The Rebel Princess (Part 6)

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Chandrika paced inside her tent. She had driven all her companions crazy that day with her mood swings and tempers. They were standing huddled at a distance, fearful of what the next outburst would bring. She knew that at least five messengers had come from the battle field to the camp. Every time they came she had sent a messenger to get some news of Bhumimitra. Every time her messenger had come back without any concrete information. “Maharaj was fine” could have meant that he was actually fine. But it could as easily have been a standard message to avoid any panic If there was indeed something wrong. All the other news of how bloody the fight was that day was reaching her unfiltered. Just no news of the one person she was interested in.

Tired of pacing, she slumped into an armchair.

Bhumimitra barged in unannounced. Chandrika jumped out of the chair she had occupied barely a moment ago and it took all her grooming in gracefulness to not scream out loud. But her restraint slipped again, and she ran towards him.

“Maharaj!” she exclaimed, panting, and stopped short of running into him. “You are injured?” she looked at the bandage on his left upper-arm. His chest and forearms also showed signs of minor injuries on which a healing paste had been applied. Overall though, she slowly realized, he was indeed fine and no great harm had come to him.

“You were worried about me?” his eyes threatened to penetrate her very soul.

She gulped and didn’t reply.

“You sent for me five times, I am told. Why?” he pressed on.

“The news from the frontier was terrifying. I am under your protection right now, Maharaj,” she found her voice and an excuse of a reply too, “You are my lord today. And I have been taught to be loyal to my–”

“A lesson you don’t care a whit about,” he interrupted and stepped closer to her. She stood glued to her place, “You didn’t flinch when your father was deposed. Your most legitimate lord who deserved your loyalty the most. In fact, you deposed him. No. You don’t feel loyalty for your lord, Chandrika. Love, however,” he reached out and cupped her face, “Is a different beast. And it attacks a republican heart as easily as it does a monarch’s.” He pressed his lips on hers, she did not stop him, and her companions quietly left the room.

He woke up with a feeling of well-being that he hadn’t felt in years. Not since taking over the reign of his kingdom. It was ridiculous to feel this relaxed in a war camp at the frontier. He recalled the night of frantic, followed by languorous, love-making with his republican princess and his lips stretched into a grin. Some food had been brought to them. But he hardly remembered eating anything. He had also sent a message to his men that the war council meeting will be held before sunrise. So, they all should go to bed early and be ready to be woken up earlier than usual. Perhaps it was time to send them the summons. But before that– His hands stretched and sought her out on the other side of the bed. But her side was empty.

He sat up immediately, his hands on the dagger that he had remembered to sleep with even after indulging in blinding passion through the evening. Where was he? Had he only dreamed of the passionate encounter? It was still dark and the only light was coming from an almost dying earthen lamp in the far corner of the tent. It was not his tent. He was definitely inside hers. He looked around hurriedly and soon made out a shape lying on the armchair from which last evening he had seen the same shape jumping out on his unannounced arrival. He threw off the bedcover and rushed there. “Chandrika!” he held her head and turned it so that he could look at her, “What’s wrong?” Even in the dim light he could see that she was sweating and was breathing with difficulty. “God, what’s going on? Did I hurt you? I will call the Rajvaidya–”

“It’s too late, Maharaj,” she spoke with a lot of effort, “And it is by design. I must die.”

“No. You must not. Why must you die? Stay with me,” he held her hands and shouted out to his attendants.

“Maharaj!” Two of them came running in.

“Call the Rajvaidya immediately. Princess Chandrika is unwell. She must be attended to right away.”

“Yes, Maharaj,” they ran out.

“I wish you wouldn’t trouble Rajvaidya at this hour. He can’t do anything. Let me say this while I still can. You are a brave and just man. If monarchy could ensure that all rulers were like you, it needn’t have been challenged. If republics could create rulers like you, they would become successful. So, I’m not ashamed to have loved you. Still, I die a republican, Maharaj. I never gave up on my principles. But for a woman– oh, I can’t say it all. I don’t have much time left. There is a letter for you. I have made a small request and having known you as well as I do now, I am sure that you will honor my request. I die a republican. And I die loving you. I am happy about both. I die happy. Please forgive me that one night was all I had to give to you.”

“Stay with me, Princess — Devi Chandrika. Rajvaidya will be here any minute. Chandrika. What have you done to yourself, my love? Did you swallow a poison? You must know the antidote to it. Please tell me what it is–”

“May you have a long and happy life, Maharaj.”

The monumental, unbridgeable difference between life and death is just of a moment, Bhumimitra realized. He had seen numerous deaths in the battlefield. He had also been present through the deaths of his parents and many other family members. But it was the first time he had really known it. He would never forget the exact moment, when her hands in his clutches turned lifeless. They were weak even while alive. But the coldness of death was distinct!

He settled her as gracefully as he could manage on the chair. Then picked up the letter she had pointed towards.

She had addressed him as just “Priya” – beloved – in her letter. No salutation, no greetings for Maharaj. Just “Priya”. The first paragraph repeated what she had already told him. But the second tore his heart apart.

“If my love and my principles were not a conflict for me, why must I die, you may be asking yourself. It is because I am a woman. Nobody will question your support of monarchy because of your passion for me. But as a woman, if I surrender my love to you, it will be assumed that I have surrendered my cause to you as well. It is a sad state of affairs. But that’s how the world is. And I won’t be able to live on love if I am seen as betraying my cause. So, I must go, my beloved. And I go in the belief that the man I loved is a man of principles. He may win his cause, but he will do so fair and square. He will win it in a war or in a debate. He will not employ the underhand trick of discrediting me and through that my cause. So, I go trusting that since I am asking you for it, you will ensure that the world will not come to know of this brief, but precious relationship we had. That I will not become a discredit to my cause at your hands. I go, my beloved, in the hope that in the next birth we meet under less adversarial circumstances.”

“Maharaj!” Bhumimitra hardly had had the time to mop over the letter when another attendant barged in.

“Rajvaidya!” he stood up, glad that the dimly lit room would hide the moistness in his eyes.

“No Maharaj! A messenger from Chandranagar.”

“He wants an audience now?”

“Yes, Maharaj. It is urgent, he says.”

Bhumimitra threw a distressed glance at Chandrika’s cold form lying on the chair, then stepped out. “I will speak to him in the waiting room.”

Raigarh State Archives for the day read:

“Hours before sunrise, a messenger from Chandranagar brought the news of a conspiracy against King Chandravarna. The culprits were not the republicans, but the rival royal faction led by the King’s nephew. They had imprisoned the King. The news of her father’s misfortune shocked Princess Chandrika. Even if her political inclinations were republican she had always been devoted to her father. Without her devotion, during the brief republican rule in Chandranagar, her father’s life would not have been spared. That he should now be threatened by his own brethren distressed her so much that she fell fatally ill and breathed her last an hour later.

This news also warranted Maharaj Bhumimitra’s speedy return from the frontier. The war council decided to go an all-out offensive like that of the previous day. At the end of that day’s fighting, the enemies were pushed deep into their territory. Leaving a small force to guard the border, Maharaj decided to head back with the remaining army.

It was also decided to open negotiations with the republicans in Chandranagar to support their rule in return for the safe extraction of King Chandravarna and their promise to limit their sphere of influence exactly to the currently accepted boundaries of the kingdom of Chandranagar.”

– The End –

The Rebel Princess (Part 5)

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With the assurance that her intelligence had not been ignored, Chandrika calmed down. She even felt ashamed of some of her childish antics from earlier. Now that she was no longer angry at being dismissed by Bhumimitra, nor worried sick about the disaster ignoring the intelligence could have brought on her country and its people, she was perfectly capable of understanding why he did what he did. King Bhumimitra was in a tricky situation with her. She was, after all, a prisoner. Imprisoned for treason, nothing less. Openly siding with her against his own men would not send out the right message. But at the same time, he hadn’t let that compromise the security of her country. He had taken the best possible decision under the circumstances. He was a wise ruler, and brave, just what she had always heard about him!

