can be quite tiring.”

“Kamaal hai? Bade selfish hain aap, Dr. Ashutosh. Party ke liye din bhar mehnat ki Dr. Nidhi ne. Aur woh ab bhi hospital mein night duty de rahi hain. Aur thak aap gaye, Ashu maharaj?”

Ashutosh was taken aback.  Indeed! How did he forget about her?

“Armaan. Main hospital ja raha hoon.”

“Are. Lekin…”

“Use bhi to aaraam ki zaroorat hogi. Main thodee der uska kaam dekh sakta hoon.”

Ashutosh did not even change out of his party dress, picked up his car keys and rushed to the hospital.

“Dr. Ashutosh,” Nidhi was surprised as well as relieved to see him. She had been extremely worried, “Achchha hua aap aa gaye. Please is patient ko dekhiye.”

“Kya hua? Aap itni ghabrayi hui kyon hain, Dr. Nidhi?”

“Ek patient abhi abhi admit hua hai. Uska Asthama control nahin ho raha tha. Isliye uske ghar waale use yahan laye hain. Hum woh control karne ki koshish kar rahe hain, lekin kuchh kaam nahin kar raha hai. Aur abhi abhi use cough aane laga. With blood. TB to nahin lagta. Lekin x-ray karne ke layak bhi haalat nahin hai uski…”

“Dr. Sen kahan hain?” Ashutosh asked about the senior doctor who should have been on duty.

“Thodee der pahle emergency se unke liye call aayi thi. Wahin gaye hain. Main unhein phone karne ki koshish kar rahi thi, lekin I think who utha nahin pa rahe hain.”

They had reached the patient’s bed by then. The poor kid was coughing badly and was also short of breath.

“Blood Pressure check kijiye. Jaldi.”

“Blood Pressure?” Nidhi was puzzled.

“Quick. Dr. Nidhi,” Ashutosh was annoyed for a moment.

Nidhi got to work. “Oh God!” she exclaimed as she noticed the BP.

“Blood Pressure control mein laana hoga. This might be a case of Pulmonary Hypertension, not Asthama. Aap please cardiology mein call kijiye aur on-duty senior doctor ko bulaiye. Agar Dr. Khan ho duty par to best hoga.”

“Yes Sir.”

Nidhi followed his instructions precisely. When Dr. Khan reached there she assisted both of them. After a while they had the situation in control and the patient was put to sleep. Before discussing next steps with Dr. Khan. Ashutosh noticed Nidhi, who was standing at some distance from them. She was unable to comprehend what was going on. Patient’s condition had scared her and day’s work followed by the night duty had exhausted her.

“Dr. Nidhi,” Ashutosh addressed her, “The child is stable now. Nurse is looking after him. Mujhe Dr. Khan se aage ki patient-care discuss karni hai. Aap please mujhse dus minute mein mere office mein miliye. I will explain the case to you.” Ashutosh had carefully worded his instructions so that it didn’t sound odd to others. What he really wanted was not to discuss the case with her immediately, but rather for her to take rest in his office.

“Yes Sir,” she said listlessly and left.

Without having to mull over Ashutosh’ words, it came naturally to Nidhi that she should directly go to Ashutosh’ office and not wait elsewhere for ten minutes.

Ashutosh smiled when he entered his office. Nidhi had fallen asleep on the visitor’s chair. Her mouth was slightly open as she slept, which made her already innocent face look even more child-like. He walked towards her and caressed her head. He was almost in a trance as he did that. Then he came to himself with a start and stepped back. Nidhi woke up and sprang out from the chair seeing him, “I… I am sorry, Sir. Pata nahin kaise aankh lag gayi.” She explained embarrasedly trying hard to fight off her sleep.

“Sit down, Nidhi. It’s okay. You were tired, I could see that,” Ashutosh himself was yet to recover from the shock of what he had done just moments ago. What was he thinking!!

“Achchha hua aap aa gaye. Warna main to kabhi nahin samajh paati ki…”

“Aap kya padh rahi thi?” Ashutosh noticed a book in her hands. She was reading before drifting off to sleep.

Nidhi handed him the book. She was reading about Pulmonary Hypertension. Ashutosh smiled, “Aapne padhna bhi shuru kar diya. Good. I am impressed.”

“Main bahut dar gayi thi. Khaas kar ke jab mujhe realize hua ki meri diagnosis ki koshishein actual problem se bilkul tangential thi.”

“It’s okay. Calm down. Patient ke pichhle doctor ne misdiagnosis ki thi. Plus, to be honest, I wouldn’t expect you to be able to do it right. Ye cases roz roz aate nahin hain. Rare hote hain. I would not be surprised agar kai senior doctors bhi diagnose na kar payen. Unless they keep reading medical journals regularly. In fact, meri Dr. Khan se baat ho rahi thi. He was also caught off-guard. We may not even be equipped to treat him here. Hum uske parents ko advice karne waale hain ki use Delhi le jaayen. AIIMS mein. He would need a super-specialist’s care.”

“Oh!” the complication of the situation she was in was scary. She silently thanked her stars that Ashutosh came in time.

“You look tired. Aap abhi case further discuss karna chahengi? Ya hum kal bhi kar sakte hain.”

“Nahin. Abhi karte hain.”

“Okay,” she was eager to learn, and Ashutosh decided not to disappoint her. He explained her the details of the diseases, its symptoms, what all could it be confused with, diagnosis and treatment.

“Thank you Dr. Ashutosh.”

“Ismein thanks ki kya baat hai. Aapko explain karna mera kaam hai.”

“Nahin. Time par aane ke liye. Agar patient ko kuchh ho jaata to…”

“Yeah. It was not a good situation ki koi senior doctor nahin tha yahan. Hamein emergencies manage karne ke liye better system chahiye. Main administration se baat karoonga.”

“Ji. Waise aap aaye kyon the? Aap to din bhar bhi hospital mein the?“

Ashutosh laughed out loud, “Dr. Nidhi Verma. Aapko to police mein hona chahiye. Itna sab kuchh ho jaane ke baad bhi aap original question nahin bhooli. Aur mauka milte hi sawaal-jawaab shuru kar diya.”

“Nahin,” Nidhi was embarrassed, “I am sorry. Maine to aise hi poochha. Main chalti hoon.”

“Nidhi,” Ashutosh stopped her, “Tum chaho to ghar ja sakti ho. Main hoon yahan par.”

“Aap to Dadi Bua se bhi badtar hote ja rahe hain. Aapko aisa kyon lag raha hai ki main thaki hui hoon? Koi pahli baar night duty thode hi kar rahi hoon?”

“Lekin tum din bhar bhi kaam kar rahi thi. Obviously thaki hui ho. Dikh raha hai shakal par.”

“I am fine, Dr. Ashutosh. I really am. Aapko mere liye yahan rukne ki zaroorat nahin hai. Main to subah aaraam kar loongi. Lekin aapko phir hospital aana padega.”

Ashutosh nodded and Nidhi left. But he did not leave for home. He leaned further back into his chair and spent rest of the night thinking.

They were fond of each other, there was no denying this now. Nidhi’s feelings – he had heard from her own mouth. And he knew that he liked her. But he didn’t expect it to go anywhere. It was not supposed to. The idea was so ridiculous. He had hoped that their relationship will remain innocent and friendly. But…

What had possessed him when he had seen her sleeping in the chair? Why did he have to go and touch her? And feel like…

Nidhi was also confused as she walked out of his office. Was it in her dream that Ashutosh had caressed her head so lovingly? Because when she woke up, he wasn’t standing that close to her. And yet she had felt like an electrical shock run through her veins. It had to be a dream. Ashutosh could not be attracted to her. That was way too much to hope for. Yes – he did appear fond of her. He was friendly with her. He appeared to take special interest in her professional progress. Once in a while he said or did something that made her feel like he wanted her. But she might be seeing too much meaning in simple things. Hoping that any of that was a reflection of her own feelings might be too much. She didn’t want to hope for too much. She did not want to become another Mallika. She didn’t want to become bitter in love by expecting it to come back. She was happy giving love. She was happy with whatever little came back to her. Or even if nothing did. Loving him was enough to give her all the happiness in life.

To be continued

Sacrifices (Part 2)

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Ashutosh was now grinning in amusement, “Main samajh gaya ki aapka calendars ka aur solar system ka knowledge bahut achchha hai, lekin hum achanak ye kyon discuss kar rahe hain?”

“Aapko ye samjhaane ke liye ki given this mess, ye unlikely hai ki humme se koi bhi apna birthday exact us din manata hai, jab sun ke hisaab se manana chahiye. Birthday par ek calendar date daalna sirf celebrate karne ka bahana hota hai. To bas hamare paas aapki birthday celebrate karne ke liye bhi ek date ka bahana hai. Aur kya chahiye hoga?”

His grin had turned into a sweet, admiring smile by the time Nidhi had finished. “Tumse  jeetna namumkin hai Nidhi,” he said throwing his hands up in a gesture of accepting defeat.

“To phir party kahan hai?”

“Party?”

“Haan. Birthday ki party. Gifts muft mein nahin milte hain.”

“Are. Nahin Dr. Nidhi. Birthday party… Maine kabhi nahin…”

“To kya hua? Har cheez pahli baar to hoti hai na? Aap chinta mat kijiye. Maine apni duty exchange kar li hai. Mere paas poora din hai. Main saara intezaam kar doongi.”

“Kahan?”

“Aapke ghar par?”

“Ghar par?”

“Haan. Maine Dr. Armaan se baat ki hai. Who meri madad kar denge.”

“Aapne to poori team khadi kar di hai mere khilaaf.”

“Is team mein koi bhi aapke khilaaf nahin hai. Aap unhein saath le kar chalne ki koshish to kijiye.”

“To mujhe kya karna hai?”

“Aap bas senior doctors ko invite kar lijiye aur apne personal friends ko. Shaam mein 7 baje. Boliyega ki Dr. Armaan host kar rahe hain. Baaki ke staff ko invite karne ka kaam main khud dekh loongi ya interns se karwa loongi.”

“Back out karne ka koi option hai?”

“Nahin. Bye Dr. Ashutosh. Aap please 6.30 tak ghar pahunch jaiyega.”

After she had left, Asuhtosh opened the gift she had brought for him. It was a nice, blue tie. Ashutosh could not help smiling. He had just placed the tie in his drawer when Mallika entered. Ashutosh felt annoyed that she didn’t knock before coming, but he greeted her courteously.

“Hi Mallika.”

“Hi Ashutosh. Kya baat hai? Itni broad smile. Bade khush dikh rahe ho.”

“Khush hone ka pata nahin. Lekin jo main abhi tumse kahne ja raha hoon, usse tum bhi utni hi surprised ho jaogi, jitna ki main hoon.”

“Achchha. Aisa kya hai?”

“Aaj shaam 7 baje mere ghar par party hai and you must come.”

“Party?” Mallika was incredulous, “Tum party de rahe ho Ashutosh? Kis liye?”

“Meri birthday ke liye.”

“Birthday? Tumhari? Tumhein pata bhi hai ki…” Mallika stopped herself just in time from blurting out that he didn’t even know his birthday. Ashutosh looked hurt for a split second, but it didn’t last.

He replied with child-like enthusiasm, “Celebrate karne ka bahana chahiye Mallika. Date ki authenticity ka main kuchh nahin kar sakta. Aur usse kya farq padta hai?”

“Yes. Of course,” responded Mallika in embarrassment, “It’s great. Lekin party ka idea aaya kaise tumhein? Tumhein maine kitni baar kaha tha…”

“Mallika. Aam khane se matlab rakho. Ped ginne se nahin. Armaan arrange kar raha hai. I hope to see you at 7. Abhi kuchh kaam tha? Mujhe ward mein jaana hai.”

“Nahin. Koi kaam nahin tha. Main to aise hi aayi thi. Main bhi chalti hoon. Will see you in the evening.”

Nidhi had juidiciously made Armaan play the host in the party so that no one should know that she was the one who had planned it. The guests were yet to come. She changed into a calf-length black dress for the party and waited for Ashutosh to get ready. When he came out, they stood staring at each other for a few seconds.

She looked very different. And it wasn’t just her dress. There was a marked difference in the impression she made. She had always enchanted Aashutosh by her girlish innocent beauty. Even when she had walked into Armaan’s tea-party wearing the blue saree and the high heals, creating a facade of mature looks, she had been able to maintain it only until she had lost her balance on the heals. But today… today she looked confidence personified. The confidence with which she had barged into his office with a birthday gift, the confidence with which she had already planned everything with Armaan and didn’t let him back out, the confidence with which she had explained to him why the authenticity of the date did not matter, all of it was oozing out of her. Along with all this, the black, sleeveless dress, which along with matching accessories created a sensual contrast against her skin, made her look… so… mature… and… desirable. Desirable! Ashutosh flushed as he the right word struck his mind and broke his gaze. He did complement her though, “Aap bahut achchhi lag rahi hain.”

“Aap bhi,” she replied happily. He was wearing the tie she had gifted him.

Ashutosh noticed her footwear and ended up asking, “To ab apko heals pahanne mein problem nahin hoti?”

“Ye? Ye heals nahin hai Dr. Ashutosh. Platforms hain. Ye aage se bhi oonche hote hain, to dikkat nahin hoti hai.”

“I see,” Ashutosh grinned foolishly.

They didn’t realize that Armaan was also there and had watched them stare at each other. He interjected at this point, “Koi hamari bhi taareef kar de zara.”

Ashutosh was baffled for a moment on hearing Armaan’s voice, but Nidhi was in control, “Aap to party ke centre of attention banne waale hain, Dr. Armaan.”

“Kahar to aap dha rahi hain, Dr. Nidhi. Mujhe to kya lagta hai Ashutosh, ki party khatam hote hote tak haemin saare guests ko emergency mein admit karwana padega aur hum sab logon ko night duty karni padegi.”

“Kya matlab?”

“Matlab inhein dekh kar sab logon ko heart attack jo aane waala hai?”

“Dr. Armaan!” Nidhi blushed and chided him.

“Khair chalo. Chalte hain. Party lawn mein hai Ashutosh. Aur guests ab aate hi honge.”

“Aap log chaliye. Main Hiraman Kaka ke saath ek baar kaam dekh leti hoon ki sab cheezein taiyaar hain ya nahin,” Nidhi said and stayed back. Nothing really needed to be checked up, but she did not want to be seen as the host. She had planned to slip into the party after it was already crowded so that no one would know that she had been there the entire day.

“Are Nidhi. Sabko bula kar tu khud kaise late ho gayi,” Priyanka asked Nidhi when she spotted her in the party. Nidhi liked the question. It meant that people hadn’t noticed her coming out of Ashutosh’ house itself.

“Ghar chali gayi thi change karne. Isliye der ho gayi.”

“Ekdum hot lag rahi hai.”

“Chup kar.”

Nobody had indeed noticed her, except Mallika. Ashutosh throwing a party or even agreeing to let Armaan throw one, that too for his birthday, was not like him at all. Mallika had known him for far too long to believe that it was Armaan’s doing. Even when Ashutosh was, otherwise, a happy-go-lucky person, he had never celebrated his birthday. Not in the college, not afterwards! So, when Ashutosh evaded answering her about the party earlier in the day, it didn’t take her long to do the arithmetic. Nidhi had exchanged her day-duty for night-shift. After reaching the party, Mallika looked for Nidhi everywhere. And she did find her. Coming out surreptitiously from a side door of the house. But it took her a while to corner Nidhi.

“I’m impressed, Dr. Nidhi.”

“Ji?”

“Ashutosh ko party ke liye, aur who bhi birthday party ke liye manana aasaan kaam nahin tha.”

“Ye aap mujhse kyon kah rahi hain?”

“Jiska kaam ho, tareef bhi to uski hi karni padegi.”

“Party Dr. Armaan ne di hai.”

“Dr. Armaan to Ashutosh ke saath bachpan se hain, Dr. Nidhi. Aaj tak to koi party nahin hui? Party to tab hui jab aapne kaha. Aur apni duty exchange kar ke uski taiyaariyan bhi ki. Kyon?”

Nidhi sighed, “Whatever. Jab party ho rahi hai, to ye court laga kar baithne ki bajay aap party enjoy kyon nahin karti?”

“Bahut tez zubaan hai aapki? Control mein rakhiye. Ashutosh ko badtamiziyan bardasht karne ki aadat nahin.”

“Aur woh badtamiziyan deserve karte bhi nahin.”

“Kahna kya chahti hain aap?” Nidhi had essentially told her that she deserved the insult and rudeness, “Ye mat bhooliye ki main aapki senior hoon…”

“Yahan nahin, Dr. Mallika, yahan nahin. Phir agar aap apni seniority ki maryada nahin nibhayengi aur mujhe badtamizi karne par majboor karengi to hospital mein bhi ye cover nahin rahega aapke paas,” Nidhi walked off leaving a fuming Mallika behind.

“Dr. Ashutosh. Mujhe nikalna hoga,” Nidhi found Ashutosh after a while.

“Kyon?” Ashutosh’ face fell, “Abhi to sab log yahin hain…”

“Meri duty ka time ho raha hai. Maine exchange ki thi na.”

“Ohh!” he, obviously, could not ask her to be late for the duty.