She came out of her reverie when he was announced. After the exchange of greetings, he informed her that her intelligence was right.

“Reconnaissance team confirms it,” he concluded.

“And the enemy doesn’t realize that you know now?”

“I do have some trained people in the army, Devi Chandrika. So does your father. Of course, the enemy doesn’t realize that we know.”

“I didn’t mean that–” she started explaining hastily, then noticed his smirk and realized that he was joking. She also smiled then and invited him to sit down, not expecting him to take up the offer. He must have a lot to plan for now. But, to her surprise, he sat down.

“We have to change the plans now. We will have to engage on both fronts simultaneously,” he said as he sat down, “But I think we have enough men to do that.”

“I really appreciate it, Maharaj, that you didn’t ignore the information I gave you. Nobody could have blamed you for ignoring.”

“Being a ruler is not just about being a royal and nursing a huge ego, Devi Chandrika.”

She nodded, “You also have to be a strategist and a warrior. Which you are. I am not hesitant or ashamed to admit that you have all those qualities.”

“I learned it from my father. It’s in the blood and in heredity. Any upstart merchant propped up by crowd is not fit to rule.”

“Every first-born son of a great ruler has not been proven fit to rule.”

“Then he is defeated in war by one who is fit to rule.”

“Why must we always be subjected to violence to find a fit ruler?”

“Nothing else works. History proves it.”

“Not true. Look at the tribals living all around us. They don’t have a monarch. They elect their leaders.”

He laughed derisively, “Do you want us to be like the tribals? At the mercy of the jungle and the vagaries of nature? Is that what your plans for your Republic were? Will you be happy living like them?”

“Happy? Are you happy, Maharaj?”

“Happier than I would be as a tribal in a jungle.”

She looked at him for a long moment and then just shrugged, apparently unwilling to argue.

“It looks like,” he said after a pause, “That you have something to say there, but you don’t want to. Right now, I will not insist because I must get going. There is a war to prepare for. But I will say this before I leave. I am also not hesitant or ashamed to admit that you are a brilliant woman. Beautiful and graceful, but more importantly intelligent. I can’t fathom how you fell for that charlatan philosopher preaching republicanism.”

She looked at him defiantly, a defiance which reflected in her words, although her tone was polite, “If the great philosopher himself couldn’t convince you, Maharaj, I stand no chance.”

He shook his head and got up to leave. At the exit of the tent he turned back and asked, “If I pay you a visit in the evening, will it be a bother?”

“Not at all, Maharaj. It is always an honor.”

“I would like to hear you sing,” he said and left without waiting for her response.

“You never wore black again,” he said abruptly, after the song was over.

She looked surprised, “You do know what black meant, don’t you?”

He nodded.

“I have no intention of troubling you here, Maharaj. You are fighting to protect my country. And I will never come in the way of that.”

“And afterwards?”

“I don’t know.”

He sighed and got up, “Please eat and rest well. We have a long and hard march tomorrow. By the end of the day tomorrow we will be at the frontier. From the day after, it’s only the war.”

“And the North East?”

“Minister Sindhupati will lead the efforts there.”

She nodded and bowed her head to him in parting greeting.

For next one week, it was on the North Eastern frontier that the war turned bloody. On the Eastern frontier which was being led by Bhumimitra, the two armies seemed to be playing hide and seek with each other. Bhumimitra turned up at her tent every evening without fail. Often, he requested her to sing and she obliged.

They discovered their mutual love for chess and started playing that in the evenings. He told her about the happenings of the day. Most of the time she listened silently. Once in a while she asked for clarifications. It was rare, but she also offered her opinion sometimes. But the few times that she spoke were enough to convey to Bhumimitra that she was really absorbing everything he was telling her, and not pretending to listen just for the sake of politeness.

“Did you know,” he spoke suddenly one evening as they were bent over a game of chess, “That your father had proposed our betrothal.”

“Really?” she cleverly kept her eyes glued to the chess board in front of them. So, he couldn’t read her expressions, “Our intelligence indeed utterly failed when it came to you.”

“It could still happen, you know.”

She froze for a moment, then slowly raised her eyes to him.

“It can’t happen, Maharaj. I am a republican traitor.”

“Leave this madness behind. You would make a great queen. You care for people. You understand politics. And war. You are wasting your potential.”

“Once you have seen something, Maharaj, you can’t un-see it. I cannot make you see it, but I have seen the falsehood of our way of life. I can’t pretend that the false is true. I will never be a true princess again, nor a queen, even if I decided to go back to end this ignominy of being a prisoner. So, I would rather suffer as a true republican.”

“Do you not desire happiness?”

“Happiness?” she smiled, “Maharaj, you think you are happier than a tribal. Why? Because you have more things? More comforts?”

“Definitely. The fruits of our civilization.”

“Your favorite charger, Maharaj, the horse you ride all the time. And also, the mare from your stable that you have generously left at my disposal, they are from a recently developed breed in the Arab country, right?”

“Yes.”

“If you were to lose them and not be able to acquire another of this breed, will you be unhappy?”

“I will, indeed, be very unhappy.”

“Nobody in either of our countries had even heard of this breed five years ago, right?”

“You are right.”

“Were you unhappy without a horse of this breed five years ago?”

“Of course, not. I didn’t even know–”

“The absence of what we haven’t known we could possess doesn’t make us unhappy, Maharaj. Acquisition of what we do know about makes us happy. The fewer things you have known, the easier it is to be happy. It isn’t far-fetched that the tribals who live deep in the jungles, never getting exposed to our civilization, are a happier lot. Because the jungle provides them plenty of everything they know they can have. Those in contact with our villages and cities are very unhappy though. They have seen things that they could possess, but don’t have the means to acquire those.”

He looked at her for a long time, his gaze so intent that she couldn’t meet his eyes and soon looked away.

At last he said, “Well then. Becoming a tribal is not possible for me. And now I know what I could have. So, I will be unhappy until I have it. Tomorrow is our big push, Chandrika. I don’t fight recklessly, but there is always a chance that I don’t come back alive. However, if I do, then I will marry you. I don’t know how it will happen, but it will.”

Her voice trembled as she said, “You can’t force me, Maharaj.”

“Oh, I can. But I won’t. I will wait until you own up that you are as much in love with me as I am with you. That even amidst the pressure of war and the ridiculousness of your situation as a traitor, you look forward to these evenings as much as I do. And then, I will marry you.”

“That’s not going to happen.”

“We will see.”

To be continued

The Rebel Princess (Part 4)

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When they stopped around midday, Chandrika assumed that it was for lunch. She spotted a pond at some distance from her chariot and made her way towards it along with her companions. They had hardly walked a few meters  when a messenger came running and panting to her.

“Devi Chandrika! I beg your pardon. Maharaj has sent me.”

“What for?”

“He wants to know where you are headed to?”

Chandrika clenched her teeth, but could not control her temper. She pushed one of her companions towards the messenger and said, “Take her with you. And tell Maharaj that if someone must be beheaded because I am headed towards the pond that promises some cool and sweet water, then I volunteer her this afternoon.”

“Devi!” the messenger and Sumati, the companion now staring at her death, exclaimed together.

“Can you remember a message?” Chandrika snapped at him, “Or do you need me to write it down and put my seal on it?” Gulping hard in terror, he bowed and stepped back. “And you Sumati? Why are you staring at me like that? This is the time to prove your loyalty to me. Go with him.”

Trembling and barely managing to keep herself from fainting, the poor woman stumbled behind the messenger.

Chandrika didn’t even spare her a glance and strode towards the pond with double the speed. Her remaining companions, baffled and scared, scrambled to keep up with her.

Within minutes Sumati was back.

“What happened?” Chandrika asked.

“Maharaj started laughing,” she replied, her voice still trembling, “When the messenger repeated what you had asked. Then he ordered me back.”

Chandrika looked at her now, frowning, “Did you really think he was going to behead you for this? Do you have a brain in that head of yours?”

“I am sorry, I got scared, Princess–”

“But I will behead you if you continue calling me Princess.”

“Sorry, Devi Chandrika.”

“All of you stand to this side and screen me. I need some privacy. I want to wash up before eating.”

The women hurried to obey.

Riding gears were grating on her now. She decided to walk back barefoot after her quick bath. But the cosmos was conspiring against her mood that day. Barely a few meters away from the chariot, she felt a sharp prick in her left leg. The pain was excruciating and she ended up squealing before she could control herself. She made a seat out of a stone nearby and her companions lifted her leg. A thorn was pressed deep into her sole. Although she had kept her lips bitten to avoid making any further sound, she could not stop her tears.

“Excuse me, ladies,” the women jumped away on hearing Bhumimitra’s voice. His attendants waited at a distance, as he knelt in front of her and after studying the thorn for a moment, pulled it out in one swift move.

“Aah!” she screamed again before clamping down on her lips. Tears continued to flow down her cheek.

“For all your bravado, Devi Chandrika,” Bhumimitra smirked, “You are no soldier. And you can’t tolerate any pain at all.”

“For all my bravado, Maharaj,” she shot back at him, “I never claimed to be a soldier. I am not trained as one. And I definitely didn’t claim to not feel any pain. The only thing I claim is that I am willing to go through any pain for my cause. You are free to test that.”

He stood up and squinted as he looked at her. As if trying to locate something specific. Then he turned away without saying anything.

“What do you think of me?” she erupted behind him. That made him stop in his tracks and turn back, “You think I am a selfish scoundrel who didn’t care even for her own father?”

“Devi. I didn’t say anything like that.”

“No. You didn’t say. Everything doesn’t need to be said, does it? But some things need to be heard, Maharaj. Republic is an idea whose time has come. You may be able to use your power to resist it for a while. But you can’t stop it. If not you, then your heir’s head will be on a pike one day when the monarchy is overthrown for good. But guess what? Nobody put my father’s head on a pike despite a complete takeover of the government by the republicans. How do you think that happened?”

He looked stunned. Then he spoke, sounding hopeful, “Is that why you were with the republicans? To save your father.”

She shook her head vehemently, “You misunderstand me, Maharaj. I was with the republicans, because I am a republican. I have no loyalty for a monarch as a subject. But I do have loyalty for my father as a daughter. And that ensured that he lived. To be crowned again, it turned out.”

He sighed, “I appreciate it. I truly do.”

“While we are on the subject. Who exactly am I here? If I am a republican traitor, I have no loyalty towards a monarch, Maharaj. I am not under any compulsion to respect your authority. And if I am a princess, I can’t just be ordered around at everybody’s whims.”

That made him smirk again, “If you are willing to be a princess, Devi Chandrika, which would entail taking up your duties and responsibilities as a royal of Chandranagar, including unconditional loyalty towards your father – the King, then I will make immediate arrangements to send you back to your palace. You have no business being on this rough march with the soldiers. But if you are a republican traitor, what hope do you see for yourself by defying my authority? What do you make of this?” he moved his hands around to indicate the large army that was following him.

She was silenced. He didn’t pursue his advantage though. Instead said gently, “Your tent must be setup by now. Take rest, Devi Chandrika, until the food is ready.”

“Tent?” she looked up surprised, “Aren’t we marching after lunch?”

“We are waiting for the reconnaissance party to return.”

“You sent a reconnaissance party?”

“Yes,” he said simply and moved away.

To be continued

The Rebel Princess (Part 3)

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That night, as he was finishing his dinner in his tent, he heard a voice he immediately recognized. At first, he smiled. She had the sweetest possible voice in the world – his republican princess did. But then he heard the words. And the smiled evaporated.

“This wretched woman!!” he hissed and made to stand up.

Seeing his master leaving his dinner unfinished, his attendant immediately rushed into action, “Maharaj! Do you want to send someone to the Princess–”

“You really think that will work with this cursed woman?”

“Your dinner, Sir–”

“I have lost my appetite. Come on, get my stole and come with me.”

Two of the body guards rushed to accompany them when they left their tent to go to Chandrika’s.

He waited until he was announced by one of her attendants. The announcement put a stop to her singing. He jerked aside the flap of her tent and strode in.

“You will not do that again,” he barked without waiting for any pleasantries, “You are prohibited from singing your treasonous revolutionary songs. Do you understand me, Devi Chandrika?”

Her calmness infuriated him even further. She took her time in walking closer to him, then greeting him with folded hands. Only after that charade of politeness did she open her mount, “And if I did not heed you, Maharaj?”

Bhumimitra clenched his fist in exasperation. Then he looked pointedly at her companions. Unlike her, they were feeling the full weight of his fury and already looked pale.

“Do you know what the Gurus of princes do in the tyrannical countries where they are not allowed to punish the royals even if they are only tiny boys and have been disobedient? They punish the lower-born friends of theirs.”

To his immense satisfaction, that threat worked. Chandrika looked discomfited and averted her eyes. When she looked back at him, she didn’t look as fierce as earlier.

“You shall not have any reason to complain in future, Maharaj.”

He nodded stiffly and turned away. But at the exit he turned and came back.

“I would like you to sing… something else, for me,” he said. His tone was nothing like what he had used earlier. It was not an order, only a request. He would have gone back, if she had refused. But she didn’t refuse. She did look surprised though.

“Now?” she asked.

“If you don’t mind.”

That unsettled her, but her royal upbringing kicked in and she was calm and graceful again within moments.

“Please, do sit down, Maharaj.” Chandrika gave a silent order to one of her companions, who rushed to bring some refreshments to be served to the king. Having left his dinner unfinished, Bhumimitra gorged on the refreshments as Chandrika sang a heart-rending song about two star-crossed lovers. She was as effective in conveying the longing of separated lovers as she had been in with the defiance of revolutionary temper. Was it just a trick she knew and could employ while singing? Or could she feel both emotions with equal sincerity?

He invited her to ride with him again the next morning. She looked around with a frown as the marching orders were being given.

“Maharaj!”

“Devi Chandrika!”

“Are you not sending a part of the army to the north east from here?”

“Why would I do that?”

“Because—oh!”

“Yes?”

“You don’t have the intelligence report from that area? The enemy’s plan is to send a significant chunk of their army through Raigarh-Chandranagar border and encircle us as we march towards the eastern front, cutting us off from our supplies.”

“Maharaj, we have no such intelligence–”

“Now you do, Minister Sindhupati,” Chandrika interrupted the war minister.

He didn’t respond to her directly and continued addressing Bhumimitra, “Pardon me, Maharaj. But in the matters of war, I can’t let the etiquette prevail over practical concerns. Princess—I mean Devi Chandrika here is openly a republican. I have reasons to suspect that she doesn’t want us to succeed.”

“I am a nemesis of monarchy, my lord Minister, you are wise to never doubt that. But my republic is first and foremost for my country and my people. We did hold the government machinery in our hands before you came to destroy it. We did have the intelligence from border areas. And this march of army was going to happen whether or not you were here. Except that from here, we would know better and secure north-eastern frontier as well.”

“With due respect Devi Chandrika,” the minister addressed her directly this time, “Your intelligence seemed to have failed horrendously on the real first attack you had to face, which was from us.”

“We misunderstood Maharaj Bhumimitra’s motivations, I agree.”

“What does that mean?” Bhumimitra frowned.

“Despite the traditional rivalry between our kingdoms, Maharaj, your policy on Chandranagar had never been aggressive. All you want from us was a buffer kingdom between Raigarh and our restless eastern neighbors. A buffer kingdom that was stable internally. You had never shown any inclination towards conquering or annexing Chandranagar, which made sense too. We assumed that you will continue to follow the same policy, especially since you and my father didn’t see eye to eye ever before. We didn’t count on your being so set upon the cause of monarchy and actually invade Chandranagar just to defeat the republic.”

Bhumimitra gave her a long look and then said, “Devi. Please ride with your companions today.”

She was exasperated at being so dismissed, “But at least send a reconnaissance.”

“Devi Chandrika!”

His tone brooked no dissent. She had to withdraw, although she was furious.

Once she was out of earshot, he turned to his war minister, “Send a reconnaissance party.”