“I hope aapne enjoy kiya party ko,” she said looking eager.

“Ab tak to bahut kiya,” Ashutosh openly admitted his liking for her presence.

Nidhi blushed, “Aage bhi karenge. Itne log hain yahan. Mujhe to pata bhi nahin tha ki aap hospital ke bahar itne logon ko jaante honge.”

Ashutosh laughed, “Zindagi ke is padav par jaanne waale logon ki kami nahin hoti Dr. Nidhi. Pahchanne waale log nahin milte. Khair. Hospital ke liye late nahin hona chahiye aapko.”

“Ji. Chalti hoon,” she turned to go away when he called her.

“Nidhi!”

She turned back and looked at him questioningly.

He smiled, very slightly; but enough to tell her that he was genuine in what he said next, “Thanks a lot!”

To be continued

Sacrifices (Part 1)

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Author’s Note: This is a variation of an earlier Ashni FF. Please read the notes before starting on this one.

“Dr. Mallika. Aapne mujhe bulaya?”

“Yes Dr. Nidhi. Socha saath mein coffee pi jaye.”

“Achchha!” Nidhi knew that wasn’t her motive.

“Waise zara apna haath to dikhaiye Dr. Nidhi. Aapki luck line zaroor bahut strong hogi. Kabhi lottery lagi hai aapki?”

“Nahin,” Nidhi said dryly and walked towards the coffee machine.

“Dr. Ashutosh ki personality bahut hi charming hai, magnetic hai” Mallika came to the point, “Unki taraf attract hote logon ko der nahin lagti.”

Nidhi got the coffee and sat across her on a chair. She did not react to what Mallika had said. So, Mallika continued, “Aur phir woh ameer bhi to bahut hain?”

“So?”

“Anyway. Ye to aap jaanti hain.”

“Ye aap mujhse zyada jaanti hain shayad.”

“Haan. Ashutosh ko mujhse zyada koi nahin jaanta. Isliye tumhein samjhaane ki koshish kar rahi hoon. Don’t waste your time Nidhi. Warna ek din pachhtaogi.”

“I don’t understand.”

“Samajh jaogi. Lekin tab tak bahut der ho chuki hogi. Tum kabhi bhi is age-gap ko khatam nahin kar sakti Nidhi. And if you tried, which I think you will, then…”

“Aap ye sab kyon suna rahi hain mujhe?”

“Agar tum galat raaste par chalo, to mera haq hai ki main tumhein rokoon.”

“Ji nahin. Maine ye haq aapko kabhi nahin diya hai. And you don’t have to worry about me Dr. Mallika. Lekin achchha kiya ki aapne ye baat seedhe seedhe kar li. You are right. I like Dr. Ashutosh. And I don’t care ki woh mujhse pyaar karte hain ya nahin, kabhi bhi karenege ya nahin, ya phir woh mujhse kitne bade hain. Kyonki pyaar koi business nahin hota, Len-den nahin hota. Aapne apni life mein pyaar ke badle hamehsa kuchh paane ki koshish ki hai. Shayad isliye itni disappoint hui hain.”

Nidhi walked out of the room, not realizing that Ashutosh was standing near the door listening to her conversation with Mallika.

Ashutosh was away for three days to attend All India Medical Convention (AIMC) in Mumbai. He had been away for only a day till then, but Nidhi missed him. She realized how she had gotten used to his presence. Especially in the recent days, he had been around almost all the time she was on duty. Nidhi smiled at the bitter-sweet pain she felt.

Her duty was about to get over. She went to the notice board to check when she had to come back and for which ward. What she saw there surprised her.

She went to look for Dr. Mallika to clarify. But could not find her. She ran into Dr. Rangnath though.

“Dr. Rangnath. Ye meri duty agle do dinon ke liye…”

“Record room mein hai Dr. Nidhi.”

“Lekin iska kya matlab hai? Why do you need a doctor in the record room? Ye to clerical kaam hai. Koi bhi staff kar sakta hai.”

“I know Dr. Nidhi. Maine Dr. Mallika se kaha bhi tha, lekin woh nahin maani.”

“Aur woh abhi hain bhi nahin yahan.”

“Yeah. I think aap kal to aa hi jaiye. Phir woh aas paas hon to unse baat kar lijiye.”

“Okay.”

Nidhi’s heart skipped a beat when she saw Ashutosh entering the record room. It was the first glimpse she had gotten of him after four days. He was surprised to see her there though and stopped in his tracks.

“Dr. Nidhi,” Ashutosh also smiled widely, “Aap yahan kya kar rahi hain?”

“Meri duty yahan lagi hai.”

“Duty? Record room mein?” Ashutosh was surprised, “Aisa kya kaam hai yahan?”

“Kuchh khaas nahin. Patients ki files update karni hain.”

“Lekin…” Ashutosh was about to say that it didn’t need a doctor to be there. Then he realized that it must be Mallika’s doing.

“Anyway. I will see you later,” he said, picked up the files he needed and went out of the room.

Nidhi wanted to talk to him. But she could not hold him back in the reord room, obviously. She looked at her watch. She could take a break in another ten minutes.

Nidhi was about to walk into Ashutosh’ room with a cup of tea, when his controlled, but angry voice made her stop in her tracks, “Mallika. Record room mein ek doctor ki duty lagane ki kya zaroorat hai?”

“Agar tum Dr. Nidhi Verma ki baat kar rahe ho to woh wahin theek hain.”

“Koi bhi doctor wahan theek nahin hai Mallika. This will not be done. I will not allow is here.”

“To tum mere kaam mein interfere karoge?”

“Yes Mallika,” Ashutosh said and it was at this moment that Nidhi came to his office, but stopped at the door on hearing his voice, “Apni dosti ke liye main unprofessionalism bardasht nahin kar sakta. Tum Dr. Nidhi ke baare mein personally kya sochti ho, ya main kya sochta hoon, that doesn’t matter in this hospital. Only things that matter are what are professionally right and what are good for the patients and the hospital. No further dicussions on this Dr. Mallika. Let her complete today’s duty, but this must not happen again. Thank you.”

Nidhi realized that Mallika would be coming out of his office anytime. So, she moved away from there to avoid any awkward confrontation.

‘Tum Dr. Nidhi ke baare mein personally kya sochti ho, ya main kya sochta hoon, that doesn’t matter in this hospital,’ she recalled Ashutosh’ word and murmured, “Kya sochte hain aap mere bare mein Dr. Ashutosh?” She looked at the tea she had carried for him, smiled and took a sip from it.

“Good Morning Dr. Ashutosh,” Nidhi didn’t even knock before barging into his office that day.

“Good Morning Dr. Nidhi. Aaj itni jaldi kaise? Abhi to aapki duty shuru nahin hui hogi?”he didn’t seem to mind the liberties she took.

“Aap bhi to hain?”

Ashutosh laughed, “Mujhse compare kyon karti hain aap? Mere liye to ghar par hona, hospital mein hona sab baraabar hai.”

“Haan. Aapse mera comparison kahan hai?” Nidhi pouted.

“Are. Aap bura kyon maan rahi hain?”

Nidhi smiled, “Main mazaak kar rahi hoon. Main to bas aapko ye dene aayi thi.”

Ashutosh took the packet she handed him looking confused.

“Ye kya hai?”

“Happy Birthday Dr. Ashutosh.”

“Birthday? Aur… ye aap mere liye… gift laayi hain?” Ashutosh looked incredulous.

“Haan. Ye to hum bachpan se hi karte aa rahe hain.”

“Kya?”

“Jinki birthday ho, unhein gift dete hain.”

“Yeah… Lekin…”

“Kya hua?” Nidhi didn’t understand his lack of enthusiasm.

“Aapko kisne bataya ki aaj mera birthday hai?”

“Main jab record room mein thi to wahan employees ki files bhi thi… Usmein dekh li thi main…. I know – they are confidential. Sorry about that! I swear maine kuchh aur nahin dekha. Aur maine kissi aur ki file bhi nahin dekhi.”

Her innocence disarmed Ashutosh. He wasn’t going to scold her for looking at his file after this. He smiled, but still looked uncomfortable about the birthday and the gift.

“Kya baat hai?”Nidhi asked again.

“Well,” he decided to come clean to her. It wasn’t going to be possible for him to hide something from her or lie to her, “Aap jaanti hai ki main adopted hoon. Aur meri real birthday to Baba ko bhi nahin pata thi. Us zamane mein birth certificates zaroori nahin hote the. To bas Baba ne school mein woh date likhwa di jab who mujhe laaye the aur andaaze se year bhi bhar diya. To obviously ye mera real birthday to hai nahin.”

“Dr. Ashutosh. Aapko solar system ke bare mein kuchh bhi pata nahin hai kya?”