“But Maharaj–”

“Do it secretly. The rest of us will march as planned. But only for half a day. After that we will wait for the reconnaissance party to return with their report.”

That precautionary measure was difficult to argue with. The minister did as he was instructed.

To be continued

The Rebel Princess (Part 2)

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With the first light of the day, monarchy was formally re-established in Chandranagar and King Chandravarman had been crowned once again. He professed eternal gratefulness and friendship towards King Bhumimitra, who, in turn, expressed his satisfaction that the untoward elements of the society had been crushed for good and that the restoration of the glorious kingdom of Chandranagar would serve as a warning to the upstart republicans in all corners of the world that their unnatural, selfish motives would never be fulfilled. There would always be brave kings and warriors in the world, destined by the gods and the nature, to maintain order and justness in the world. King Chandravarman was a shining of example of the tribe. The republicans couldn’t have chosen a more difficult enemy to strike at. All was well now. The anarchists were now annihilated and the stable world order would not be challenged again.

The words were phony, Bhumimitra knew that. As traditional rivals, Chandranagar and Raigarh professing eternal friendship was a hypocrisy only the world of politics could entertain and look the other way as it was being professed. Besides, the world order was never stable. In this case, even if the republican revolutionaries had held power only for a couple of weeks, they had managed to challenge a world order that had never been challenged before. In the past, the claimants to a throne may have fought endlessly over who would be a king, but nobody had ever questioned the need for a king. That psychological wall was broken now. Bhumimitra did not even want to think of all other jealousies, rivalries and claims the temporary fall of King Chandravarman had stroked. The political, administrative and military mess that this incident had created was unparalleled in his experience. But he had to think of all that. Cleaning up this mess required doing two things at the same time. One, an army must march forward and secure the eastern Frontiers of both Chandranagar and Raigargh, because the neighboring kingdoms were keen to grab a piece of pie given the weakness of Chandranagar in the face of the republican challenge. Two, King Chandravarman must stay in his capital to consolidate his hold on his kingdom once again. An unstable Chandranagar wasn’t good news for Raigarh and Bhumimitra was resolved to see through the complete restoration of his traditional rival’s sovereignty. So, he would march to the border at the head of the combined armies of the two kingdoms, while King Chandravarman would attend to the affairs at home.

Through the ceremony no mention was made of the “missing” princess. The idea of Chandrika’s betrothal to Bhumimitra, which had been proposed by Chandravarman while asking for Bhumimitra’s help in crushing the republicans, was not made public. Chandravarman was mad enough at her to want to behead her with the other republicans charged with treason. But Bhumimitra had managed to talk him out of it. Her presence in Chandranagar could spell trouble though. So, it was decided that she would go with Bhumimitra as a prisoner of war. And attempts would be made to turn her around and see if she would renounce her republicanism. Then the intended betrothal could still proceed.

The winter was just setting in, and riding felt pleasant. Bhumimitra hadn’t seen Chandrika since placing her under house arrest on that fateful evening. But her defiant, shining face as she sang “We still fought, and we will still fight” was invading his thoughts more often than he would have liked. The march was going to be exhausting. And he should be focused on planning the campaign ahead, interpreting the information messengers were bringing and strategizing the position of his army. Instead he was repeatedly being assaulted by the insane desire of crushing that defiant woman. Not in a war. But in an embrace. Could he make her see the light? Could she leave behind her revolutionary madness and wed him like she was supposed to?  She was a few meters behind him, being driven in a closed chariot. And he was maddeningly aware of her presence, even though he couldn’t see her.

A message was quietly brought up to him.

“Princess Chandrika requests your permission to ride for a while, Maharaj. She says she could use some fresh air.”

He should have refused. She was a prisoner whom he needed to bring to her senses. But before the logic of refusal formed in his head, he found himself saying, “Get her a mare from my stable and tell her that she is invited to ride beside me.”

The ministers and commanders riding around him looked at each other. Some smirked and others shook their heads. A few minutes later, the crowd around him parted to let her ride up to him.

“I thank you for the permission to ride and am honored to ride with you, Maharaj,” she said.

He cast a quick sideways glance at her and then immediately looked ahead. She was wearing green today. She was still bewitchingly beautiful and even that quick glance had made him draw a sharp breath. That she spoke with such calm and confidence only served to make his desires even more potent. What a great queen she would make. And what satisfaction it would bring to subdue her, in bed!

“Princess Chandrika. You need not be in a position where you need a permission to ride. You need not be a prisoner.”

“Are you converting to the republican cause, Maharaj?”

He intended to treat her with an angry glare, but when he turned towards her, he ended up responding to her mischievous smile with a somber one of his own.

“Do I have to remind you that the republican cause is treason? I wish you would stop harboring it.”

“That is not going to happen. You should just mete out the punishment due to a traitor to me and be done with it.”

“That is not going to happen.”

“Why?”

“I am not going to hand over a martyr on a plate to the republicans, around whom they can rally.”

“Is that what you told my father to convince him out of punishing me?”

“Yes.”

When he turned to her he found her smiling again. Much to his gratification, it seemed to be an appreciative smile.

“I am still a republican,” she said, “And I still prefer to be addressed as Devi Chandrika, and not Princess.”

That spoiled his mood. He shot her dagger eyes and spurred his horse to go faster, prompting everyone, including Chandrika, to follow suit.

To be continued

The Rebel Princess (Part 1)

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Nobody said that the road to freedom
Will be clear like daily humdrum,
That those who rule in the name of God
Are not powerful, even if fraud.

Nobody said that our victory was final
Nobody said there won’t be reprisal
Nobody said that the fight was over
Nobody said that revenge won’t be cruel.

We still fought, and we will still fight,
Until the powerful lose their might,
Until the cruel are engulfed by night,
And a dawn comes when all is right,
When all are free, and all of us matter,
Where Gods say – humans are better,
Don’t denigrate me, don’t rule in my name,
Denying human reason its due is lame.

To say that Bhumimitra was incensed would have been understatement. He was blazing with fury. That he didn’t walk up to the stage and thrust his sword into that defiant, willful woman’s chest was a triumph of the great military strategist in him. Otherwise his huge royal ego would have sent his sword flying. Instead, as soon as he realized where this song, presented towards the end of a programme supposedly in his honor, was going, he whispered his instructions to his tense war minister Sindhupati. Even as the woman continued to sing, the military machine was put into action. Starting from the back of the large ground where the performances were being held, people started getting escorted out. Those who resisted were dragged out. Based on the arbitrary, unfathomable logic, that comes into being when a rebellion has to be quelled, some of them were even arrested. But as more and more people were removed, Bhumimitra felt the tension growing more instead of subsiding. The harassed, the terrified, the handcuffed – all started singing with the woman.

We still fought, and we will still fight,
Until the powerful lose their might.

But he wasn’t going to act ruffled. He kept his dagger eyes set on the woman on the stage. Was she looking back at him as defiantly? He couldn’t be sure. Or perhaps he didn’t want to believe that she was.

She continued singing, repeating her verses, until the venue was emptied of the last of the spectators. She stopped as soon as everyone was out and it was at the same moment that Bhumimitra also stood up and strode towards the stage. His companions rushed behind him. He was acting rashly. What if the woman was armed. Although she couldn’t have easily passed through the scrutiny of their security apparatus with a weapon, but if she was adventurous enough to give the performance she had just given, she might be devious enough to use undetectable means of harming—

“You insolent woman! Give me one reason why I shouldn’t behead you right away.”

She smiled unflinchingly, “Perhaps because I am the daughter of King Chandravarman, the same one whom you intend to put back on the throne tomorrow morning, with all the pomp and the show.”

If she had announced that she was an avatar of Goddess Durga, Bhumimitra couldn’t have been more shocked and furious.

“Daughter of King — Princess Chandrika has been kidnapped by the republicans and still not found. And now you are going to try and impersonate a royal–”

A man had walked up to the war minister with slow, measured steps, to avoid arousing any panic, and whispered something in his ears. The minister, in turn, interrupted Bhumimitra.

“Maharaj! She is indeed Princess Chandrika,” he said in a low voice, then added in a whisper, “One of our spies recognized her.”

“Princess Chandrika!” Bhumimitra said uncertainly, “Have the republicans forced you to–”

She laughed, “So, my father still doesn’t suspect a thing. I am not a victim of the republicans. I am their leader.”

This was the second time in a matter of few minutes that Bhumimitra was shocked beyond the pale.

“Your spy network has failed you, Maharaj!” she added. Her offhand tone and taunting demeanor had Bhumimitra’s blood boiling again.

“You should be ashamed of yourself,” he hissed at her, “A princess plotting against monarchy. Deposing her own father.”

She chuckled again, “I am sorry that you think so. Because I am not in the least ashamed of standing by a higher principle. And I prefer to be called Devi Chandrika, not Princess.”

“Good for you, because you don’t deserve the title of a princess. Place her under arrest,” he ordered the security team standing behind him and his team of ministers and commanders.

“Maharaj,” the chief commander stopped him as he turned away, “Whatever she may say, it isn’t appropriate for us to send the princess of this kingdom to the dungeons like a commoner.”

Bhumimitra stopped in his tracks. The commander was right and he felt annoyed that he had to take the counsel of so many people for doing this right. But it wasn’t everyday that he had to deal with rebel princesses who were leading republican against their own fathers. He took a deep breath and turned back to face Chandrika.

“Where are your companions?” he asked.

“I have no companions,” she replied.

He squeezed his fist hard to keep his cool, then issued the order, “Send a message to King Chandravarman. He should send some women from antahpur as companions for the Princess, who would be placed under house arrest at the royal guest house. Put her in the room next to mine. She must be guarded every moment of the day.”

“Yes, Maharaj.”

 

Bhumimitra paced in his room after dismissing his attendants. What a disconcerting climax to a campaign he had considered a great success. Republicans had overthrown the monarchy in Chandranagar and King Chandravarman had asked for his assistance. Bhumimitra, the well-regarded King of Raigarh, had provided that assistance successfully. Marching at the head of his army, he had the republicans were decimated, except for those who had gone underground or escaped in time. Their inability to rescue Princess Chandrika had been their only failure – something he had hoped to remedy sooner rather than later.

But the princess had walked on to the stage that evening. He had been stunned at first. Not because he had recognized her. But because the unconventional black dress she had worn set off against her milky white complexion so enticingly that he had ached with desire. It was now that he realized that her black was not worn to bewitch. It was the black color of the revolutionary republications. And yet – neither he, nor she could help how it looked on her. Ravishingly beautiful!

Her beauty and his potent attraction towards it should not have posed a problem. But she was a republican. Not a lost, young princess romancing with a naive idea of the revolution preached by that damned philosopher who was a rage amongst the vagabonds these days. But the leader of those traitors. There could be no doubt that she was the leader after the brave performance she had given that evening. A lone woman facing an assembly of fierce warriors – all men – and still scoffing at them. She was no wide-eyed, bored, naive damsel chasing novelty. She was a leader with a brave, solid head on her shoulders.

What a conundrum it had left him in? What was he to do with her?

An attendant announced King Chandravarman to him just then. Bhumimitra sighed. The elderly king of the realm must not have known of his daughter’s escapades then. Republican win and the need to ask for assistance from Raigarh hadn’t humbled him so much that he would have come to meet Bhumimitra himself instead of requesting his presence at the palace. This revelation, however, seemed to have broken his pride. He asked the attendant to send the king in. They had to discuss Chandrika, there was no avoiding it.

To be continued

The Boss (Part 20)

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Soumen stayed for dinner but left immediately afterwards. While Soumen was there Kirti was too excited, continuously arguing with him that she should be allowed to sit in the passenger seat of his car when there was no other adult around. But after he left, she fell asleep quickly.

“I envy you so much,” Karishma told Siddhartha when she came out after putting Kirti to sleep in the bedroom.

“What for?”

“Your family. How you look out for each other. It couldn’t be easy for him, but for your sake, even Soumen is so sweet to me.”

“You don’t need to be envious. My family is yours for taking. They all love you.”

“And that is you being generous and sweet.”

“No, Karishma. And while we are on the topic, I would like you to meet Baba.”

“I have met him.”

“I know. But not like that.”

She sighed, “I suppose, I have to. But that does make me nervous.”

“I have already told him about you.”

“And? What did he say?”

“Two things. One: So, you aren’t marrying Kalindi? And two: I thought Sonu was going to marry Karishma.”

“Oh God!” she hid her face behind her hands.

Laughing, Siddhartha pulled her hands away, “He is really excited. You must know. He was impressed with you the very first time he met you at the hospital.”

“And he doesn’t mind my… baggage?”

“There is no baggage, Karishma. There is a very sweet child, who has managed to bewitch my useless brother and almost make him responsible.”

“She is so lucky to have you. And so am I.”

Siddhartha laughed again, “And in case you haven’t noticed, so am I. To have both of you.”

He pulled her in a hug and then said, “I should leave now.”

She felt disappointed. She had hoped that he would stay. But she couldn’t tell him that. Outwardly she nodded and tried hard to hide her disappointment behind her smile. As Siddhartha made his way towards the door, however, she could not restrain herself.

“Siddhartha, wait!” she called after him and then ran to him. Throwing her arms around him, she tiptoed up and pressed her lips to his. She withdrew quickly because she realized that she had caught him by surprise. But he returned the favor immediately and she was more than ready to receive it.

“Karishma,” he said, his voice hoarse, “I want to stay. But we need to take some time. And there are some legal issues–”

“Legal issues?” Was he losing it? What legal issues could come in the way of two lovers spending a night together?

“That sounded weird,” he spoke, slightly amused and sounding more normal this time, “But this isn’t the time. We will talk tomorrow.”

“Actually, we can’t talk today at all,” he told her in the five minutes he could squeeze in between his meetings the next day, “The meetings had been cancelled at the last minute for my trip; so now I must catch up on all of them. But tomorrow we will sit down with the lawyers. Meanwhile, you should relax and not try to take on Vikram or the divorce issue by yourself.”

“Okay, boss. And when you are buried neck deep in work, you shouldn’t worry about me.”

“No, Karishma. That isn’t an advice I am going to take. I have to manage time. But I am not going to deprioritize you.”

Goosebumps rose all over her body. If they had been someplace more private than the office, she wouldn’t have waited for him to take the initiative, but dragged him to the bed herself.

Presently all she could do was nod, while her eyes conveyed to him just how much she appreciated his priorities!

After he finished his last call for the day and made to leave, he noticed that Karishma was still in her office. He went in. She was feeding Kirti her dinner. Soumen was not there in the office.

“Why are you still here?” he asked.

“Oh! When did you come?” she was startled.

“I was about to leave, when I realized you were still here. Has Soumen left you behind with some work?  Where is he?”

She smiled, “No. He hasn’t left me with any work that can’t wait until tomorrow. I was just waiting to wish you good night before leaving.”

He came closer and said, “And I think you just stole whatever piece of my heart was still remaining.”

“That was straight out of a corny Bollywood movie, Mr. Sen. I didn’t think you were into them.”

“Well – why not? Shall we go to a movie this weekend?”

“Umm – actually I will have to check my schedule–” But before he could, she herself started laughing.

“You need to get your priorities right, Miss. Come on, let’s go. I will drop you.”

“No. You must be so tired. I will take a taxi.”

“You weren’t the only one hoping to squeeze in some time together, Karishma. Besides, have you eaten?”

She shook her head.

“Nor have I.”

The meeting with the lawyers had left Karishma baffled and slightly jittery. She gulped down a glass of water after they left. Siddhartha waited patiently, sitting behind his table, resisting the urge to go close to her. He waited for her to digest all the information and voice her concerns.

“What you have gone through,” one of the lawyers had said, “Is a clear case of abuse. If you want to go for it, we could push for 498a against your husband.”

But she only wanted a divorce. As quick and as hassle-free as possible. “Looks like he doesn’t realize what danger he is in if we were to use 498a. We should try to persuade him for mutual consent divorce after making him aware of this.”