“Kya matlab?”

“Aapko pata hai ki leap year kyon hota hai?”

“Of course pata hai.”

“Kyon hota hai?”

“Kyonki calendar year aur earth ke rotation period mein kareeb aadhe din ka farq hota hai. To use adjust karne ke liye har chaar saal mein…”

“Aur uske baawzood hundred years mein phir ek din adjust karne ki zaroorat par jaati hai. To har 100th year leap year nahin hota hai.”

“Okay?” Ashutosh was half-inclined to think that Nidhi was either drunk or delirious.

“Lekin… lekin… har 4th 100th year, yani ki har 400th year leap year hota hai. Kyonki itni kalaakari karne ke baad bhi hum calendar year aur earth ke rotation time ko balance nahin kar paate.”

To be continued

Past Resurfaces (Part 7)

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Dadi Ma looked pale and unwell to Maan when he walked into the restaurant to meet her.

“Dadi Ma! Aapki tabiyat theek nahin lag rahi hai.”

“Uski chinta aapko kyon hogi Maan?” Her anger had not mellowed down.

“Dadi Ma!” Maan was clearly hurt.

“Hamein yahan kyon bulaya hai?”

Maan sighed. Probably finishing what he had come to do was the only hope of making Dadi Ma see his point.

“Dadi Ma. Mujhe pata hai ki aap mujhse naaraaz hain. Lekin jo main aaj aapko batane ja raha hoon, aap please ek baar woh sun lijiye. ”

Dadi Ma did not reply. So, Maan started off by showing her the photocopy of gueshouse’s registers and bills. Dadi Ma had no difficulty in recognizing Dev’s handwriting. Then Maan called Munshi ji in and he told her about his conversations with the land agent, how he recognized Dev and Nayantara as the ones selling Geet’s land, with the staff of the temple where Dev and Geet got married and also the lodge where they stayed.

Dadi Ma was speechless at the end of it. Despite Maan supporting Geet all through, Dadi Ma had never even in her wildest imaginations believed that Dev could stoop so low. She had questioned Dev and Nayantara about how they paid off the debt. They had assured her that Nayantara’s family had helped them. Maan told Dadi Ma about Pammi’s involvement as well. Once she came to terms with the fact that Dev was indeed responsible for that heinous crime, her thoughts turned to Geet.

“Maan beta. Geet kaisi hain? Humne unke saath sahi nahin kiya.”

“Dadi Ma! Geet theek hai lekin… Use aapki zaroorat hai Dadi Ma. Aap please usse ek baar mil lijiye.”

Dadi Ma nodded.

Maan said when they were driving back home, “Dadi Ma! I am sorry – humne aapke aashirwaad ke bina shaadi kar li. Geet nahin chahti thi, lekin maine…”

“Maan, aap Geet ke saath khush hain na?”

“Aap jaanti hain Dadi Ma. Geet ne hi to mujhe phir se khush rahna, jeena sikhaya hai.”

“Phir hamein koi shikayat nahin hai,” Dadi Ma smiled.

“Geet!” Geet looked up from the magazine she was reading on hearing Maan’s voice and was stunned to see Dadi Ma standing there with him.

“Dadi Ma!” She stood up and for a moment did not know what to do. Then she regained her senses and started fretting, “Dadi Ma! Aap baithiye na. Main aapke liye chai bana kar lati hoon… Nahin… Itni garmi hai. Main sharbat lati hoon. Aap nashta karengi…”

“Geet bete,” Dadi Ma came forward and held her hands, “Hum aapse maafi maangne aaye hain. Apne khoon par andh-vishwas kar ke humne aapke saath bahut galat salook kiya. Aap hamein maaf kar dengi na?”

Geet was initially too surprised to react. She kept looking at Dadi Ma for a few seconds and then looked at Maan. He smiled and blinked in assurance.

Overwhelmed by emotions, tears filled Geet’s eyes, which she tried hard to blink back, “Dadi Ma! Aap maafi maang kar mujhe sharminda kyon kar rahi hain? Aapka aashirwaad mujhe mil jaye, to aur mujhe kuchh nahin chahiye.”

“Bahut bada dil hai aapka beta. Na jaane humne aapko itna galat kaise samjha,” Dadi Ma paused for a second and then asked, “Geet! Beta, aap theek hain na? Koi pareshaani to nahin hai aapko?”

Geet could not control her emotions on hearing these words of concern. Tears started flowing freely from her eyes.

“Aap ro kyon rahi hain Geet? Sab theek hai na?”

“Dadi Ma! Mujhe galat mat samajhiyega. Maan mera bahut khayal rakhte hain. Kabhi kissi cheez ki kami nahin mahsoos hone dete hain. Lekin mujhe bahut ghabrahat hoti hai Dadi Ma! Hamesha lagta hai ki kahin kuchh galat to nahin kar rahi. Pata nahin main ek zimmedaar Ma ban paungi ya nahin? Dadi Ma! Aap meri madad karengi na, please?”

Neither Dadi Ma, nor Maan could help tears when Geet poured her heart out in front of Dadi Ma. Geet had never voiced her concern, but Maan had guessed it that she really pined for a mother-figure, especially to get advice and assurance in pregnancy related matters. Maan could have treated her like a princess; yet it was not possible to fill the role of a mother to an eighteen year old, especially when she was pregnant at such a young age.

Dadi Ma hugged Geet and replied, “Bas Geet. Aapko chinta karne ki koi zaroorat nahin hai. Aap bahut bahadur hain. Ab tak ki ladai aapne akele ladi hai, aur bahut achchhe se ladi hai. Aap duniya ki sabse achchhi Ma banengi. Aur hum hain ab aapke saath. Hamesha.”

Maan smiled and wiped his tears. To make the mood light, he said, “Koi meri taraf bhi dekhega.”

Dadi Ma and Geet broke their hug smiling as Maan came closer and Dadi Ma hugged both of them together. Geet and Maan had a quick, silent eye-talk and they touched Dadi Ma’s feet to get the long pending blessing for their marriage.

“Dadi Ma, aapki tabiyat theek nahin hai kya? Aap beemaar lag rahi hain,” Geet asked.

“Aur kya? Koi hamaari dekh-bhaal karne waala jo nahin tha. Ab hamein hamari bahu mil gayi hai, to hum usse seva karwa-karwa kar dubara hatte-katte ho jayenge.”

All three of them smiled as Dadi Ma hugged them once again.

The case would have been straight-forward if they could get the DNA test done for the baby. But the doctor had advised against it for an unborn baby as it could potentially be harmful to the baby. A risk which, obviously, they could not have taken. Maan was also not ready to wait for the baby to be born to initiate the case. He was clear and determined about his aim. He wanted everything sorted out before the baby was born. Thankfully by following up on the leads in Hoshiyarpur, including the case against Brij, there were enough witnesses and proofs for Dev’s crime. They were also able to get the immigration records that showed Dev and his family’s presence in India during that period.

What surprised Geet the most was that Maan called Pammi and Kamya back from Canada and Pammi agreed to testify against Dev. Firstly she was bogged down with guilt ever since they had duped Geet; and when she came to know Geet’s pregnancy, her guilt increased manyfold. Secondly, Maan had clearly warned her that if she did not cooperate, she and her daughter would also be co-accused. If she co-operated Geet will herself ask for leniency on their cases and they could ensure that Kamya did not have to go to the jail.

There were uncomfortable moments during the case, but Maan stood by Geet like a rock. He had also ensured that all of the witnesses from Hoshiyarpur stayed in Delhi during the trial. He made comfortable stay arrangements for them. He and Dadi Ma testified for Dev’s financial troubles.

At a later stage in the case, Maan was also able to arrange for the CCTV footage of airport on the day Dev had left her there. The entire family’s presence with Geet was evident from that.

Despite some twisted attempts by Dev and Nayantara’s lawyers, they could not get their way and Dev was fined and sentenced for rape and fraud. Nayantara also got a sentence, albeit smaller one, as main co-accused.

Pammi and Kamya were let off on a heavy fine on Geet’s leniency plea. Maan paid the fine for them.

Maan took Geet to their farmhouse that night. They needed time away from the worries after the case was over. Cool breeze was blowing at the night as they lazed around in the dimly lit poolside.

Maan felt like swimming in the pool for a while. He told Geet so and after taking off his vest, jumped into the pool. Geet got up from her chair when Maan came out of the pool and moved towards him. She could not help but feel drawn towards his toned body looking even more attractive with the water dripping from all over. Geet was also feeling emotionally drained after two months of running around for the case. The emotional and physical needs came togehter as she hugged his wet body tight without saying anything. Maan happily and habitually recirpocated. He cupped her face when they broke the hug and asked very softly, “Geet tum khush to ho na?”

Geet looked up at him and in next few moments she recalled all the time she had been with him since they had first met. She felt overwhelmed on realizing just how much this man had done for her, just how much he loved her!

“Maan! Main aapse kuchh maangna chahti hoon.”

“Bolo Geet. Lekin tumhein maangne ki kya zaroorat hai? Mera sab kuchh tumhara hi to hai.”

“Main ek baar aapke pair chhona chahti hoon.”

“Kya?” Maan was completely confused, “Ye kaisi baat kar rahi ho Geet?”

Geet realized than what she said would have been extremely awkward for him, “Nahin! Mujhe galat mat samajhiyega Maan. Main jaanti hoon ki aap mere ghar waalon jaise nahin hain, jo auraton ko apne se chhota samajhte hain aur unhein daba kar rakhna apna haq maante hain. Aapke man mein aise baat galti se bhi nahin aa sakti. Isliye to aap un sabse itne alag hain. Main bas… Main aapki bahut izzat karti hoon Maan. Aur isse main chhoti nahin ho jati. Balki jo insaan itni izzat ka kaabil hai, woh mujhe itna pyaar karta hai, usse to mera kad aur ooncha ho jaata hai. Bas is izzat ki wajah se ek baar…”

“Chup Geet. Bilkul chup,” Maan silenced her in his signature style, “Mujhe pata hai Geet ki tum meri kitni izzat karti ho. Ye batane ke liye tumhein kuchh bhi aur karne ki zaroorat nahin hai. Tumhari har baat se pata chalta hai iska. Jaise tum meri har baat maanti ho, mujhpar atoot vishwas karti ho, mere baare mein mere apne munh se bhi kuchh bura nahin sun sakti ho, mere liye kissi se bhi lad jaati ho, apni jaan tak ki parwah nahin karti ho. Un sabse mujhe pata chal jaata hai Geet ki tum meri kitni izzat karti ho. Aur mujhe bahut achchha lagta hai ki jis ladki se main itna pyaar karta hoon, woh meri itni izzat karti hai. Main duniya ka sabse khushkistam insaan hoon Geet. Aur Geet, agar tumhein ab tak na pata chala ho, to main bata doon ki main bhi tumhari bahut izzat karta hoon. Main har waqt, har mod par tumhare saath isliye khada rahta hoon kyonki main tumhari bahaduri, saadgi aur sachchai ka kayal hoon Geet. To main to tumhein kissi ke saamne, apne saamne bhi jhukne nahin de sakta. Dubara aisi baat bhi mat karna.”

Geet had anticipated his resistance. In fact, it was in a moment of being carelessly emotional that she had asked him for doing it. She really wanted to, but knew that Maan would never allow that. Still, when he  told clearly what he felt about it, his words touched Geet. Her eyes were moist, but the tears were that of the happiness. She hugged him once again and he reciprocated.

Maan felt good that he made her so happy. But at the same time he liked it more when Geet was her usual bubbly self. Somehow when she was emotional, he always got a feeling that she felt burdened by all that he had done for her. He did not know of a way to actually convince her that she had done much more for him that what he had done for her. He might have saved her body; but she had saved his soul. Right now he had to get her out of her emotional state. Thankfully it did not take much to distract this child woman. He teased her, “Waise Geet. Maine shayad tumhein kuchh zyada hi credit de diya.”

Geet broke the hug and looked at him all confused, “Kya matalab?”

“Saari baatein to nahin maanti ho tum meri. Jab tumhein woh gol-gappe aur road-side ki unhygienic chat khani hoti hai to tum mere lakh manaa karne par bhi apni manmaani hi karti ho.”

“Maan!”

“Main galat thode hi na kah raha hoon, lekin…” he paused and lifted her in his arms.

“Ab ye aap kya kar rahe hain?”

“Ensure kar raha hoon ki tum meri pakad mein raho aur abhi tumhein meri baat maanni hi pade.”

“Kya baat?”

“Ab dekho. Tumne mujhe khud ko dry karne ka bhi mauka nahin diya aur aake lipat gayin,” he paused to see her getting embarrassed and then continued naughtily, “To ab tumhare kapde bheeg gaye hain. Isse to tumhein aur baby ko thandh lag sakti hai.” Geet looked at him confused wondering where it was all going. Suddenly he changed his tone and continued in a heavy, seducing, suggestive voice, “To ye kapde to utarne padenge na Geet. Aur yahan tumhari koi zidd nahin chalegi.” Geet blushed heavily. He had caught her unguarded. Simply his words and voice were enough to make her shiver.

He took her to their room and settled her on the bed, “Geet koi jaadu-tona aata hai kya tumhein? Din-ba-din aur bhi zyada khoobsoorat hoti ja rahi ho.”

Geet blushed even more and did not meet her eyes.

“Ab chup kyon ho gayi Geet? Bolo na…” he climbed on the bed and lied down with his head on her lap.

She had to speak what was on her mind, “Aapki wajah se…”

“Achchha… Ek to tum apni khoobsoorti se mujhe itna bechain karti ho, itna pareshaan karti ho. Aur uska ilzaam bhi mere hi oopar daal rahi ho. Zara sunoon to ki meri wajah se tumhari khoobsoorti kaise badh rahi hai Geet?”

“Aap mujhe itna khush jo rakhte hain…”

“Achchha…” Maan smiled meaningfully and used his hand to bring her face down, “Phir to mujhe iska inaam milna chahiye.”

He bit her lips lightly and then followed it up with a deep, probing kiss leaving her breathless. After the kiss she bent backwards, leaned on the headboard of the bed and closed her eyes. He breathing was heavy and her face gave away her desires.

Maan also got up, leaned closer to her and nuzzled his nose on her cheek and earlobes. Then he traced those areas with his lips and came down to the side of her neck. He kissed her repeatedly on the neck and the shoulders and even bit her once leaving a mark. Geet flinched when he bit her, but he was too lost to notice. When the sensations his kisses sent through her body became too much to bear, she dig her hands into his hair and pulled his face away fom her neck. She looked at him with her eyes almost closing for a couple of seconds and pleasantly suprised him by kissing him passionately on his lips.  When they withdrew from the kiss, Geet became conscious of what she had done. Maan felt amused and aroused at the same time. He could not let go of the opportunity to tease her, “Geet! Tumhari himmat to bahut badh gayi hai, ” he paused to see the effect on her. She was unable to meet his eyes and looked embarrassed and nervous. He continued, “Achchha laga Geet.” Geet still did not meet his eyes. But the nervous expressions on her face changed to a blushing smile as she hid her face in his chest.

Maan put his arms around her and started caressing her back, while his lips once again found their way to her neck and shoulders. He opened the zip of her kurti at the back and slid it over her shoulders. After paying due attention to her entire upper body, he quickly ripped off rest of their clothes as well; and their bodies passionately gave in to each other.

After they had caught their breath, Geet asked him this question so innocently that it made him laugh out loud, “Maan! Main sach mein aapki baatein nahin maanti hoon. Aapko bura lagta hai?”

Maan replied after his laughter subsided, “Geet. Sach bataun. Bahut achcha lagta hai ki tum mujhse zidd karti ho, jhagda karti ho. Haan Geet. Koi aur to ye sab kar nahin sakta na mere saath. In sab se hi to lagta hai ki tum meri apni ho. Haan kuchh cheezein hai jinmein tumhein meri baat maanni hogi.”

“Jaise?” she asked innocently again.

Maan again chuckled and quickly gave a peck on her lips. She realized what his answer was, blushed once again and hid her face in his chest. He drew her close as they lied down in each other’s arms.

– The End –

Past Resurfaces (Part 6)

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After they were spent, they lied in each other’s arms for a while, without speaking anything. Then Maan propped up on his hand and looked at her lovingly. Geet felt conscious and asked, “Aise kya dekh rahe hain?”

“Dekh raha hoon ki tum pahle se bhi zyada khoobsoorat lag rahi ho.”

“Aisa kyon?”

“Maan Singh Khurana ki dulhan jo ban gayi ho,” he said suggestively.

Geet blushed, but replied back bravely, “Achchha. To ab meri khoobsoorti ka credit bhi aap lenge.”

“Credit lene ki zaroorat to tab padegi, jab tumhein koi dekhega. Main to soch raha hoon ki tumhein saari duniya se chhipa kar, kahin band kar doon. Jahan sirf main tumhein dekh sakoon. Aur tum bhi mere alawa kissi ko na dekh sako.”

Obviously that was not going to happen. But the possessiveness that these lines showed made Geet’s heart skip a beat. She felt the urge to lose herself in his arms, but also felt too shy to actually initiate the hug.

She just replied with a nervous smile, “Maan. Aap bhi na…”

Mana smiled and fulfilled her unspoken wish by taking her in his arms.