Then they had given her a piece of info that she hadn’t seen coming at all. That they needed to be careful of their own relationship, because while she was married, any sexual relationship between them could lead to the charges of a criminal offense.

“Having sex is illegal?” she had blurted.

“Having sex with a married woman is a criminal offense on part of the man.”

“But not on part of the woman?”

The lawyer had chuckled, “Many people say that the law discriminates against men. But the law is more patriarchal than that.”

“What do you mean?”

“Basically, all this law concerns itself with is that a married man has the exclusive right to the sexual favors of his wife. So, even if the wife has consented to the sex with another man, it is a violation of the husband’s right. Hence the man committing adultery is guilty.”

“But wife has no such right over the husband. Hence the woman committing adultery with a married woman’s husband is not guilty.”

“Right. A married woman is her husband’s property. Not the other way around.”

“Wow!”

Presently, she asked Siddhartha, “So you knew about this criminal offense thing? Is that why you were talking about legal issues?”

He gave a sheepish smile and nodded.

“Why didn’t you tell me?”

“It was weird. So, it was best that a lawyer explained it. And it would have been a perfect romance killer in pretty much any conversation.”

“How did you know, though?”

“I wish you wouldn’t ask that.”

“Why?”

His smile was sheepish again. “The answer isn’t exactly romantic.”

Her brows furrowed for a moment, and then she asked, “You researched well in advance, didn’t you? When?”

“Before ever proposing to you.”

She shook her head and then started laughing. “I should have known. You won’t jump into anything unprepared.”

“Well–” he shrugged, looking embarrassed, but not wanting to admit it.

“And you may think it is not romantic. But it is incredibly so. May be that means that my definition of romance is screwed up. But I guess I am more convinced than ever that I can depend on you.”

He leaned forward on the table and said, “And looks like I don’t have to be apologetic about not being an impulsively romantic lover.”

“Not at all.”

Grinning at that, he took out a few papers from his drawer, “Then, as the lawyers suggested, we should also sign this rental agreement for the apartment.”

“You already had it made? When?”

“I wanted to make sure it was stamped on the day you came to live there. So, I arranged for it to be printed and stamped.”

“When you were driving your father over–”

“It was just a phone call to a lawyer, Karishma.”

“Let me sign it before I find out something else you have already thought through and swoon.”

He chuckled and pushed the papers he had already signed towards her.

“And tell the lawyers,” she said after signing all the pages, “That I don’t care if they go after him with a murder charge, I just want my divorce quickly.”

“Yes, Ma’am!”

“And tell me if you have already taken care of this too, but we need to hire a babysitter or a nanny for Kirti.”

He chuckled, “No. I haven’t taken care of that. And I don’t even know how to. Will you speak to Mrinal? He should have the right contacts.”

“Will do.”

Karishma was having dinner with Siddhartha and his father. Soumen was out of town for the wedding of one of his friends. Siddhartha broke the news to his father, “Baba. The divorce has come through.”

“That’s great! Congratulations, Karishma. I know it hasn’t been easy for you. But you pulled through.”

“Thank you, Mr. Sen.”

“Ah, that! I hope you two are getting married soon now.”

“Soon, Baba.” Siddhartha spoke unhesitatingly.

“So, sweetheart,” the old man turned towards Karishma, “It would help if you started practicing calling me Baba.”

Karishma blushed hard, but replied, “Gladly.” She added after a pause, “Baba.”

Siddhartha came with her to the apartment after dinner.

“Baba was saying that we should talk to your parents too. And he should also meet them,” he told Karishma.

She sighed, “Give me some time. I want to savor my freedom before they try to disparage it.”

“I don’t care, Karishma, if you never tell them. The only reason I suggest it is because if they can be reconciled with the idea, you would be at peace. So, it’s totally your decision. Remember that whatever you decide to do, I will be by your side.”

“I know. That is one thing I have come to depend on.”

“What?”

“You being on my side.”

Siddhartha shot a quick glance at Kirti, who was fast asleep in the baby cot Siddhartha had gotten installed for her. Then he cupped Karishma’s face and kissed her passionately.

“Some of my clothes are still in that cupboard, aren’t they? At least a night dress?” he said, holding her close.

“Yes!” she hissed.

“Good. Because there is no criminal case staring at my any longer.”

“Isn’t there supposed to be a waiting period?”

“For a wedding. Not for making love.”

“I see.”

“You will,” he said as he led her to the bed.

– The End –

The Boss (Part 19)

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“Sonu!”

“Dada, you are back? How was your trip?”

“It was fine. Why is Kirti with you? Where is Karishma?” She hadn’t been picking up her phone.

“Umm… At the apartment I think. She said she had to meet some people there. And she couldn’t take Kirti with her. So, she asked me to mind her for a few hours.”

“Where is Mommy?” Kirti asked Siddhartha. She had figured out by now that her mother was usually with Siddhartha and hence he was the person to ask.

He smiled at the child and replied reassuringly. “She will be back soon.” Then he turned his attention back to his brother, “She didn’t say anything else?”

“That she would call me once she was done.”

Siddhartha considered taking Kirti to the apartment himself. But the situation was weird. Since she had deliberately left the child behind, he decided to let it be.

Siddhartha could hear her voice from even behind the closed door.

“Just leave. Leave this place right now. Otherwise I will call the security.”

The voices that responded to her were not audible.

He used his key to open the door without making any sound and let himself in.

Karishma noticed him first as she was standing facing the door. She fell silent as she stared at him.

It was her reaction that made the man and the woman sitting on the sofa turn towards him.

“Who are you? How did you get in?” The man jumped off the sofa and came to him threateningly.

“I am the landlord and the door was open.” Siddhartha smoothly told this partial lie.

“That doesn’t mean–”

“Vikram. Leave him alone,” Karishma found her voice back. The other woman was older and she looked terrified and confused.

Vikram was her husband, Siddhartha figured that out. So, this lady was most likely her mother-in-law. He looked calmly into Vikram’s eyes, “I think she was asking you to leave. So, you should.”

“She is my wife. She can’t ask me to leave.”

“Actually, she can. This is my property. So, you have to leave. Otherwise I will call not only the security, but also the police.”

Vikram turned back towards Karishma and hissed, “You whore! What is he to you that–”

“Enough!” Siddhartha’s voice boomed and even Karishma flinched at it. “I am reminding you again that it is my property and now, I am asking you to leave. If you take even a second more, I am going to call the security first, and then the police.”

He moved towards the intercom, then saw the elderly woman pleading with Vikram and dragging him out.

“And what do you mean by staying behind with my wife?” he screamed at the door.

“I am not answerable to you.” Siddhartha took a few long strides to the door and pushed him out. Then he waited for the woman to follow him, before locking the door behind them.

Karishma stood frozen at the same place she was in when Siddhartha had entered. The look of hopelessness on her pale face triggered almost a physical pain in him. As if he had been punched in the gut. He walked up to her and pulled her in an embrace. At first stiff, she relaxed slowly. He made her sit on the sofa and fetched her a glass of water. She gulped the entire glass down.

He sat down next to her. Once some color had returned to her face, he asked, “What was he doing here?”

“He went berserk when he realized that I had moved out of my parents’ house too. He called my mother several times. So, I thought I would meet him and ask for divorce.”

“And that didn’t go well?”

“Obviously. You saw him,” she sounded bitter.

“The lady with him was–”

“My mother.”

Your mother? With him?”

She fell silent.

“I am sorry,” he said.

“Divorce isn’t going to be easy.”

“I never thought it would be. But you don’t have to worry about it alone. Why did you let him come here though?”

She looked at him confused, then seemed to understand. “I am sorry. I shouldn’t have called him here without your permission–”

“My permission? What are you—oh!” he smiled indulgently, “No, Karishma. I am not so possessive about this place that your husband coming here would bother me. I only meant that he is an abusive and dangerous man. It would have been better if  he didn’t know where you live.”

“Oh!”

“It’s okay. We will ensure that security doesn’t let him in.”