“Geet. Mujhe tumhari madad chahiye,” they had just finished their dinner and were preparing to go to sleep.

“Kaisi madad?”

“Geet. Un baaton ko yaad karna tumhare liye aasaan nahin hoga lekin Dev ko sazaa dilwane ke liye hamein saboot jugadne zaroori hain.”

“Maan. Aapne to sach much ise sirf apni ladai bana liya hai. Aap aise kyon kah rahe hain ki aapko meri madad chahiye? Ye mera kaam hai Maan. Aur jab tak aap mere saath hain, mujhe kissi cheez se koi taqleef nahin ho sakti.”

Maan smiled. He asked her some questions and encouraged her to give him as much information as she could recollect about Dev’s presence in Hoshiyarpur.

“Geet jis agent ne mujhe tumhari zameen bechi thi, usne Dev aur Nayantara ko pahchaan liya hai. To Nayantara bhi uske saath thi?”

“Haan. Usne khud ko Dev ki Bhabhi bataya tha. Do aur log the. Kamya aur…”

“Pammi?” Maan asked in surprise.

“Aap jaante hain unhein?”

“Pammi Dev ki Ma hai.”

“Dev ki Ma hai matlab, aap…”

“Geet. Dev aur Kamya mere sautele bhai-bahan hain. Maine kabhi unhein khud se alag nahin samjha. Lekin zahir si baat hai unhein sahi insaan bhi nahin bana paya. Mujhe vishwaas nahin hota ki Pammi bhi…”

That was a new information for Geet. Many questions came to her mind, but she decided to not pursue them then. Making sure that Maan does not feel guilty for any of Dev’s deed was more important, “Maan, please. Aap apne aap ko zimmedaar nahin thahraiye. Woh log bachche nahin hain ki apna bhala-bura nahin samajh sakte. Koi kissi ki ungli kahan tak pakad sakta hai.”

“Theek kah rahi ho Geet. Kamya chhoti hai aur usse mujhe koi ummeed bhi nahin hai. Lekin Pammi… Khair achchha hi hai. Hamein unki bhi madad milegi,” Maan also came out of those disturbing thoughts and started focussing on the matter at hand.

“Par woh apne bete ke khilaaf kyon jaayengi?”

“Woh tum mujh par chhod do Geet. Tum ye batao ki Manali jaane se pahle mujhe tumhare kamre mein ek kagaz ka tukda mila tha jis par ek Canada ka phone number likha tha. Woh tumhare paas pahle se tha na?”

Geet got nervous. She had lied then and was scared about how Maan would react to her lying, “Woh… Maan… I am sorry…”

“Geet. Woh number Dev ka tha. Aur tum pareshaan kyon ho rahi ho?”

“I am sorry Maan. Maine aapse jhooth bola tha…”

“Kyonki tum apne ateet ko chhod kar aage nikalna chahti thi, right Geet?”

Geet nodded and then said, “Mujhe dar tha ki aap us insaan ko dhoondhna aur usse badla lena apna maksad na bana lein. Main nahin chahti thi ki mere ateet ka saya aap par, ya hamare rishte par pade. Lekin mujhe kya pata tha… Please mujhe maaf kar dijiye. Mujhe jhooth nahin bolna chahiye tha.”

“Bas Geet. Main tumhein doshi kahan maan raha hoon jo tum mujhse maafi maangti ja rahi ho. Tumne apni jagah bilkul sahi socha tha Geet. Sach maano, mujhe tumse koi shikayat nahin hai.”

Geet smiled and leaned on to him.

“Geet mujhe ye batao ki tumhein woh number mila kahan se tha? Usne khud to nahin diya hoga.”

“Us guesthouse se jahan woh log ruke the.”

Maan made a mental note to contact the guest house. They could help prove Dev’s presence in Hoshiyarpur in that period.

“Aur jab se woh log aaye the, tab se ek-ek baat detail mein yaad karo Geet aur batao mujhe.”

The lawyer had wanted to do this himself, but Maan wasn’t sure he would be sensitive enough in his questioning. Geet’s well-being was paramount to Maan and he did not want anything done that could stress her. So, he has had a long conversation with the lawyer and had decided to get the information from Geet himself. Once Geet had recounted every incident, he expected it to be easier for her to go through the rest of the legal process.

Geet started telling him about the entire episode. What was reassuring for Maan was that she was talking as if she was telling a story. She did not seem affected by it any longer; nor did she show any signs of emotional breakdown. He realized that she was a strong girl and he needn’t be as protective of her as he was. But somewhere concern for her well-being had become a  basic instinct for him, which he could not have rid himself of.

Maan was shocked when Geet told him about the date and time when her fake wedding to Dev had taken place and the temple where it happened. She noticed his expressions and asked, “Kya hua Maan?”

“Main us waqt wahin tha Geet.”

“Kya?”

“Main mandir ke bahar khada tha. Mujhe pandit se milna tha. Par andar ek shaadi ho rahi thi, woh usmein busy the.”

Geet looked at him surprised. In what twisted ways was the fate binding them even then, when she was dreaming of her future with a deceptor?

Maan was suddenly overwhelmed with guilt, “Kash maine us waqt use dekha hota Geet. Kash main mandir ke andar chala gaya hota.”

“Please Maan. Aap aise har baat par khud ko dosh denge to kaise chalega? Aap mujhse kahte rahte hain na ki main pareshaan na houn. Aur aap khud?”

“Sorry Geet.”

“Pata hai Maan. Mujhe lagta hai ki meri zindagi mein woh dukh ke din isliye aaye the kyonki Babaji meri pareeksha lena chahte the. Isse pahle ki woh aapko mere jeevan mein bhej kar use khushiyon se bhar dete, woh ye dekhna chahte the ki main un khushiyon ke layak hoon bhi ki nahin.”

She always knew how to look at the brighter side of things. Maan smiled and they continued with the exercise.

When Geet mentioned the lodge she had stayed in with Dev on her way to Delhi, both of them remembered their meeting that night and fell silent. As they recalled the harsh words they had told the other person, they both felt very bad.

“I am sorry,” both of them said togehter. After a moment of surprise, they broke into a laughter and suddenly all the complications were gone.

After they were finished going through all the incidents and noting down as many possible potential witnesses and proofs as possible, Maan told Geet, “Geet. Main ji-jaan laga doonga is case ke liye. Tumhare gunahgaar ko uski sazaa zaroor milegi. Lekin Geet, chahe main kitni bhi koshish kyon na kar loon, tumhein kuchh cheezon ka saamna khud hi karna hoga. Court cases stressful hote hain, lawyers ulte-seedhe sawaal poochhenge. Tum ye sab bardasht kar sakogi na Geet. Kahin aisa na ho ki isse tumhari aur hamare bachche ki sehat par koi bura asar pade.”

Geet noticed the use of word “hamare” and felt extremely happy and proud.

To reply to his question, she said, “Apni sherni par bharosa rakhiye Maan. Main aapke bachche ko kuchh nahin hone doongi.”

Maan smiled, “Phir apne bachche se mera bhi ek waada hai ki uske Mummy-Papa use duniya ki saari khushiyan denge aur use har kaale saaye se door rakhenge. Ye case uske is duniya mein aane se pahle khatam ho jayega aur gunahgaar ko sazaa bhi mil jayegi. Hamare bachche ke oopar iska koi asar nahin padne doonga main.”

Geet was too overwhelmed to say anything. Her eyes grew moist and she leaned on to him for a hug.

To be continued

Past Resurfaces (Part 5)

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The wedding was a simple affair in the Gurudwara with only some office staff attending it. Pinki and Adi were, of course, the happiest amongst those present and had actively helped in wedding arrangements. They had also arranged a small reception in the evening at one of the best hotels in the city. The real surprise came to Maan when Adi asked him to come with him for something important. He gave him the keys to one of the rooms in the hotel.

“Ye kya hai Adi?” Maan asked in his usual stern manner.

“Woh.. Sir.. He he he… Sir aapke liye suite booked hai hotel mein aaj ke liye.” Adi stuttered.

“Kya? Lekin maine to…”

“Sir. Ye staff ki taraf se gift hai, Sir.”

“Oh!” It touched Maan, although he did not explicitly show it, “Lekin iski zaroorat nahin hai Adi.” Maan turned back hoping to consult with Geet, but she wasn’t there.

“Woh… ladkiyan Geet ko andar le ja chuki hain Sir. Please Sir. Sab logon ne bahut pyaar se ye arrange kiya hai. Aap mana mat kijiyega.”

Maan gave a rare smile to Adi and walked towards the room.

Geet was standing near the bed and then decided that she should sit on it, while waiting for Maan to come. But as she started to move away, the heavy zari work of her lehanga was caught in the curtains decorating the bed. When she tried to disentangle it with her hands, her hand jewelry (haath-phool) also got stuck in her lehanga and curtains, leaving her stuck and perplexed. Just then Maan entered the room and saw her struggling with the curtains. A smile formed on his lips. There couldn’t have been a more suitable beginning of his married life with Geet. His forever goofy Mishti was again struggling with something, which though trivial, will require him to come to her help. He enjoyed watching her struggle for a few second before he moved forward to help her.

Geet was so lost in her struggle that she hadn’t noticed Maan coming in. She was startled when he came to her, held her hands to stop her from trying further, bent down and freed her hands and lehanga from the curtain.

He stood up and looked at her with just a hint of smile on his lips and love and desire oozing out of his eyes.

Geet, on the other hand, was extremely embarrassed. This was not how she was to meet him on their first night. She should have been waiting for him on the bed, legs folded, hands around her knees. At least that was how it happened in the movies.

Maan noticed her embarrassment, but he assumed it was her nervousness.

“Dar lag raha hai Geet?” He asked her softly.

He was not completely wrong either. She, indeed, was nervous. She knew how passionate and possessive a lover Maan was. She wondered that if he let himself go, whether she will be able to survive his demands.

She nodded in reply.

“Lekin aaj iska mujh par koi asar nahin padne waala hai Geet. To apni saari himmat jama kar lo,” Maan traced her forehead with his index finger as he said this. Geet closed her eyes and took a deep breath to steady herself.

“Aao mere saath,” he put his arms around her shoulders and led her towards the dressing table. He made her sit on the stool in front of the mirror and stood behind her. They looked at themselves in the mirror for a few seconds. Then Geet noticed the intense look in his eyes and started looking down. Maan caressed her head and took the dupatta off her head. Geet closed her eyes to let his touch sink in. But Maan wasn’t going to allow her the relief.

“Aankhein kholo Geet. Aur dekho us aaine mein woh jo main har pal dekhta hoon. Aur samajhne ki koshish karo ki main kitna tadapta raha hoon itne dinon tak.”

It was an order! No compromises would be accepted. She opened her eyes and looked at the mirror.

Maan took off her Maang-teeka and kept it on the dressing table.

“Aaj tumhari maang bhar ke maine tumhein hamesha ke liye apna bana liya hai Geet. Aur ab se tum jab bhi mujhe tadpaogi, us tadap ko shaant bhi tumhein hi karna padega.”

Then he bent down and took off the ear-ring from her right ear. He nuzzled his nose on her bare earlobes and said, “Lekin aaj ki raat to lambi hone waali hai Geet. Kyonki aaj to tumhein meri itne dinon ki tadap shaant karni hai. Samajh rahi ho na tum?”

Geet took a deep breath and her eyes closed again. Maan noticed it quickly, “Maine tumhein aankhein band karne ki izaazat nahin di hai.”

Geet opened her eyes quickly, looking guilty like a child who had made a mistake despite repeated warnings.

Maan was thoroughly enjoying teasing her.

He moved to the other side to take off her other ear-ring. This time, after taking off the ring, he went ahead and bit her ear-lobe slightly. This made Geet gasp and she called out his name, “Maan!”

Maan stopped and looked at her, “Bas yahi ek shabd tumhein aaj ki raat bolne ki izaazat hai Geet. Sirf apna naam sunna chahta hoon main tumhari zubaan se. Iske alaawa hamare beech aaj lafzon ki bhi jagah nahin rahegi.”

Geet’s heart was beating at a furious rate. She remembered not to close her eyes, but she could not look straight either. She started looking down. Maan noticed this, but decided to let go.

He dug her hands her dupatta to reach her nape and unhooked her necklace. Then he brought his hands in the front and took off her necklace. Her hair were tied in a jooda and hence after the necklace was off, her neck was bare and accessible.

He made her stand up and tilt her neck to one side. He planted a kiss on her neck. The effect he was having on her was evident on Geet’s face. She looked helpless and completely at his mercy. He could have chained her up for life then, and she would not have resisted. Her own desires and vulnerability were evident in her body language and nothing escaped Maan’s notice.

Suddenly Geet shifted her feet a bit and her payal made a noise. Maan looked down at her feet and then shot her a glance that was almost angry at the interference.

“Bahut shor karti hain ye payal Geet. Lekin aaj main inhein bhi khud ko pareshaan nahin karne doonga,” saying this he kneeled on one of his knees, lifted her lahanga a bit and took off the payal. He used this opportunity to massage her ankles, relaxing and arousing her at the same time. He repeated the exercise with her other foot as well. He carelessly threw the discarded payal on the dressing table with rest of her jewelry.

Before undressing her further, Maan quickly opened the buttons of his sherwani and took off the kurta. It left his upper body bare except for the taveez. Geet looked at him and despite her best efforts she could not hide how incredibly attracted she felt towards him. Maan liked what he saw on Geet’s face. He was getting what he wanted. He did not say anything to her though. He wanted to drive her to the edge and make her as needy as he was, so that they could enjoy their union together.

He slipped one of his hands under her blouse on her shoulder to take off the pin that was holding her dupatta. Geet was not expecting his touch and almost stumbled as he did that. He had to support her before taking off the pin. Before doing the same on her other shoulder, he made her sit on the stool once again. With this he completely took off her dupatta and she felt extremely exposed with her low-cut blouse and exposed belly. Once the dupatta was off, Maan noticed her bangles and haath-phool. He took off the haath-phools first from both her hands and then turned his attention to her bangles. He was taking extreme care is taking off the bangles, still the last one broke and also hurt Geet a little. A small drop of blood came out of her hands. Maan panicked and immdiately started sucking the blood away to stop the flow. He did not realize that the injury was not causing much pain to Geet, but his sucking her wound was arousing her like crazy. He noticed all this only when she took his name once again, quite breathlessly, “Maan!”

He looked up at her and realizing what had happened, smiled a bit. Taking a cue from the effect, he started licking and sucking her fingers one by one. Geet’s other hand moved to his hair and she started digging into them and caressing them roughly. Maan left her fingers then, cupped her face and suddenly drew her into a long kiss on lips. When he broke the kiss she was panting and was breathless. She could not control herself any longer. She got up and hugged him tight taking his name once again, “Maan!” Maan happily reciprocated her hug.

When they broke the hug, he was not left with any more patience. He was sure he had achieved what he wanted to. He picked her up in his arms, took her to the bed and settled her on it. Then he himself climbed the bed and lied beside her, completely trapping her by putting his long hands and legs on top of her.

He loosened her hair out of the jooda and said, “Geet. Lagta hai abhi tak to tumhein bahut mazaa aaya hai. Tumhari himmat ke test ka level thoda badhana padega.”

Saying this he moved to be on top of her, kissed and nibbled at her entire body senselessly, practically ripped apart their clothes and devoured her to his heart’s content.

To be continued

Past Resurfaces (Part 4)

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Maan couldn’t have allowed that to happen. So, he changed his decision immediately, “Nahin Dadi Ma. Aap kahin nahin jaayengi. Main hi chala jaata hoon.”

“Maan…”

But Maan did not stop to hear Dadi Ma’s pleas.

“Nakul!”

“Ji Chhote Sahab.”

“Outhouse mein ground floor par ek bed lagwao aur mera saara samaan wahan pahuncha do.”

“Ground floor par? Office mein?”

“Haan. Ek baar mein baat samajh nahin aati?”

“Sir? Ye sab kya ho raha hai?” Geet looked at Maan’s stuff lying around in suitcases in the office and then noticed the bed.

“Agar tumhari izaazat ho to main yahan rahne waala hoon?”

“Kya? Aise office ke is hall mein?”

“Haan! Achchha hai na mujhe kaam karne ke liye bhi kahin jaana nahin padega.”

“Dadi Ma naraaz hain?” Geet came to the point.

“Geet,” Maan came to her and held her hands, “Sab theek ho jayega. Mujh par bharosa rakho Geet. Please.”

There was no point in making things difficult for him. So, she did not press the point further. But she could not see him living in the hall like this.

“Maan. Aap yahan nahin rahenge.”

“Tumhein problem hai Geet?” Maan was hurt, but he did not show it.

“Haan. Apna samaan kamre mein bhijwaiye. Aise is hall mein nahin rahenge aap. Ye aapka ghar hai.”

“Lekin Geet…”

“Main yahan so jaungi.”

“Nahin Geet. Ye nahin ho sakta. Main yahan theek hoon.”

“Aap meri baat maanenge ya main khud utha kar le jaun.”

“Nahin, nahin Geet…” she knew how to have her way with him.

“Main sofe par so jaungi…” Geet told him once his stuff was settled in the room.