“I don’t think he is dangerous that way. He knew all this while where I was. I thought it was best if I confronted him on my grounds. His home or my parents’ – both would have been his territory.”

That made him smile again, “Yes. This is your territory.”

“It didn’t do much, unfortunately.”

“You don’t know that yet.”

She flung her head on the back of the sofa and said, “Kirti is with Soumen. I should get back to the office and bring her.”

“I will call Soumen. If he is free, he can bring her.”

Soumen was happy to drive Kirti over. Karishma looked exhausted and didn’t object to the arrangement.

After a few moments of silence, he edged closer to her and took her hand in his own. “Hey!” he called her softly.

She gave him a long look, then suddenly started talking, as if unable to keep it inside her, “Do you know who hurts me the most? Who makes my life most miserable? It’s not Vikram. It’s my parents. My mother, especially. She is disappointed in me. And she makes no bones about it. All my life I have been this ideal daughter she has been proud to show off. She seems to have brought me up not for myself, not even for herself, but for the relatives and the neighbors. So, I have been doing just what was expected of me. Dreaming just as much as she wanted me to dream and no more. Being intelligent, but not ambitious. Speaking fluent English but toeing the lines of tradition. It didn’t pay off. The woman I was raised to be was supposed to have a happy family. She was supposed to have a husband who took care of her and who, in turn, received her complete devotion. But the husband she found me was not that. Now, as a woman who has left her husband, she can’t show me off. That is what the problem has boiled down to for her. How to win her medal back? And she is convinced that she is doing the right thing in not accepting my problem, in trying to force me to go back. She self-righteously scorns me. And I?” She seemed to choke on her words here and stopped talking. Siddhartha continued holding her hand and looked at her in anticipation. He was ready to hear whatever she had to say. He wasn’t judging or interrupting. She overcame the tears that had threatened her and spoke again, “It’s her that I can’t confront. The little girl who was overcome with guilt every time she disappointed her mother refuses to leave me. The teenager who never dared speak anything inappropriate before her mother stays on stubbornly too. When I am in front of her, somehow, it is me who becomes the villain and she the victim. I know that it shouldn’t happen this way. I tried breaking free of it while I was there. But it didn’t work. I tried explaining, I tried retorting, but in the end I just– I just ended up staying silent. She continues to define the rules of the game. And since I am no longer obeying them, I am the villain. But not strong enough to challenge her rules.”

Siddhartha reached out and she willingly came into his embrace. She rested her head on his chest.

“People don’t change much, Karishma. When people in your life become toxic, there isn’t any point trying to fix them. It only makes you more miserable. All you can do is to make them irrelevant to your life. You have already taken a step towards that for Vikram. By leaving him. Divorce will see you through the process. There is, of course, no divorcing parents,” he chuckled, then added somberly, “But I am so proud of the woman you are today. Could that, perhaps, help you ignore that your mother is, unjustifiably, disappointed?”

She raised her head and looked up at him. Then she smiled. “Only you could have done something like that.”

“Like what?”

“You didn’t make a sentimental, meaningless declaration that everything will be all right. You pointed out exactly what can be set right.”

“If that good or bad?”

“Obviously, it is good. So good that–”

“That?”

“Nothing,” she stood up, “I should start cooking. Do you think Soumen would like to stay for dinner?”

“We could order something. You don’t need to cook–”

“I want to. I actually like cooking. We had ordered yesterday too. It’s not particularly healthy, is it? So, I bought some grocery this morning. And I am not a bad cook, trust me. But can you and Soumen make do with vegetarian food?”

“Yes. Yes. We are not such staunch non-vegetarians. Do you need help?”

“No. I don’t suppose you got time to even look at your work before you came here. Don’t you want to catch up on your e-mails and with Mrinal?”

“I do, indeed. And only you could have guessed that.”

She grinned and went to the kitchen, while Siddhartha called Mrinal up.

To be continued

The Boss (Part 18)

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“You came very late last night? What kind of work goes on till after midnight? And who was the guy who dropped you? It wasn’t that boss of yours.”

Karishma wondered. Should she tell her that it was the CEO of the company? Would that make things better or worse? She decided to go back to her silence strategy and started dressing Kirti up.

“If I notice, do you think neighbors don’t?” her mother said and stomped out.

Karishma looked at her watch and at the open cupboard that held all her and Kirti’s personal belongings. If she skipped Kirti’s pre-school, she would be able to pack it all and still reach office in time. She had the luxury of booking a taxi these days. One thing her mother had not noticed. Neighbors must have though!

“No school today, Kirti.”

“Why Mommy?”

“Because we are going to pack and go to our new house today.”

That drew no particular reaction from the child. She showed no signs of either elation or anxiety. That was good enough, Karishma thought. Cramped spaces and dilapidated houses didn’t seem to bother children. Spacious houses with latest fixtures and open terraces didn’t seem to impress them. But she would grow up. And hopefully she would appreciate her better fortunes then. For now, if an abrupt change didn’t bother her, it should be fine. She hadn’t received much attention from her grandmother in the time she had spent here, except when Karishma absolutely needed to leave her behind. During her job search, for example. That one night when she had gone to see Siddhartha at the hospital. A few times when she was ill. Then also Soumen had taken her away almost every day. When else? No. Kirti would not miss her grandparents.

The only reason Karishma’s confrontation with her mother was not prolonged was because the old lady was thoroughly confused.

“You can pretend before the neighbors that I am back with Vikram. Meanwhile, I have got myself a place. So, we won’t be a burden on you anymore. I may have to come back to collect some more stuff.”

With that she dragged her suitcase towards the lift and left her parents’ home. For the second time.

She called Siddhartha from the taxi. She didn’t want to do it beforehand lest she lose courage. He had only mentioned it last night. She risked appearing greedy in asking to be given the apartment this morning. But here was her chance at some mental peace. And she wanted to seize it.

“Hey!” his voice at the other end seemed to caress her.

“Good morning,” she blushed despite herself.

“Listen. Good you called. I was about to call you myself. Something has come up and I need to go out of the city. I will be back tomorrow afternoon.”

“Oh! What happened?”

“An aunt of mine passed away. She was Baba’s cousin.”

“I am so sorry–”

“She was old and had been ill for a while. But Baba must go and I wanted to drop him myself.”

“Of course. When are you leaving?”

“Right away.”

“Oh!” What was she to do with the luggage in the boot of the car? And where was she to spend the night?

“What happened?”

“Uh, nothing. I just—Never mind. This isn’t the time to bother you.” Could she find a hotel quickly?

“Just tell me.”

“Could you perhaps meet me just for a minute before leaving?”

“If I have to, I will find a way to. But why don’t you tell me what’s going on, Karishma?”

“I need– I need the key to the apartment. I– I have packed my stuff and brought it with me. I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have done without asking you–”

“Are you all right?”

“Yes.”

“Soumen has a key. I will ask him to give one to you. But will that be enough? Or do you want me to stay back? Soumen could go with Baba–”

“No. The key will be enough.”

“I will be back by tomorrow. Will you be okay until then?”

“Yes. I will be. I am fine. Really.”

“Why don’t you go to the apartment directly? I will ask Soumen to meet you there.”

“There are some calls and meetings in the morning. I just have a suitcase with me. I can keep it in the office and go to the apartment in the evening.”

“Okay. He will give you the keys at the office then.”

Soumen insisted on dropping Karishma at the apartment in the evening.

“I will take a taxi Soumen. You really needn’t bother–” Karishma didn’t want to sit beside him in his car again!

“Karishma!” Soumen interrupted emphatically, “Dada asked me to. He is worried that everything you need may not be there. He wants me to check.”

Karishma fell silent.

“And look,” he added, “I know I have made a fool of myself in past. Repeatedly. But I am really happy for Dada. And you.”

“You haven’t made a fool of yourself, Soumen. It’s just that I–”

“Karishma. If you won Dada’s heart, you were way out of my league.”

“Please don’t embarrass me, Soumen.”