“Bilkul nahin. Maine tumhari baat maan li. Yahan aa gaya. Ab tum meri baat maanogi. Tumhein achchhi neend aana bahut zaroori hai. Tum bed par soogi aur main sofe par.”

“Lekin main sofe par aa jaungi, aapke liye ye poora nahin padega…”

“Chup. Bilkul chup Geet,” he silenced her in his signature style by putting his hands on her lips.

“Nayantara. Ye Geet ne to sach much Bro par jadu kar diya hai. Aakhir aisa kya hai usmein ki Bro aankhein band kar ke us par vishwaas kar baithe hain. Koi bhi saboot to hai nahin uske paas hamare khilaaf. Warna woh Dadi Ma ko zaroor batati.”

“Kya hai uske andar, ye baat to aapko pata honi chahiye Dev,” Nayantara replied bitterly.

“Nayantara – abhi hamare saamne zyada badi problem hai.”

“Use aap hamesha ki tarah hamare oopar hi chhod dijiye. Aapka to kaam hai gadbad karna aur hamara kaam hai usse hamein nikaalna. Chahe woh jua khelna ho ya apni biwi ko dhokha de kar kissi ke saath sona.”

Dev was pissed off, but he could not say anything.

Nayantara continued, “Hamein bas Dadi Ma ko apne kabze mein kar ke rakhna hai. Jab tak woh hamare saath hain, Maan Veerji hamara kuchh nahin bigaad payenge.”

What they did not know was that Maan had been more involved in Geet’s life than they had imagined.

Maan remembered Geet’s land that was sold to him by the agent. That is where the clues were to be found. He called up Munshi Ji, “Munshi Ji. Aapke paas Dev ki koi photograph hai?”

“Ji. Unki shaadi ki ek photo shayad haveli mein padi hui hai. Par kyon?”

“Woh photo le ja kar aap agent ko dikhaiye jisne hamein Handa parivaar ki zameen bechi thi aur usse poochhiye ki woh use pahchaanta hai kya?”

“Ji?” Munshi Ji was taken aback.

“Jo maine kaha hai woh kijiye. Aur haan! Is baare mein aap Dadi Ma, Dev ya kissi aur se koi baat nahin karenge.”

“Ji Chhote Sahab.”

It was past midnight. Geet had fallen asleep. But Maan was unable to sleep. Multiple things were clouding his mind. Concern for Geet. Worry for Dadi Ma. Office affairs and then bringing Dev’s truth out. He fidgeted on the sofa, and finally unable to fall asleep got up. He walked around the room and his eyes fell on Geet’s face. How innocent and beautiful she looked even while sleeping. He remembered the first day he had found her in the outhouse. In his bed. He had thought it was his dream. And she did indeed look like a dream. So, serene, so beautiful.

And it made his life difficult. “Itna khoobsoorat to khwaab bhi nahin hota Geet. Aur tum mere saamne hakeekat ban kar aayi ho. Kaise khud ko tumse door rakhoon. Bahut mushkil hai Geet.”

He sat down beside her on the bed and caressed her forehead and hair. Geet woke up, but she recognized his touch even in her sleep. She wasn’t scared.

“Maan?” She sat up as she said.

“Woh… Geet. Sorry. Tumhari neend khul gayi. Main jaata hoon. Tum so jao aaraam se…” Maan was embarrassed.

But Geet held his hand and did not let him go, “Neend nahin aa rahi?”

Maan looked at her and forgot his embarrassment. He came closer, kissed her forehead and hugged her. Geet also responded by hugging him back. But as soon as he hugged her, his desires took over his mind. He caressed her hair and back roughly. Geet did not resist, but Maan himself came out of his trance and withdrew.

He held her hands and said, “Tumse door nahin raha jaata ab mujhse Geet. Main tumhein hamesha ke liye apna banana chahta hoon. Sabki nazaron se door le jaana chahta hoon, sirf apne liye. Mujhse shaadi karogi Geet?”

Geet looked at him surprised. Tears and happiness – both appeared in her eyes, “Lekin aisa kaise ho sakta hai? Dadi Ma…”

“Dadi Ma ko sachchai ek din zaroor pata chalegi Geet. Yakeen maano. Aur us din hamein unka aashirwaad bhi mil jayega. Lekin Geet. Jab tum mere paas hoti ho to mujhe tumhein chhoone ka man karta hai. Tumhein baahon mein lene ka man karta hai. Aur khud ko rokna mere liye bahut mushkil hota hai Geet. Main ab tumse door nahin rah sakta.”

Geet had to tell him something, but she was feeling too shy. She struggled for the right words for a while before speaking, “Mujhe… aap par… bharosa karne ke liye… shaadi ki mohar ki zaroorat nahin hai… Maine khud ko… aapko saump diya hai…”

Maan looked adoringly at her, overwhelmed with her trust and love. Her eyes were downcast. He lifted her chin and made her look into his eyes,  “Mujhe pata hai Geet ki tum mujh par aankhein band kar ke bharosa karti ho. Aur yakeen maano, mujhe ye bahut achchha lagta hai. Ki zindagi mein itne dhokhe khane ke baad bhi tum mujh par itna bharosa karti ho. Aur isliye Geet, main tumhare bharose ka imtihaan nahin lena chahta. Main tumhein apni dulhan bana kar haq se apne saath laana chahta hoon Geet. Bolo Geet, mujhe ye haq dogi? Mujhse shaadi karogi?”

What could she say? She just nodded. Her eyes were filled with tears of happiness. Her lips were trembling and nothing came out of them. Maan hugged her once again and she was happy to lose herself in his arms. Maan had not been so much at peace in a long time now.

“Geet! Main jaanta hoon ki hamari shaadi thode ajeeb circumstances mein ho rahi hai. Lekin Geet. Maine chahta hoon ki tumhara har sapna poora hai. Tum mujhe batao Geet ki tum shaadi mein kya chahti ho. Main waada karta hoon ki woh sab kuchh hoga hamari shaadi mein.”

“Mujhe Babaji ke aashirwaad ke alawa kuchh nahin chahiye.”

“Geet. Tum…”

“Main sach kah rahi hoon. Mujhe koi tadak bhadak, koi naach-gaana, koi dikhawe ki rasmein nahin chahiye. In sabse shaadi nahin hoti na, rishte bhi nahin nibhte hain. Rishte to pyaar se bante hain, pyaar se hi nibhte hain. Babaji ne mujhe woh de diya hai. Mujhe aur kuchh nahin chahiye.”

Maan smiled and caressed her cheek, “Theek hai Geet. Aisa hi sahi.”

Pinki and some parlour staff were helping Geet get ready when Maan walked in. The girls left the room taking the cue, leaving behind an embarrassed and shy Geet to Maan.

“Sir, aap abhi yahan kyon aaye hain?”

“Kyon? Mere aane par koi pabandi hai?”

“Bilkul hai! Abhi hamari shaadi nahin hui hai.”

Maan put a packet he had brought on the bed and pulled her close to him.

“Kuchh hi ghanton ki to baat hai na Geet. Phir to koi pabandi nahin hogi? To abhi kyon…” he was approaching her lips for a kiss.

“Maan!” Geet got genuinely nervous and called his name without ‘Sir’ for the first time since she had joined Khurana Constructions.

Maan stopped in his track and smiled naughtily, “Maan?”

Geet felt even more shy and started looking down. Maan lifted her chin and made her look into his eyes.

“Bahut achchha lagta hai tumhari zubaan se mera naam Geet. Abhi main isse hi kaam chala loonga. Lekin agar dubara tumne mujhe ‘Sir’ bulaya to yaad rakhna ki main tumhara dusht danav boss ban jaunga. Samjhi tum?”

Geet nodded and blushed.

Maan started taking off her ear-ring startling her, “Ye aap kya kar rahe hain Sir? Mera matlab hai Maan.”

“Geet. Aaj ke din tumhein hamare khaandaani gahne pahanne chahiye the. Woh tumhara haq hai. Main tumhein aaj woh nahin de sakta. Aaj jo main apne pyaar ke gahne laaya hoon, unse hi kaam chala lo. Lekin main waada karta hoon Geet ki jo tumhara haq hai woh tumhein zaroor milega.”

Geet knew that the issue was not the jewelry. He was promising her Dadi Ma’s acceptance through it, which was important to both of them. And she trusted him. She just blinked and nodded to convey her support to him. Maan changed the jewelry she was wearing with the ones he had brought.

Once he was done, he took a few steps back from her and stared at her admiringly for few seconds. Geet became conscious, “Main kaisi lag rahi hoon?”

Maan came forward and kissed on her forehead, “Bilkul meri dulhan jaisi.” He left the room saying, “Jaldi aana Geet. Main besabri se tumhara intezaar kar raha hoon.”

To be continued