“I didn’t mean to. I’m sorry. Just that we never cleared the air. Are we okay, Karishma? Can we leave the uncomfortable things behind us and be okay?”

“We are okay, Soumen. In fact, I hope we are more than okay. I hope we are friends.”

Soumen smiled and nodded.

“I hope so too. So then, can I come with you now and bring some peace to my elder brother’s bleeding heart?”

She chuckled, “Let’s go.”

The house may not make a difference. But Kirti was absolutely thrilled to be in Momen Uncle’s red car again.

“Dada was worried sick,” Soumen said after checking that electricity and all the appliances were working well, that there were fresh sheets available in the bedroom and that water filter was also functional, “But everything seems to be in order here. Just like one expects at a place that he himself maintains.”

Karishma chuckled in response. The observation was spot on.

“The only thing missing is food. I will order you some dinner, if that’s fine.”

“Okay.”

“And I could buy you some provisions for breakfast tomorrow. What do you need?”

“It’s alright, Soumen. I can manage for one morning–”

“Milk? Bread?”

Karishma sighed and smiled, “While you are at it. Some sugar and tea leaves would be nice too.”

“Done. I will order dinner first. Then get you the stuff.”

“Soumen!”

“Yeah?”

“Would you care to join me for dinner?”

He seemed surprised by the invitation. But recovered quickly. “I would love to,” he said.

Siddhartha called later that evening. “A maid comes every morning to clean up the place. She has her own key. So, don’t be worried if she lets herself in. I have told her, however, to leave the keys with you. Now that you are staying there, she need not have the key. It will be safer for you to open the door for her.”

Karishma chuckled, “You really think everything through, don’t you? Now, do you want to know what I will cook for breakfast.”

He laughed, “No, Karishma. Once you take something over, I know I don’t have to worry about it. I am just a little flustered about the apartment, because I didn’t have a chance to–”

“Look it over yourself. But it is in perfect condition. You needn’t worry. I have everything I need.”

“I am glad to hear that.”

To be continued

The Boss (Part 17)

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“How are things at home?” Siddhartha asked.

“Huh?” she seemed surprised by his question.

“How are thing with your parents, at home?”

“Right. Eh. It’s fine. Everything is fine, I guess.”

“You had told me that didn’t like you walking out on your marriage,” he said, then asked, “I don’t suppose everything is fine. But do they bother you when you come away late at nights to meet me or today when you would be late in going back?”

She played with the food on her plate and seemed to think for a while before replying, “It isn’t exactly a happy family, Siddhartha. They tolerate me, they don’t really like me being there. Especially my mother. All she can think of is her disappointment in her daughter. She feels let down in front of our relatives, neighbors.”

“But you support them financially, don’t you?”

“I do. Just like they let me stay. It’s ingrained in us, isn’t it? You can’t just turn away from the family. But that doesn’t mean you like each other.”

Siddhartha ate silently for a while, then spoke, “An idea has been there on my mind. I had thought I would bring it up a little later. But perhaps now is a good time.”

“What?”

“I want you to shift here. To this apartment. Earlier I had thought that you may want to bring your parents along. But if they are happier there…”

“But this is your–”

“Place of solitude. It will remain that, and become more of it, with you here.”

“I am not surprised that you offered this. Perhaps I should be.”

“I’m glad you are not surprised.”

“It isn’t easy for me, Siddhartha. But I have decided to depend on you. For decision-making most of all. So, you tell me. Is it a good idea for me to accept this? Comforts are easy to get used to, and very difficult to let go of. And it isn’t just about me. But about my little girl. She is used to my limited means. But if she were to get more and then–”

“It is the right thing, Karishma. The worst thing that can happen is that we don’t work out, right? But here is the thing. Even without consciously thinking about it, I made my commitment to Kirti before ‘we’ were even a distant possibility. And that, you have to believe me, isn’t going to go away. I will make sure of that legally too. That’s why I wanted to bring this up a little later. But there is no reason you should continue to live in an unnecessarily miserable situation while waiting for legalese. You should shift here as soon as you can.”

“I don’t need legalese.”

“It will be there anyway. Our food is getting cold. I think we should eat it before discussing anything else life-changing.”

That successfully brought a smile to her face and they returned to eating.

“Can I drop you home? Or do you prefer to take a taxi?”

“I have given you all the rights now, haven’t I?”

“It will take some time to get used to it. Let’s go. I hope Kirti doesn’t wake up.”

Karishma could barely sleep that night. Siddhartha’s patience has disarmed her of any resistance. That man hadn’t as much as tried to kiss her. She was at his house, alone with him, late at night. And God knows she was willing. She had been willing for a while now. Was it possible to have two such diametrically opposite men in one woman’s life? One the one hand was Vikram, her husband, who had tried to own her. From the very night of their wedding. How he had pounced on her tired, unprepared body. All the desire she had ever felt had left her over the years she had put up with him. Constantly frightened of doing something to displease him, she had stopped thinking about herself, her needs. And now, when she had finally resigned to a life of drudgery, focused solely on bringing up her daughter, Siddhartha had come to sweep her off her feet. Not in the flamboyant style of the novels she had read as a teenager. Not an alpha male making her quiver in his embrace despite her protests. No! He had told her what he felt. Boldly, confidently, clearly. But there was no attempt at coercion in the guise of romance. He hadn’t pressed her into anything. Except – and here she chuckled softly – insisting on her taking taxis! No showering her with gifts. No showing up at her door unannounced. No insistence on dropping her home. No attempt to even hug or kiss her. Their first hug had been initiated by her that morning! And how cool he had been about Soumen. Vikram would have tried to lock her up for much less, for a man as much as smiling at her — she paused. No, she didn’t want to think what that horrible man would have done in Siddhartha’s place. He could never have been in Siddhartha’s place. Vikram was the man who would have been happy to see his own daughter dead. And Siddhartha had taken care of the girl who was a nobody to him without as much as letting Karishma know. She had to stop comparing. It would spoil something so good she was fortunate enough to have. It’s too bad she couldn’t simply forget about Vikram. She would have to get a divorce. But no! No comparison ever. She turned again and since sleep was still evading her, she picked up her phone and opened Facebook to pass some time. She hadn’t checked it in a long time. There were a few friend requests. Mostly from random strangers. But one was from… Siddhartha! Was he even on Facebook? She clicked through his profile. Surely it was empty, at least for those who were not his friends. There was, however, a profile photo there to indicate that it was him. Smiling, she accepted the request. Immediately came a message.

“Are you awake?”

“You too?” she replied.

“Couldn’t sleep.”

“Why?”

“I made a mistake today.”

“What mistake?”

“I didn’t kiss you. I really wanted to.”

Her heart skipped a beat. She wrote back, “Why didn’t you?” She added a smiling emoticon to the message.

“Because I didn’t know if you were ready.”

“I thought you were really good at reading body language.”

“Are you provoking me, Miss?”

“Do I have to?”

“I think you already are. And if provoked, I will just kiss you in front on the entire office.”

“No, you won’t do that!” she replied hastily.

“Give me one reason why I wouldn’t.”

She tried for a while to reply to that. She started typing several times but abandoned each effort. Then her mobile rang.

“Hey!” his voice was soft at the other end, “I was joking.”

“I know,” she whispered, barely.

“But you know what the right answer was?”

“What?”

“That it would make you uncomfortable.”

“I don’t understand.”

“One good reason I won’t do that – or anything else for which this question can be asked – is that it makes you uncomfortable.”

“Are you a saint?”

“No Karishma,” he chuckled, “I am no saint. And trust me, next time we are alone, I am going to kiss you senseless.”

And only that? She couldn’t help that thought from entering her head. To him she said, “Have you killed someone with kindness?”

“Are you trying to provoke me again?”

“Give me one good reason why I shouldn’t?”

“I will give you a thousand tomorrow. So, you better get some sleep now.”

She grinned and although he couldn’t see it, he could hear it in her voice when she said, “Good night.”

“Good night, Karishma.”

No romance novel of her adolescent years had taught her that just bantering about a kiss that didn’t happen could be so arousing. How was she supposed to sleep in this state?

To be continued